Yay..happy me happy you!

Assalamualaikum people~

Ooooh..great life! heuuehueh..kenapa kan? apa jadi kan? mengapa kan? hehe...not much..tapi kan..aku happy berabis sebab aku sudah liat Final Fantasy Advent Children and the Last Order!!! YAY~ *lompat2 luan excited mcm ambuk* kwang3x...ooops..hehe~ aiyoo...happy hantap aku ahh...nasib jua ada Limewire...oooh Limewire, ko lahh hero ku...heuhuheheu..mcm banar aku ahh..

Tapi kan..nda jua ku puas hati lahh..i mean, selagi aku nda membeli DVD nya, selagi atu aku nda puas ati banar..antah kenapa...maybe my fanatic side says "Gotta catch em all"...LOL..heuheue..and also, ada something pasal storyline nya buat aku rasa, emm, this is not right...bangang ku...heuheuhee..iyaaa, itu dia aku kan kritik ni..lol...

Tapi what I love best is....the battle sequences!! Atuuuuuu lawa ia punya battles~ ke jiwa ku...LOL...especially Sephiroth lawan Cloud dalenk ku sayang..heuheuhe..:x tapi aku paling suka battles yang ramai2 ahh, berlawan sama Bahamut yang super cool and paling ku minat antara semua GF or beings yang kana summon!! Love Bahamut~..wahhhhhh, dalenk ku Vincent Valentine dengan gaya coolnya..adui mak, ke jiwa banar..heuheu...hensem2...Red 13 jua best!! doggie dog ku..LOL...

The funny things dalam da ceta also ada...heuheuh..c Reno and c Rude ahh...aiyoo, durang atu, cute!! kawaiii ne!!! suka ku liat durang..kira penghibur dalam ceta atu lahh..hahahaa~ Reno tah terutamanyaa...aihh Reno, hensem ko ahh tapi...heuheuhuehue...cinta ku hanya pada Cloud Strife...heuheuhe! :P Sephiroth pun cool jua..best ia atu jadi evil person in da ceta...heuheuhe...Kadaj, Yazoo and Loz, emm, time battles, memang cun ahh sequences nya..best~~~ :P

Yang buat aku nangis mcm c paloi, time masa last nya ahh..uwuwuwuwuw...Aeris yang lawa, yang best..isk isk isk, liat expression mua Cloud lagi masa ia liat Aeris..adui makk, sedih ihh...sayang ihh Aeris awal mati..isk isk iskk, dua kali ku liat, dua kali jua ku nangis masa ending nya atu...atu banar aku ahh, menghayati!!! heueuheuhe...calie jua...tapi iskk, kenapa ko pergi Aeris-chan yang lawa yang cute yang hantap baik nya ahh..adui mak...Tifa lawa jua, cool ihh ia atu...ganya, ndada ceta lovey dovey kah ia sama Cloud???? isk isk iskk...ending pun nda clear sangat...of course lah durang happily ever after tah kononnya...but, mcmana Cloud??? kawin kah ia? mcmana Tifa? mcmana Rufus?? adui makk..terlalu byk persoalan...tapi yg ku tau Red13 ganya ahh idup atuu batah...sampai ada anak kah, cucu kah tuu..LOL...:x

Tapi what's make me feel so much sampai menghayati ani...perasaan bersalah Cloud...not being able to save anyone katanya....tapi in the end, ia sedar yang ada people who support ia...and that is what is so important..isk isk iskk...aku pun terfikir jua, aku pun ada rasa bersalah...tapi bukan not being able to save anyone kah apa..tapi not being able to please everyone...atu tah ia...isk isk iskk...seksa nyamo...alangkah bagusnya kalau i can please everyone, can make them smile with my prsence, can make them happy with me alongside their lives...waduhhh..ganya, it's truly impossible...aiyooo...feel so bad now..:x

Anyway, atu saja tah...signing off...muahzz..

ZC - Jadi pemilih dalam hidup, tapi utk kebaikan sendiri...LOL

Kisho-Sama..hait! Japanese obsession~lol

Assalamualaikum peeps~

Huhuheuheuheu....aiyoo~ batah nda update my bloggy ani~ mana kan jua aku ahh...malas jua, buring jua, sibuk jua..heheuhue..mcm2 ada nyamo~ lol....lagipun too much things in my mind masa ani...aiyooo~~ I'm having muddled, mixed, rojak thoughts, hueheuhue...

Oooooo...kemarin, feeling sanak plus hedek plus bloated...lol...antah ih kenapa...kan muntah2 lagi rasanya, maybe kan menses kali kot??? hueheuhueuheuhe....makan panadol sebiji, tapi nda jua mengasi banar...heuheu, terpaksa ku tidur awal jadinya~heeuhuehheuhe...nda cia aku melakukan kegiatan malam seperti biasa, which is : chatting and online~ lol...abis2...

