I am BORED!!! :x

Currently wanting to watch : Pirates of the Caribbeans 3 : At World's End

Currently needed to : Do my 1500 words reflective journal

Currently craved for : Sushi and Dim Sum

Potty and me, trying our vainest to look like models sasat..wawawa...
Potty: I give u $2000 if u slim ur body down..

Kisho: Ermm..I might consider that...

Potty: *thinks to herself* Act cute, act cute, act CUTE!

Kisho:I'm still considering about ur offer eh, Potty..

This is when, I was asyikkk with reading and Potty decided to take a shot of herself with me in it..hohoho~
Potty:*thinks to herself* Jual mahal sikit, jgn tgk camera..

Kisho: *thinks to herself* be vain, be very vain...
Kisho: I wanna cut my hair like yours Pot..

Potty: Sure, but lemme look at ur hair and analyse it first..

Heyyyooooooooo~

Yesterday, adalah hari yang sungguh berhujan..LOL..apakanz!! Just trying to sound stupid once for awhile..hehe. Anyway, yesterday was my last clinical placement in Ward 3. Wuuuuu~ Gonna mish durang yang di sana eyhhh!! And oh yeah, we did such a mischievous thing too...begauk banar ni paediatric students ani. Wawawa..Rushed to go back to hostel after clinical. Typed my contract learning (last minute work wah). Rushed to finish a 500 words in one hour. Nurul misscalled me. Got panicked. Typed and insert any craps i can find into the contract learning assignment. Nurul came and waited. Finished it up by 12 noon and pulled Nurul off her feet to kadai. Drove like a maniac and arrived rah Gadong. Nurul went to printkan my work while I drive aimlessly around the area. Nurul finished printing my work, got into car and I zoomed my way to Batu Bersurat. Nurul got out of car lagi and went into kadai photocopy. I drove around, cari parking. Got a parking and both of us went to eat our lunch in Ayamku. Delicious as always and cheap. Finished eating. Realized that we still got time. Went into a shop for about 10 minutes. Got out and went into a CD shop for about 5 minutes. Got bored and decided to drove back to hostel. Rushed around in my room to pack things up before going to college. At 2pm, ran like hell to college. Got into my class and realized teacher alum datang pun. Waited for 30 minutes and barutah teacher datang. Teacher asked for our contract learning assignment and i passed my assignment up nervously. Teacher explained about some important things for our next semester and our midsemester test. Finished at 3pm and I rushed back again to hostel. Nurul went home and I got bored. Macam biasa, duduk dapan laptop and chat. Potty offered me to go to Serusop. I agreed sal i was getting bored.

At 6pm, Potty came to hostel. Got into her car and she drove us to Serusop. Went to Tina Tara's hair saloon. Potty's bro cut hair di sana while me and Potty were doing our usual kind of naughty things. A bit of cam whore-ing. Got a feeling I wanted to cut my hair short but then I hesitated to do it. Maybe I'll do it next month. Decided then to go to Ideal and eat sal kami lapar. Potty texted with her friend, Zanna to meet up somewhere near Vinci. Meanwhile, I was thinking of getting something to munch on at Mum's. Potty met up with Zanna, I went into Chong Hock. Found several movies I wanted to watch one day. Met up with Potty, Zanna and Pot's bro. Walked around the area while I pondered upon HIM. Back to hostel by 7pm. Got bored again. Slept at 9pm which kununnya just for awhile saja. Woke up then at approximately 12am. Looked up at my laptop for any chatters to chat with. Potty Gaban awake like usual. Clicked her. Chatted and sent pictures tadi to her. Watched Youtube and laughed myself alone in my dark room. Cried too. Didn't realise it was 4am. Shocked. Potty minta izin to sleep and I slept afterwards, noting in my mind that I haven't misscalled HIM yesterday at all. Unhappy at the thought. Whatever.

There you go~~ An update..I was lazy. Pure, damn lazy banarnya to update but kesian jua Potty menagih minta update. Hahaha. Sowie Pot, this is all I can do. Lack of motivation wah. Anyway, the ringworm patches increased to THREE...two on my right arm and one near my cheek tapi nasib nda berapa nampak. Hehehe..Not itchy also tapi I can feel it. Amai tangan ku. Wawawawa...Hope I get well soon. Sometimes the itchiness is driving me mad..huhuhu.

Lurve,

Kisho-Sama

Updateee ciaaaa ku neee~

Currently listening to : Byul - Youme (200 pounds beauty OST)
Currently 'tais liur' of : Tungking ayam, Sushi and Dim Sum~ Ambuyat jua..huhu..


