Pictures again...hawtneshh~

Four of us, at Shidah's brother punya wife's house...tym nikah~ We became the dayang-dayang of the days...aiseh!
Potty thought punching me on the face would stop my chronic flu i've had that day. Guess what? It didn't work! :P
Potty wanted to be nice and give a peace sign to declare it but however, tecucuk taya ke lubang idung Shidah..Haha!
The acting sooo ohhh very cute posers....
Potty & Amal, byatches who nada kaja tapi cari kaja..at my HOUSE!!

A picture says it all...

Celebrating Daus' first trip to Sushi Tei, Gadong..
Models who were not qualified to represent Brunei, LOL!
The night was cold and we were at Jerudong Beach, posing in our best model-like behaviours...
Us, looking majorly drunk over sushi's overdose...I think, I couldn't recall it.LOL!
Aha! Emo in the making, my masterpiece of that day with Daus as the emo model wannabe~ :D U looked great, Daus, yeah, you did..:P

My byatches, modelling on da KB beach...ahakz..
Mari tengok, siapa punya pose yang paling sexy?hoho..
They were having their fun...chasing at each other macam in Hindustani oldies movie...
Macamnya, I was kissing Pot's cheek laa...ahakz..OMG!
Yesh...here's when Amal had a major lockjaw and Pot was transferring her chi power to heal Amal..LOL..

Berhijrah nun ke sanaaaa~~

Hey-yaaaa....

I'm transferring my bloggy to wordpress~~ Aha.....ani kes aku sasak, mentalisme with the blogger having to fail my oh so many times trying to upload my pictures in KL..nah,nah...rasain loh~ Hahaha...

So my dearest peepz...find me in :

http://kishomin23.wordpress.com/

It's still new and I'm still confused on how to use it but...I'll get a hang on it. Hehehe...Toodles~

With Love,

Kisho [229]

" welcome wordpress...tata blogger...thankiesss for the whole 3 years staying true with me..lalalala~"

Another s.t.r.e.s.s session...:P

I have a slight headache right now. Ouch!

And that guy over there, with the so-called Tengku as his title, is making a sudden comeback in my life. I thought he's gone, totally, out of my life. Pishhh, kabowww! He should be GONE! Aha..and yet, he's trying to make a move on me...huhuhu. And I'm being very nice. Treating him as nicely as possible. But oh...now, he misscalled me early in the morning. Hahaha. And I've turned bad...I didn't reply it. Instead, I misscalled my dearest foremost love of my life~ He didn't reply... wot da...is that KARMA???? Well, he did reply...HAHAHAHA...after two hours of my endless waiting and hoping. Lalala~ so it's not karma...hahaha...

Owh, I mish my [015]...terribly, it's gnawing inside me. I wish to see him. Touch him. Look into his eyes. Bite him!! Hahaha...gross but yet, a sign of deep affection for both of us. Wait, not a love bite...it's more like, a 'mesra' bite...wawawawa~ okay, enough of that...

Happy for Potty today~ Dapat ya udah gaji nya...First gaji yo! And I had a bite from that...wawawa...Kana belanja at KFC~ Yay...Don't overspend dear friend but do spoil me with those cash! LOL....Miri~~ here we come...wawawawa....u drive, LOL!! :P

Argh, and the presentation thingie is getting on my nerves...I am basically doing two jobs : typing the whole fcuking thing and presenting...Haha. I thought my job was only to present!!! Fcuk banar...annoying, yesh, terribly. Urgh..I hate it...and people just keep instructing me do these and those in the presentation slides, inconsiderate of what I am feeling...yes, I am feeling pushed around!!!!! Urgh....and what's more? I suggested something and my opinion was basically thrown aside...itu salah lah, ini salah lah...arghh!! Buat tah sendiri eh!!!! Laughs. Sasak jua ku udah tu...

Additionally, tomorrow I'll be having a rehearsal session on the presentation...fcuk...I am sooooo notttt readyyyyyyy......soooo sooooo notttt readyyy.....I think I need a booze~ Hahahaha...or a pack of cigarettes to lighten up my mood...lalalala~ Macam si banar ku ahh....Never did those things, seriously...:)

Okay then..I guess that's all for now...I want to take a nap..I really do. Headache saya...esh3x...

With Love,
Kisho [229]

"Jangan biar ku pergi...kerna setia ku masih di sini.."

....S.T.R.E.S.S

I am tired.

I think I need a big hug to make it all better. To make me feel safe.

But...

Not just any hug. Haha. That would be so cheap of me. :P

I need him to hug me. Tight. Closer. Suffocate me in his arms gently but not strong enough to kill me.

Toinkz! I am being EMO!! Hahaha.

Well, basically I'm feeling a bit stressful with the upcoming presentations. Might I say that I've been appointed, unvoluntarily, as a presenter for my Paed mates. Yes, me. I've been chosen. And even as the very first group presenter. Gosh, I am feeling a chill for it because....

I SUX A HELL LOT in PUBLIC SPEAKING!!! *wails helplessly*

Oh God...plus with the 'stress' from not hearing anything from him, makes it all crazy inside for me. I am stressed. Him with his iron-clad ego. And there comes that 'particular' guy who just get interested in me. Temptation. Seduction. Oh God...I hate this.

But it will all soon pass...hopefully. I wish!!!! I need it!!! DESPERATELY!

HELP ME!!!

Laughs.

Okay...I have done my job. I blogged. LOL....and the blogger system is one hell, for not letting me upload my pictures in KL...urgh!