Ohh yesh, masa ani lain keraja ku ahh...chatting in MiRc plg ku..huehuehheu...aktif nyamo mlm2 timbul di sana, especially in cenel maktabduli~ heuheuheu...aku jadi tukang nyanyah sana, kes buang buring plus buang tabiat...and meeting a few new, erks, some of the people in the MiRC...heuehue...tapi thanks to Ms^Pot a.k.a Potty kamvang latenks hantap~:P emm..and under the nick of ^KiShO-SaMa^...:P

Apa meaning ^KiShO-SaMa^ ??? Huheuhueh...emmm...not sure lah aku ani..but I think "one who knows himself"...heuhuehhe...nama laki2 nyamo...sesuka hati ku memakai nama ahh...saja~ mula2 nya memakai nama HeRoInAdDiCt which is the nick yang aku selalu pakai since this year..heuheh...and then, aku tukar makai nama "^KuRoSaMa^, tapi kan nada meaning walaupun cute bunyinya..heuhheuheuheuhe...kamvang banar aku ani~

Okies...lovelife news??? Nada apa2...hehe...nothing's changing...only one in my mind..huehuehuheuhe...sapa nah????? ada lahhh~ walaupun ia nda anggap aku potential GF in future, tapi heuhehe..aku sedia menjadi GF nya...kwang 3x...adui mak, kesian ku ih! Apa jua ku bulih buat...cian2...berusaha saja...erkss, tapi dalam bab ani, nda ku mampu berusaha...udah tah kami atu kawan baik, if i do tell him i like him, things will never be the same again...isk isk isk, atu yang aku nda mo tu nah~ from kawan baik jadi musuh kah, jadi strangers kah apa kah...aduii makk...silap2 haribulan, ia nda mo ada contact wif me again...lagi sengsara~ I'm being negative, ohhh hantap sasak ku nih....well, let it be like that...sesiapa ada nasihat, bagitau tah aku~ heuheuhuhe...

I'm done now!! Arigatou gozaimasu minna!!! lol...perasan japanese aku ahh..heuheueue...bye2

Signing off~

ZC - ^KiShO-SaMa^ = one who knows himself/herself...i have a place in life to be something of worth~

I'm missing somebody ~

Assalamualaikum y'all~

Been quite some time since I last updated my bloggy nih~....hahhahaha...sibuk dgn keraja and stuffs...assignments lagi memanjang..hahah...without realizing, kan bulan 10 udah..kan puasa~ wakaaka...and also..emm, kan birthday ku tuh~ cewaahhh...heheh...mikin tuha tah aku nih~ 22 years old..hahha...lawa da number, i like it~ udah patutnya mature and mikin cool~ hahahahahah! *LOL* dapat kawin udah tue!! tapi nadai calon nyamo!

Owh..hopefully will be back to Brunei nih..in bulan 11 sebab nya baru tadi ku terliat da jadual of da exams...wakakka..kira2nya dalam pertengahan bulan 11 lah aku balik Brunei..hehe..yakin ahh aku ahh~ astene...mudahan jua lah~sampat jua beraya tue arah rumah2 kawan2 tuh~ hehehe...cewahhh!!

*sigh*....aku bangang nih...antah kenapa...somehow...hahaha..memang calie nih...emmm...aku macam missing somebody!!! *LOL* heheh...erkk...antah ih...sapa??? kamu mo tau siapa?? heheh...aduii mak, gerenti kamu ketawa nih...wakakakkaak..yakin ku ah~ nda ia online for a few days and aku sudah macam buring berabis...macam ilang something...isk isk iskk...rindu ke??? wakakakkaka..adui mak...abis2...astene...rindu kat seseorang yang nda ku sangka bulih rindu ani wahh~ macamana kan tue?? hahahahha....palui ihh~ astene....wapeh ih~ webek kebek lebek tebek bebek~ hahahahaahahaha..astene!!

oooh yesh...atu saja dulu ih..wakakakaka...ohhh aku gumbira nih jua...da faveret da muchie TV series ku..."HOUSE" kana calonkan in the Emmy Awards!!! Yay..oohh, bahagia nya aku..minat ku ihhh ceta ahh....obsessed ku ih!! Wakakakakaka...Hugh Laurie, u r da best!!!! Wuv his character as Gregory House tuh!!! Fanatik ihh akue ahh, bulih~~~~ hehehhe!!! Emm..masa ani in USA, udah season 2!!! Matik..isk isk iskk...adui makk!!!! Nda ku dapat miss rasanya ceta ahh~ wakakaka...ke jiwa tuh..huhuhuh..:P

Okies..I'm done here~ Next time lagi..isk isk isk..nyaman jua rasanya meluahkan diri ahh...wakakakka...astene...hehehehe~~~ani tah siuknya berbloggy...wakakakaka!!