Hey peepz,

Back to me again~ As you all know, I've updated my blog's background because I got 'langu' when I looked at the old one...So decided to tukar a new background and had to hunt a nice one for the replacement of the old one (instead of hunting articles for my case study..huhuh). Hunting cia aku ani rah blogskins and ta-dahhh!! I found this one..I lurveeee the colours; black and lime green~~ antah lah, I feel like it's the most coolest combination of colours...huhu. There's another background similar to this but in black and light blue tapi nda ku tepakai, walaupun I lurveeeee BIRUUUU!! Oh well, sowie biwu..I have to be disloyal to you this time...huhuhu. Nantitah ku cari lagi background in blue...or maybe, I might make one (macam sepandai saja aku ani..hahaha...:P) Anyway, if the background colours hurt your eyes, please wear sunglasses *wicked laugh* but if you love it, just tell me that i'm soooooo good in choosing a blog's background!! *more wicked laugh* :P

Anyway~ (ooh, I lurve to use 'anyway' as starter for a new paragraph..in case you peepz didn't noticed~huhu) my ringworm skin infection a.k.a kurap atu semakin melarat..now I have TWO of that circle-red-disgusting looking patches!!! *feels horrible* The first one gets itchy all the timeeeee~~ and the second one, emm, gets itchy on and off...*shrugs* I just wanted to scratch themmmmm!!! Sebab gatal banget, macam mengurik-ngurik wah rasanya...miang lagi tuh!! AND I feel macam kan gigit tempat yang gatal atu or pour a damn boiling HOT water over it or acid!!! But, of course...that's the trick of the skin infection kan? It's provoking and seducing me to scratch and do crazy things like those and then dapat cia ya melarat to other parts of my body..urgghh!! Such bittersweet temptations...huhu, apakanz!! *pouts* I'm keeping my best to keep them dry...covered them with gauze and opsite lagi tuh! Hahaha...put Fucidin cream on it while waiting for my friend to hand over another cream tomorrow that she claims will cure this infection gradually..huhu..thanx ah gurl~ Hopefully mau menjadi eh..hehe *winx*

Now, now...I kinda enjoyed my placement in Ward 3 now. It's been boring when I first started there last week tapi this week, it was enjoyable~~I'm gonna miss the staff nurses and assistant nurses and the kerani and the cicaks there..wawawa. Ward 3 banyak cicak wah...ewww, and I totally hate cicak~ That rubbery soft looking critter is making my goosebumps appear..hohoho! Let's just say I have a phobia for cicak...sal nya dulu, I had an unpleasant experience when a cicak gave me a 'suprise kiss' on the neck!! HAHAHA...bukan kiss wah, atu wah...cicak atu melumpat out of my school bag so suddenly masa ku meruah my school bag to get my homework and made an acrobatic jump onto my neck..melakat g sana tuh and I was terrified to da max kali ah that i grabbed that f**king beast and squeezed onto it kuat-kuat with my fingers...and at that moment I felt the beast moved frantically and argh, after a horrified scream, I threw it onto my brother who just came into our bedrooms! Wahahahah...tapi my brother nda sadar, and the cicak scurried off macam The Flash ke belakang almari my brother~ Damn creature...phobia ku plg..selahau! I hate cicak...ewww~ *goosebumps* I want cicak to be PUPUS from this world!! *wicked laugh*

Ohhh...no new things happening between me and him. He's doing it again..main tarik tali with me. Men! I would not understand, not ever I think...there are those times when he would be sooooo nice, sooooo good with me and soooooo sweet that it can make me swoon with delight for days (ilangkan stress kuuu..) and have a smile as bright as the sunshine can ever be...and then, WHAM! the next day he doesn't care, he doesn't even do those nice things...he doesn't even misscalled you..Sunyi. Nada nama nya appear on the handphone screen. I misscalled and there's no reply. WTH??!! I texted him several times. Sunyi. Nada reply rah inbox message. Okayyyy~ this is strange, is he busy or what??Ermm...and I feel macam the most 'asi-asi' & 'siok sendiri' girl ever when I misscalled him several times til he misscalled me back (he misscalled once in return of my 'meriah' misscalling) ..texted him til he misscalled me back (which is better than not having any sort of reply)..then waited for him to misscalled me sampai tertidur (in which i feel so stupid to do..urgh!) Then lapas atu, there he goes again...being sweeeeeet and nice and made my day happier..huhuh! Selahau!! And yet, nda ku pandai jara..huhu. People in love do silly things and I am doing it. Teruk eyh...*smack my own head*

BTW...i'm gaining weight~ A girl's own worst nightmare is now haunting me!!! Aaaahhh!! *horrified* Damn eh..Ohhhh well~~ *do those malas ku ingau attitude*

Lurve,
Kisho-Sama

Ewww...apakan toh?!!!