With Love,
Kisho [229]

"Ikut kata hati, mungkin cinta kan bersemi...sooner or later..wawawa..."

Restless, sweaty and bothered...

*sigh* Another entry for today..wahahaha..

I am feeling restless. Darn restless. In addition to the restlessness, I am feeling rather sweaty and bothered. Why? I can somehow hear peepz going to say "Not another emotional unstability syndrome.." or whatever it is...huhuhuh...but...

"The aircond is out of order!!", screamed my sister, sounding very horrified with the fact. I became annoyed.

There goes my first so-called wonderful day of 2008. In my humid, warm home. Without the airconditioner. And with lots of complaints from my mom. Plus mine, as I whined about how HOT it is. The fans didn't help a tiny bit. It's just making the air inside the home much much 'irritating'. And my eczema threatens to annoyingly becoming itchy. Yes, I am scratching my back right now while I blog. Urgh...Thank God, it's raining heavily now!!! I wish I can get the hell out of this HOT place and shower under the heavy rain..Wawawawa~ But...it's night time, and it's dark...and I might get a flu...*ponders*

Now I'm just distracting myself by listening to the songs playing in my playlist..Aha! Bad idea...I found my brain starts to play its own song of choice...what song? The song he told me to listen to. Toinks...yeah, you guess it. Avenged SevenFold - Dear God. And I am, horrifyingly, singing to it. Hahaha. Owh gosh, I need a life!!! Life without him!! *mumbling nonsense*

"All the faults of that VCD I saw this afternoon!!!", my brain starts to give its own reason. What VCD? Urgh, I tengok ceta Melayu ler...9 September. Darn, the movie did helpfully helped me reminisced my memories with him~ Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!! Terribly...urgh, godaan tah banar~ *jeling pat handphone* Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!! Such temptations~~~~ God, make me strong~ Don't let me do it...no, no, no, noooo~

Okay..enough of my craps...tomorrow I'll be back to Bandar. Urgh...too much memories...I may not make it to the 3rd day!!! AAAAAAAAhhhhh......Someone, please just knock some senses into me~~ :S

I gotta leave. I need to stuff myself with food. Foods are the best distraction right now. Hahaha. I am gonna be a fatso!! Darn...Let mejust seek solace in foods...lalalalala~

With Love,
Kisho [229]

"Give me strength, give me courage...give me what I deserve...huhuu..two days left to go before I end my abstinence.."

Happy New Year 2008!! With Love...:D

"HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!"

Gosh, imagine me screaming that out! Haha. It may be a bit late to post about 'stepping into the new year' but anyway, that's it~ We're in 2008 now!! May I pause for a bit and just imagine me screaming....

"GIVE ME A FCUKING HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!!!"

Well, ehem...that was kinda full of angst from within me. Haha. Yesh, we're now in year 2008. Gosh, it seemed like it was just yesterday that I was stepping into the year 2007, and now...2008!!!? And so, um, what is the first thing I did for new year? Aha! I am currently avoiding going online in MSN, so don't try to find me there. I am basically reachable only by text messages or phone calls. Why do such prosposterous thing?? Huhu. Just wanna see how long I can withstand not having myself online in MSN..wawawa. And yesh, I am avoiding to misscall or text messaging him too. Why oh why? Well, let's just say, I need a break and maybe, just maybe, he'll feel a loss when I'm doing this. Sometimes, it just gets tiring to pursue and act...Huhu. I am acting crazy, outta my mind...Lalalalaa~

2007..well, lots of things had happened. Lots of things that I shouldn't say here because I'm just lazy to do so. Haha. 2007 was a year of experimenting for me. Short hairs, changes in personal style, new experiences of meeting new people, hang out til early morning etc. Too much to count, too much to say. I love 2007, because I have so many memories that I really appreciate and memories that were too painful to bear. A year where I see that sometimes, people just change for the worst or the better.A year where I get to see some betrayals and the masks that people wear in front of others.. A year where I saw my colleagues, my dearest 18th intake mates having their jobs...A year where lots of internal emotional confusion happened inside me. A year where I found out that it's better to be who I really am, no matter how much it disappoints others...and a year, where I am still devoted to the one I love, no matter how cruel he treats me...

As I stepped into 2008, I began to wonder about my future. Uncertainty. That's what I'm feeling. Similar to what Daus is saying in his bloggy. Haha. Results will be out somewhere in February, hopefully. What will I do then? How well did I do? What will I have to expect? I just don't know...perhaps I will find the answers sooner or later...

I also wonder about my friendships and my relationship with him. How long can I stand here for them? How much can I sacrifice for them? Am I adequate as a friend, to help them in need and to share with them in their pain and happiness? Will there be 'us' for me and him? Questions and more questions...

At times, I feel it's better to be alone. Having not to care about the world and anyone. Being selfish in my own world. Not having to hurt or be bruised emotionally. Not having to carry responsibilities of our lives. But it's impossible. There's no way to run, no place to hide...and I shall live here, as me, accepted or unaccepted by the world revolving around me..Just like a lyric from one of my current favourite songs...

"Namun aku tetap aku, yang terbaik untuk diriku....hanya satu..."

And so, everyone...let's embrace 2008 with hope and happiness~ We are the best of our own self!! Happy New Year everyone....happy new year~ :D

With love,

Kisho [229]

"I keep reminiscing our [sweet] memories together...how I wish it can just disappear and I'll leave you with a heart of stone...but it won't happen as there's too much light of sunshine [love] from those days where there's you [and] me..."