Signing off ~~

ZC - I miss u..but then...why do i cannot accept or love u for my own??

Zemo ke jiwa day~ hahaha!!

Assalamualaikum peeps...

Wahahaha...hari ani luan bahagia ku nih...cewaahh...pada yang inda tahu, aku masih clinical di Community Mental Health and this will be the last week!! Yay! Tapi sedih jua ihh...ahakz, gonna miss dat place and my Buddy nurse ahh, Peter!!! :P

Owh, owh..gonna share2 with u all...hari ani aku bahagia...kwang 3x..berapa kali aku balik2 taip ahh?? hehe..kes bahagia sangat nyamo...okies...one thing is, ada student yang undertaking his placement arah tempat yang sama dengan aku tapi not nursing plg...ia ani placement for social worker lahh..wakakaka...bahagia ihh...emm emm...first time ku jumpa ia time meeting for case reviews bah...kwang 3x...di dapan mata nyamo...pikirku doktor sebab usul nya ahh..ahakz...tapi panya student social worker bah..emm kan kata hensem, nda jua lahh...good looking and yang paling ku suka time ia senyum!!! Waaaahh, berputar dunia ku dengan mcm2 kaler! Ahakz...apa lerr...anyway...ke jiwa lah first time ia senyum arah aku...waduhhhh~ ahakz...

Okies, namanya?? Panggil ja c Chad ihh...wakaka...omputih nih...hehe...emm emm...iatah kan, aku ani pikir payah kan jumpa ia atu bah...cos kami lain2 buddy nurse bah..iatahkan...ngam2 hari ani bah, ada meeting for smoke check which is basically mcm education process for case managers to educate clients nya supaya nda bersigup..heheh...and guess what? panya c Chad ani ada!! Waahhh..melayang jiwa ku...hehe! and so...aku ani duduk di siring lah..jauh..hehe, and my buddy nurse c Peter duduk dakat meja...ndada kerusi dakatnya, and so aku duduk lahh sorang2 di ujung2...hehe...emm..and then!! Alamak~ c Chad ani duduk di sebelah kuu...aaahhhhhhhh~ owhh my goodness!! dengan senyumannya yang sweeeeeeeeeeeet!! aduiiii makk..tolong anak mu ani..hehe..

Iatah, emm...ia tagur aku and aku pun cakap sikit2 ja lah...mcm mimpi ihh ia duduk sebelah ku..kwang 3x, then kami ani meliat orang menghidangkan toasted bread bah di meja...kami ani duduk jauh lahh and so, aku time atu lagi lapar, ahakzz...eksen ja lahh menapuk lapar ku aahh...tapi kann...iatah, aduiii makk...c Chad ani tanya aku, mau makan toasted bread atu kah?? aku cakap nda lahh, no thanx and how about u? nda mau kah? kalau nda aku ambilkan, katanya nda sebab ia kanyang masih...ahakz...fusyoo...and then nda sampai lima minit ia tanya lagi, sure nda mau da toasted bread? kata ku, no, nda payah tah...ahakz...and then..ia pujuk aku makan!! Waduhhhh!!! and terpaksa aku angguk dengan ayunya...kwang 3x...hahahahah!!! iatah ia ambilkan, waduhhh!!! malu nyerr beta...adeh makkk...and then ia ambilkan tisu lagi!! Waahhhhh, ke jiwa ihh...astene!! menahan diri ja bah aku dari berlari keluar sebab dalam hati, ada rasa kan explode bah...fusyoo, excited kali ahh...wakakaka!! fuhh fuhh....malunyer...kwang 3x....

sepanjang smoke check atu, nda ku berapa perhatian bah...ahakz, selahau banar ihh..c Chad ani lagi malar toleh2 time aku ketawa...(ketawa time ada orang buat jokes dalam meeting ahhh~) waduhh, kontrol ayu cia aku aahh...bulih!!!!!!! and so...lepas atu, abis ler..ahakzz..main mata gitu cakap see ya laterzzz!! kononnya nda jumpa lagi lahh tuhhh..kwang 3x...tapi apa nah??? jumpa cia lagi!!! AHHHHHH~ ke jiwa lagi ku ihh...kali ani duduk sama2 di meja tapi with my buddy nurse jua lahh di sana...durang bercakap and aku gerenti mesti ada di sana cos buddy nurse ku ada di sana..heheh!! :P kali ani, waaahh...ke jiwa ihhh...sambil ia cakap2, ia liat2 aku with senyumannya...kwang 3x...buleh gila jadinya!! :D