The...oh-what-the-hell-is-that thing..huhu...eww~

Posting up again..hehe..rajin ku blogging in entries today. Sesaja...

Well, u see...there's this something on my right arm la...very itchy mitchy lohh and antah la, it's getting bigger...it's drying up tho daripada sariatu when it first started..ganya masani macam bari gali lagi usulnya..hahaha. And it's still itchy..I keep on scratching on it sal amai tangan ku menggaru...I wonder if I can put some cream on it, Fucidin kali bagus?? Hehehe...might as well try it...emm, esuk tah kali I try to find a Fucidin cream in the ward...hehe..

Hopefully...bukan skin ringworm infection..wawawa...tepaksa tah ku ke doktoi tu nahh!! Hate going to the doctors...

I want these babes!! Yowser..they're HOT!!

Canon EOS 400D
Nikon D40X

Owhh...I'm in lurve with these sexy gadgets~~ I want one of them or BOTH of them~~ Tolong ehh..Anyone to sponsor and buy me these?? Lau ada, ku sayang kamu banyak2 eeeiii...sanggup ku belanja kamu everyday for a month!! Hehehe..Balikan for my birthday nanti ah..wawawa...I ask only these~ I wonder bila tah ku mampu kan membali a DSLR camera...one can cost almost BND$8000 (lau yang paling mahal lah ahh) and the cheapest one would be almost BND $600-700...huhu, bek plg bali stok megi 5 tahun tuh, kanyang jua pawut...But alum lagi membali the lens and stuffs...bwohh...gundul kepala jua ulihnya if kan membali semua..but for now, I only wish to buy the camera ja...I can't wait to be working in the future (with a gaji..huhu) and use a loan to buy a DSLR camera!! Wait for me darlings!! I'm gonna buy you one day & be one of those cool photographer in Brunei...hehehe...*dreamy look*

Lurve,

Kisho-Sama

Walkathon for Nurses' Day - 26/5/07

Budak2 tgh tunggu aerobik to start sambil cuci mata n datenx..huuhu..
Ready to rumble models..huhuh..semangat yo!! :P
Teachers ready2 to start aerobik session..
Burning those calories...emm..by walking?
Ka Zai, Mizah n Nurul wif others yg bakal mengegarkan Tasek Lama..hahaha..:)
Amal with her usual cheerfulness n Saedah during aerobic session...huhh...move those butts gurls!
Move it, Move it!!
Queuing melintas jambatan...huhu..

Waiting for the walkathon to start..ujan ah tym atu..
Everybody!!! Let's aeROOOObic time!!
Me & Amal being so tired til i starved for water & Amal had lockjaw syndrome..hahaha!
Finally, Amal was able to recover from her lockjaw syndrome & I was tekojut smpai tgigit lidah..hehe..

Assalamualaikum peepz~

Just a short update on what happened yesterday (26/5/07)...there was a Walkathon for Nurses' Day arah Tasek Lama and awu, we are to be required to join in...hohoho. A slightly rainy morning greeted us on that particular day and awu, kami masing-masing berdoa dalam hati that that day would eventually UJAN tah banar2...hahaha, tapi we are left 'hampa -hearted' with a sunny morning soon after we finished our aerobic session!!

Aerobic session was fun, emm...no,make it hilarious!! I can't follow most of the steps sal my body isn't following to what I want to do...in Brunei word, KARAU wah ku beaerobik ahh!! Kepisan..hehe.I have no talent at all in such things walaupun ku minat banarnya (minat pun sal kan 'menunu' kalori dalam badan sama lamak2 yang bergumpalan di badan ani~ huhuh) Oh well, but I enjoyed it...bepaluh-paluh jua diri eh ulih nya. And it left me with a sense of 'ringan badan' (that's when before I looked at my 'burui' tummy and i'm left with a disgusted feel inside). Shake da ass babe, yeah~~ I admire the aerobic instructer for being so talented in her moves...ahakz..and her body, wow...wish mine is like hers...but apakanz!!! I am me and I should be happy..huhuh...:P

Soon lapas aerobic session, barutah start walkathon atu...huhu..naik bukit...emm..owh man..no komen...kekekek. I was drinking my bottle of water sampai kan abis udah aingnya and that was not even halfway of the walkathon track!!! HAHAHA...I am soooo not fit lagi ever since I returned to Brunei...selahau eh...Maybe I need to join in a sports' club or something to keep myself fit wah...anyone to offer me that?? Hehehe..I am not talented in sports too..so you'll have to think twice before offering a place for me.:P

My tummy is getting membesar...wawawa..burui wahh!! I need to get myself pumped up and yeah, lose those sweats...tapinya, i'm too lazy and only wish for some quick fixes to make me slim..hohoho. It's as if ada quick fixes that can miraclously make me slim wahh...bisai tu eh if ada..hahahaha..I'm getting my body conscious vibe now...(pasal meliat ceta 200 pounds of beauty wah nii..yatah makanyaaa!)..esshhh...I need diet~ I need liposuction!! Hahaha...anyone to sponsor me?? :P exerciseeeeeeeeeeee, ooh i need to exerciseeeee.....Potty, let's get wasted belari rah pantai?? Mau? Wawawa..everyday go pantai belari...fuhhh...macamnya I am so fit udah kan belari2 sana sini..kekeke..

Ermm....my love life...apa nah? Ntah nda ku tau wah...I don't understand men, I don't understand HIM!! Everyday ya missed call aku..everyday I'm wasting my time thinking of what does it mean...Yatah tu jadi bini2 ani payah wah, semuanya kan di analisis...it's in my nature wah, what can I do than just question every little thing and get all deep on what men do!! Oh well...malas ku banyak mikirkan...(tapi ku fikirkan jua tu..chitz..hahha)

Okeh..atu saja eh..malas ku menaip banyak2...hahaha...

Lurve,

Kisho-Sama

=Don't make me confused...I am left hanging here wondering what you are thinking..=

oH Noo~ what have u doneeee??~

Hi-ya peepz~

Me again, back to bring & share u bits of my complicated life...So what have I been doing for these few days?? Well, masih lagi clinical attachment in RIPAS...this time, I'm in Ward 3. So, what do I gain from my attachment in Ward 3?? Nada. Zitzz...Not much, well, make it just a little...*shrugs* Okayyy...actually, there's no patient in Ward 3...there are a few *shrugs again* 1 or 2 patients..but emm...it's not a busy ward. Totally not a busy ward...hohoho. I'm bored to death just staying in the ward, there's nothing I could do...well, except for TPR & I/O charting which kami 'berabut' jua buat wif the staff nurse..LOL..thank God ja ku nda kaja with one of the MOST annoying staff nurse rh Ward 3 ah...I hate her cos she acts all superior and ambung and seems to look down on students~ Nda sadar wah diri atu dulu pun student jua kali ahh...luan jua kan ambung nya udah keraja atu!! Senyum pun ndamo ah...lau senyum pun, kan mati usulnya senyum ah..senyum penyindiran to da max!! Eshh....sasak ku eh if ingatkan ya and I wanted to sumbat my ears if I even hear her speak!!! Sasak banar ku bini2 atu..Hahahah!! Alhamdulillah tah udh tu I'm not with her in one shift..hohoho~~ Pray that I won't meet her tym d Ward 3..:X

Anyway...I'm confused right now. Tuhan ja yang tahu perasaan what's inside me...huhuh. Ever since we txted each other last two weeks (heart to heart ones..yg meluahkan perasaan)I've been distracted from my real world. Hohoho..ertinya, nda ku concentrate at anything so much as before...my mind keeps whirling between me and HIM. Especially now, ever since last week...ya malar missed calling me for like almost everyday...bwoh! I don't really know and understand apa makna nya tu, it make sme confused cos he told me before yang if he missed call, it means he's thinking of me..I really would want to know, to ask tp how? Wanted to txt him up tapi 3g nya nada kredit..I wanted to transfer some credit to him tp..krg kana marah. HOHOH..so might as well, leave it at that dulu. Even today, we're like having a Missed Call war mcm dulu2..hahaha. But it's making me 'gelisah' and well, i dunno what i should really do..whoops!! Why did I type these up~ Hahaha..never mind me...:P

Been really busy jua with my paed course...naleh eh. Mental jua ulih nya. Contract learning to be submitted next week (which aku lum g siap buat..wawa...kurang g references) and yes, my EP progress (which ku baru antar my intro this week) and also my incident report on 9/6 (yg nda ku tau pa kan ku buat...n not yet cri references) and I have to study for my mid semester test on 9/6 (which i feel i have to do it during the last minutes...wawawa)...so that's it...banyakkkk kan di buat..Feel like I'm not catching up in par with the studies yet...fuhh, just hope I can manage to catch up quickly~~ And oh yeah, I have to get ready for the presentation on Saturday for the 21st intake on our study abroad programme.I need to make a video for the presentation... Ohh mann...so many works!!