Ku sangka ahirnya di sana saja...kwang 3x...heheh..panya jumpa lagi!!! aaaahhh...kenapa?????!!! tapi kali ani berdua gitu...heheh!! my buddy nurse sibuk doing something with his client's chart and aku di dapur lerr...and panya ada c Chad ani...kwang 3x....kami cakap2 gitu and then ia offered aku coffee!! Ahakz...aku cakap no thanx ihh..and katanya sure?? aku cakap sure...eksen ku lagi bagitau aku kan lunch jua...ahakzz!!! waduhh...ke jiwa ihhh laki2 nya ani...lalalalalalala...english ku pun nda bertantu jua olehnya...astaga!! Selahau rasanya aku ani ihh...ke jiwa banar...tapi sayangnya, tinggal dua hari lagi ganya ni sebelum ku abis clinical...waduhhh!!! akan ku kenang dirimu Chad...kwang 3x...bwohh!!!

Anyway...atuu saja lahh...ahakzz, emmm....nda banyak bah kan ku share time clinical atuu...ahakz...sebab mostlynya ke rumah orang and bagi depot..heheh...and banyaknya meliat system administration and management...:P complicated things...:D

Okies...done here!! Atu saja...

ZC - Baru rasanya kan terminat omputih...ahakzz!! apa ler...kan jadi orang Aussie??? hehe...

Zemo..just updating..:P

Assalamualaikum y'all...:D

Okies, just wanna make this brief and sweet...wakakak..kes malas kan menaip banyak2 bah nii...nda kamu kesian kan aku kahh?? ahakz...anyway, here's da summary of what i've been doing in the weekdays this week...kwang 3x...:P

Hmm, kena placed in Community Mental Health and aku ada Buddy nurse named Peter! Ahakz..laki2 nyamo..nasib nda hensem, nasib jua nda muda..kalau nda, aduii, ke jiwa tah tuu..ahakzz!! He's incredibly nice...kadang2 ia bangang kan cakap sama aku sebab aku pendiam and luan ayu ani...wakakakaa..nda banyak cakap bah...iatah...susah sama aku ani!:P Anyway, first day sudah aku kena bawa home visit a.k.a ke rumah org mental...wakakakka...banyak orang mental yg ku jumpa ani, some i would say freaked me outzz..and some would be just nice and sweet enough..ahakz..bwoh..tertaip dlm bahasa english nih...wakakaka...emmm...rupanya banyak boarding houses a.k.a hostels untuk org mental, and most freakingly strange, banyak dakat2 tempat aku tinggal masa ani whcih is in Lutwyche....wakaka..bwohh!! as my buddy nurse would say "a lot of mad people live near you!"....wakakaka...adui makk...

done my first IM injection arah bum...wakakakakak..tapi kajar2 jua lahh dikit...ijap nyamo, first time lahh katakan...sampai my buddy nurse tepuk2 my shoulder and kata "you did well, ummi"..wakakaka..kambang ku plg jadinyaa...isk isk iskk...and ada time jumpa client yang schizoaffective where client ani bukan main laju bercakap sampai nampak ia ampus ahh..nda lagi mau berhenti cakap tuu..aku plg ijap...ish ish ish..and ada client yang delusional banget sampai kata ada polis kan tangkap ia tapi nda banar bah...adui makk...and ada patient lagi delusional sampai ia kata nenek nya bagi ia wasiat yang ia dapat all the banks, all the companies in the world...waduhh..rasa kan ketawa tapi kesian jua...sebab bagi durang, apa yg durang cakap atu banar...kitani nda dapat suruh ia kata nda banar...:P

time di community mental health ani...aku rasa macam aku sendiri dah keraja sana sebab the whole team atu baikkkkk sangat...time meeting, aku kan bawa jua walaupun aku nda tau apa yang kan durang cakapkan...time case reviews, duduk sama doktor2...waaahh...rasa bisai bahhh...unbelieveable...:P different kalau di brunei...i am proud to say that i have been given such a chance to be here in Australia...syukur alhamdulilah sudah bagiku...luas pandangan gitu (termasuk jua melihat para doktor2 yang hensem banget...aaahh, ke jiwa!!)

Anyway..atu saja kali..summary jua ganya aaahh...wakakakak..sebab malas niii...adui makk..mesti ku rajinkan diri nih..hehehee....

And oh, masih kelahi sama Wayne bangang nak mampus atu...aku sama Zul dah cleared up just being friends...masih alum jumpa Zaim lagi since gath...Harris and aku ndada contact...a couple of Mirc chatters yang ku kenal still in stage berkenalan...wakakaka..and aku masih alum ada gambar terbaru masa ani untuk di sharekan...sebab aku malassss...ahakzz!! Birthday lagi nda lama...adui mak, 22 tahun cia umurku yang cool ani..ahakzz...golden number tuh...:P


ZC - Menanti saat bahagia menjelang tiba...kwang 3x...ahakzz..as in balik ke brunei!! (kamu pikir apa?)