Bah atu tah saja dulu..I'm quite tired...hehe..nanti tah update when I have the mood and time.Ciao~~

Lurve...
Kisho-Sama

=MC WAR!! Baffled by the opponent=

"Beautiful Girl - 200 pounds of beauty OST"

200 pounds of beauty - hilarious yet touching~

"200 pounds of beauty's promo poster"

Imagine what would you guys do if a very fat lady loves you? She's nice, she's innocent and she has that perfect voice made for her to sing to her fullest heart's contents...but it's just that physical looks of hers that really turned you off yet she really loves you so much that she even endured every and each of the pain of having a plastic surgery to transform herself into a beauty that turned every other guys' heads towards her...however, that beauty she transformed into is just for the sake of you, whom she loves sincerely...she changed herself just for you...Sad but true in some aspects of reality in our life...loving so much til you would sacrifice even your life for the one you love...

Anyway, "200 pounds of beauty" is a good movie to watch. I enjoyed it quite a lot! It seemed at first like "Cinta Kolesterol", the Malaysian movie with Erra Fazira being the very fat lady but "200 pounds of beauty" is different in every other way, well, except the heroin being the fat lady in the house..huhuhu. It's about a very obese young lady named Hanna who has a beautiful voice, fit for an excellent singing career. However, being physically 'unattractive' Hanna couldn't be a singer for all she want to and eventually became a 'ghost singer' who sang backstage for a lip-synching singer named Ammy, whom I really don't like due to her attitude..huhuh. Hanna endured all of this because she loves a producer named Sang Joong, a totally handsome hot guy who treated Hanna well. But of course, Hanna's physical look just doesn't let her confess her feelings to Sang Joong. So how does Hanna confesses her love for Sang Joong?? Watch the movie and you'll get the answer..hehe. I don't wanna spoil too much for this good movie...:P Also, the ending is quite emm...not an ending, that leaves me with lots of questions..."tergantung-gantung'" bah the ending...maybe there will be a sequel??? o_O

The soundtrack of "200 pounds of beauty" are excellent..I love most of the songs especially "Maria" and "Byul" sang by Kim Ahn Jung, the person who also acted as the heroin of this movie. A good movie combined with great soundtracks is just a waste to miss!! So I recommend for you peepz to watch it..You'll love it and yeah, please bring a packet of tissue to wipe those tears when you watch the movie...heheh! So..em, I'll give this movie a 4/5 or a 8.5/10...hehe..

That's all for now..sesaja ku kan review this movie sal the movie makes us realize that beauty should not be skin deep, it should be from the heart. And love is a powerful force that can make us sacrifice everything for the one we love...and it should be appreciated. So be grateful for the people who has found the love of their life, treasure that person you love and make them happy...:)


Lurve,
Kisho-Sama


=I sacrifice what I have only for HIM to make HIM happy=

Just posting up a little...

Somehow, I'm feeling that feeling again...apa nah? That feeling of self worthlesness...that feeling of loneliness...that feeling of nobody likes me for who i am...*sigh* I'm not happy...I'm tortured in my own self criticsm...I am trying to be what I am, who I am...but somehow, I'm just getting farther away from that stage...I feel myself beginning to change a lot...

Anyway, I miss him...really am missing him..tho he won't feel such a way with me...i'm sorry for loving him...I just can't help it...there will be someone new but that won't help me erase the love i have for him...*sigh*

= Confused at my own self =

Karaoke-ing session @ pot's crib

My karaoke-ing skill is making da camera dizzy..LOL..cematu tah sumbangnya toh!
With one of my duet partner...cewahh...kontrol singing toh~
Kisho : I'm like a model~

Emz : Ku act cute ja...

Potty : Nyehhh...aku g cute *tongue out*

Potty seemed to be 'nda tahan' kana dera with my karaoke-ing skill..HAHAHA...be tolerant Pot~

Aksi seorang peminat terhormat in karaoke singing..HAHAHAHA..

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Just posting up to say thanx to Potty sal mengizinkan kami melepaks di rumahnya dan men'yumbang'kan sedikit sebanyak suara kami untuk meriahkan rumah mu yang sunyi ato...HAHAHAH...sampai sore throat wah aku ni!! Kepisan eh..that's how much I love karaoke-ing...HAHAHAHA...

Lurve,

Kisho-Sama

=Potteh~ lanja aku di Escapade Sushi nanti!! LOL...ku tais liur sushi laaaa!!!=

gmbr2 di pantai jerudong..huhuh..13.5.07

Aksi 3 diva..LOL..(ewww~)
Oh man...look at my ugly fugly pose!! Potty ahh bepeace ya..wow, Emma wif her smile!!
The horizon...hohoho~
Potty : Akulah model iklan cigar tebaru...[actuallynya atu mknan..lol]
Acting mcm modelz..hahaha...nampak bolat pawut tani la pot!!
Trying to be vain...HAHAHA...
Mengiklankan cigar terbaru..hoho!
Potty kana tumbuk leh Emma sal mencuri cigar yg last...hohoho..
Ewah,ewah...aksi2 berjoget di tepi pantai..hoho
Modelz video clip lagu 'Pujuk Rayu Merayu'...Hahaha...

Short posting!!

Yo peepz..

Masani aku makin malas kan menaip an entry for my blog. Macam biasa, I lack da inspiration and mood to make a blog entry...Sometimes, ada rasa kan menaip atu tapi when I opened the create a new post page, datang cia kemalasan atu..cewahh! Ntah lah...my mood masani just trying to make myself busy ja dengan buat apa-apa yang dapat make me forget my current problems..HOHOHO..

Anyway, had fun lah wif Potty and Emma sariatu when we went to Pantai Jerudong. Camera whores in action!! HAHAHA..Emma pun kana bawa ani wah! And yeah, really having fun masa karaoke-ing at Potty's houz~ Yeahh...siuk ah karaoke-ing sambil ada markah ah..HOHO..da most dat we could get was 98% ja...aduii~ Nanti2 tah lagi Pot..we sing sampai dapat 100%!! HAHAHAHAH..baru bleh join P2F...kwang3x...Thanx ahh!! :p

My days in SCBU are numbered...nda batah g ku abis clinical sana. It was quite fun working there lah...Siuk meliat da babies...feed them, bathe them, talk to them..look at them..it was amazing! Atu baru jua menjaga babies urang..alum g menjaga my own baby tuu ehh...lau my own baby, emm...cemana toh ah?? Hahaha..I can't imagine lah...It may be just a far-fetched dream or a reality one day...Huhu, malas ku mikirkan eh...i'm still young..LOL~ My used-to-be target kan kawin was 25 yrs old..hahaha..which will be next year!! And when I was with HIM, he aimed to marry me when i'm 27 or 28 yrs old..*sigh* Hahaha..that was a funny one when he wanted to marry me last year...I won't forget that special happiest moment with HIM when he said 'Let's get married quickly~!!" Oooh well, that's in the past...*sigh*

Okayy..sebelum ku makin making a crap outta myself, I'll end this now..HOHO..hopefully, I will do a better blog entry next time..hehe..okay!! Peace!

Lurve,
Kisho-Sama

the seeds and maria - kau tetap milikku

tak pernah ku terfikir
terlintas akan terjadi
semuanya suratan illahi
andai kau mendengarkan
bisikan suara hatiku
dpt kah kau memahami
tak daya tuk ku melupakan
telah terpahat di lubuk hati ku
dan ingin ku nyatakan ku cinta padamu

seluas langit terbentang
sedalam hamparan lautan
begitulah kasih ku padamu
seindah palu irama
selembut gemalai tari
membuai jiwa penuh pesona
tiada yg dpt memisahkan
hanya takdir penentu suratan
tak usah kau ragu
ku jua menyintai dirimu

c/o namun semua itu hanyalah khayalan
diri mu dan diri ku takkan mungkin bersatu
andai ku sedari...sedari dulu
takkan ku cuba hampiri...
dirimu walau berkali ku cuba tuk melenyapkan
bayangan wajahmu dan kenangan lalu
dirimu tetap di hati ku
kau lah yg satu
untuk ku kau tetap milikku...

repeat c/o

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Yo peepz! Sesaja mempost lirik lagu from The Seeds and Maria's song "Kau tetap Milikku"...Lawa lah lagu ani. Especially the lyric ah...membagi ke jiwa wah if menghayati lagu ani. HAHAHA...well, anyway, enjoy the lyric ja lah..hehe..kesilapan menaip dalam lirik adalah amat dikesalkan..LOL...biasalah, bukan aku wah yang membuat lirik ani...:P This song, I dedicate it to Potty (sal ya sokaaa beravis kan lagu ani..hahaha) and to HIM...(sal that is what he is for me..tetap milikku~ :x)

Lurve,

Kisho-Sama

= Kau tetap milikku kerana hatiku milikmu..=

Posto2 gambar 10.5.07

Expressing my love into words..

NAFF - Kau Masih KekasihKu

jauh di lubuk hatiku

masih terukir namamu

jauh di dasar jiwaku

engkau masih kekasihku
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See how lyrics can be so beautiful and somehow can help us in expressing what we really feel...Music is an international language of what we are inside and how we can express it into a melody that will make us smile and cry...

Stubborn bitch :x

Hey..

Sorry for lacking in updating my blog entries...I lack the motivation and inspiration to pour out my thought's contents and transform it into a blog entry...Minta maaf yaa deh~ Sometimes, I find myself unable to put things happening about me in this blog...tapi, i'm being disloyal to my dear readers...:P

Anyway, I am not in a great feeling right now...Last week had been HELL..totally~ I am stressed to the point that I would eventually go crazy if there hasn't been any friends to support you in your time of despair...Thanx to friends that 'layan' me in confiding my 'stressful' events...thanx a lot....:)

Firstly, I am in a FAMILY problem..a BIG one. I'm not going to go home routinely every week again..I'm sick and tired of home...Don't ask me what's the problem, cos you will totally not like it even when I tell you..it's very BIG and I feel sinful, really in a mess...I am guilty but I am not totally feeling guilt because I have reasons to be in this BIG mess...Whatever!! I don't care anymore...because of it, I'm starting to hate myself too...Me, always the rebel of the family...*sigh* My stubborness is making me feel stupid and is hurting people around me...

Secondly, I am having a problem with HIM...it may not be a BIG problem but it got me into thinking and reflecting upon myself...Yes, I am guilty of still pursuing HIM for all those months ever since we broke up..Yes, I am stubborn to even obediently listen to my peeps' advices on moving on with my life...Yes, I am totally stupid in which I cannot deny my attitude is driving people crazy and disappointed...But who would ever know the feeling of really loving someone so much in your life? Loving in a way my own life has no value and can be sacrifice anytime he wants me to? Loving in a way I am breathing this very air and without it I cannot survive?... I can't move on, yes I tried but maybe not hard enough and I can't turn back now..I just don't care anymore...I hurt a lot inside but I tried to show I'm happy to people, I tried to show I am strong in facing the world...but in fact, it is the opposite...I can't stop thinking of US..I can't stop thinking what I should be doing...I just love HIM too much that I just can't express it into words...

There you go...a brief summary of my current life..I'm tired...I just wish I could sleep eternally and never to wake up again..I wish that without my existence, people would be happy and will never have to be hurt by me...I am sorry for those whom I hurt...I am sorry for being stubborn, selfish and full of anger...I'm sorry...

Lurve,

Kisho-Sama

Happy 'suprise nda menjadi' Bday to HIM...[1/5/07]

His birthday cake, it's a Choc Nougat...I bought this at Le Apple (promo japz...LOL)
HIM and HIS birthday cake...Potty ah~ interframe..LOL~
HIM, me cutting up da cake and Potty menunggu da cake...wawawa...
HIM opening up his birthday gift from me...wawawa..kepisan banar~
HIM and me...erm..:x

Hey~

Dropping in to post some of the pix and ceta sikit2 sal the suprise that I gave to HIM...nda plg menjadi my suprise...(I sux a lot in giving suprises at people~)

ANyway, thanx lah untuk my peepz yang ikut menjayakan rancangan atu and yeah, in the making of the Birthday Video for him...HOHOHO..., thanx a lot!! I owe u people a lot!!BUt at least, although nda menjadi da suprise and everything, I know he's happy with it...That makes me more happier than anything else...To see him happy...I wonder if I was alone doing it...ermm, apatah yang terjadi tu ah?? LOL..that would be romantic tapi I just don't want to steal the spotlight myself...lagipun I know he misses our peepz alot..Walaupun I cannot bring all of our peepz, at least, a small fraction of it can make him happy...I'll do whatever I can to make him happy...even if it hurts me a lot...even if I have to sacrifice my life..

I love him...i don't care what people think..

Lurve,

Kisho-Sama

=Sincerely missing him...and thanx to all da peepz! :)=

DST Funtasia Day...and i have a damn cold~-___-"

Wif Potty, my number one model...hahaha!

Lyk dis pix eh cos I looked so cute..LOL! munjung g mulut i toh~ Pot, wide smile~~

Sebanyak ani tah urg2 yg dtg ke Mall for DST Funtasia Day..fuh, ramai~

Pot, i luf dis pix eh...wawawa...mcm model bnr u ah~ kwang3x...

Ooooh...Pot singing while aku..erm, doing my ugly face..lol..

Whoops!! Caught candidly ni tym menunggu keputusan kan mkn dmana..wawawa..
Me wif Emma latenx..huhu..
Model-model terpilih by myself..hahaha...
Again, nda mengira tempat...we both took another pix...showin sum teeth lurve~
Atu ya gaya kami lagi..wawawa, nda puas2 bergambar tuh...:P

Assalamualaikum~

Last night, kemarin lah..I was supposed to be back home di Tutong because of my 'rutin mingguan' BUT somehow, malas ku kan drive balik ke Tutong and my cold was getting worst..mental tah banar~ Wawawa..and so, I slept for almost 4 hours lapas balik dari kolej from classes. Then Emma membawa aku go to see the DST Funtasia Day rah The Mall..which banarnya, malas ku kan ikut...Tapi kesian jua kan rah kawan ku yang seorang ani..wawawa..So aku agree ja lah, lagipun it's been quite a while since aku jalan2 sama Emma and Nurul..might as well go lah, who knows if i won't get that chance anymore esuk lusa right? Then sambil tunggu durang Emma and Nurul bersiap, I chatted online...wondering and thinking of HIM who went to the farewell party rah I-Lotus...*sigh* Chatted wif Potty who also kan ke Mall to check out the DST Funtasia Day and yeah, berjanji tah kami ani kan berjumpa rah hostel. Berbaya lah kami ke Mall...hohoh..nasib jua nda hujan labatz di malam ah...Lau nda, gerenti cancel tu plan kami.

Lots of cars lahh going to the Mall...kepisan banyaknya. Nasib jua kami nda makai keta kan ke sana because we knew the almost zero per cent of getting a parking...wawawa...apatah lagi yang free parking ah...duiiii, dlm mimpi ja kali~ Anyway, we made our way ke Mall...and wow~ Banyaknyerrr orang!! Then me and Potty separated with Emma and Nurul because Potty was thirsty sementara atu durang Emma and Nurul kan membali da $5 easi recharge card...I'm not an Easi user anymore, so it doesn't really concerned me...wawawawa...Me and Potty pun duduk2 rah food court, drinking our cold Cokes (which Potty claimed as penawar batuk and flu...LOL, damn u r right Pot! :P)sambil well, begambar siuk sendiri and cuci mata...macam2 ragam manusia tym ani...I'm almost shocked to see the teenagers of our time now..wawawa..and I'm smiling like a fool meliat kanak2 sana sini, kiut2 eh...ooopz!! My maternal instinct just got sharper since I joined the Paediatric course~ LOL...I want a baby!! Kwang3x...

About 10 minutes or so, Emma and Nurul datang and we sat rah food court atu, talking and begambar lagi..I checked the $5 Easi recharge card and wondered brapa lama before expiry date nya...Emma and Nurul pun nda tau~ Hahaha..apakanz..I thought it's maybe about 10 days max lah..I think so~ But anyway, we then decided to go for something to eat...Lapar yo~We made our way down to the Supermarket,well, aku and Potty plg tu saja...while Emma and NUrul went to KFC, booking and ordering our meals...wawawawa....After membali sebutul Coke Light yang basar, me and Potty made our way to KFC..which was almost FULL~ kepisan eh...but dapat plg kami tempat duduk...Hahaha..

Lapas makan, we decided plg lagi kan have some songs to sing rah arcade ah..sesaja..membuang buring, stress and well, making my and Potty's sore throats worse~ LOL...Ramai nya manusia rah arcade tapi kami tunggu jua sampai ada K-box yang kusung..huhuh...membagi happening lagi was that kami nyanyi lagu high pitched lagi tu..kepisan eh tapi I luf it~ It does help me a lot in buang stress masa menyanyi high pitched songs...wawawa, pitching lari pun I dun care...wawawawa..yang pentingnya, Emma sakit telinga tym kami (me and Potty) menyanyi....HAHAHAHA...sowie Emz, can release tension bah~ Wawawa...Lapas atu, we went back to hostel lah...lagipun aher udah...I would go mengayau lagi if I have money kan di spend tapi well, nada wah...Elaun lum kuar wahhh!!

Back rah Hostel, lain cia kaja ku lagi...Online and yeah, chatted wif some fwens yang sanggup melayan ku chat...sent gambar2 tym di Mall tadi arah Potty..and also watching a funny Japanese anime called 'EbiChu' yang well, I recommend is a good stress reliever...hahaha, sakit pawut ku ketawa meliat ceta ah...and the hamster is SOOOOOOOOOOOO cute...kan mati cutenya...I wish I have a hamster like that tapi not exactly like that eh...ndamo I hamster yang tumpis mulutnya~ HAHAHAHA...but anyway, it's not for children to watch...not suitable lah..wawawa...18 SX plz~ Nano na? <--- Fav phrase from EbiChu...LOL...luf dat bloody hamster...kwang3x...

Bah I think atu saja for now..I'm gonna make another short entry pasal my suprise bday for HIM..:)

Lurve,

Kisho-Sama

=Getting more and more stressful each day..huhuh. What will life offer me in the next day i wake up from my slumber??=