Current songs..listen to da hippity doo~

Just sharing some of the lyrics of songs I'm currently listening..Reminds me of him againbecause he currently liked these songs though. Hahaha.Pisan-pisan. Help me!

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If That's Ok With You - Shayne Ward

[Verse 1]I love the way that you look without your make-up

I had a girl before we met but we broke up

Theres something about you that makes me want to step up

Step up and be with you

If thats okay with you

We'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late

Coz imma make you feel so good how i see its happening

We'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late

Coz baby i wanna step up and be with you

If thats okay with you

[Chorus]Im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth

Im gonna say to your mother just for giving you birth

Im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry

If thats okay with you

If thats okay with you

[Verse 2]I wanna keep your toothbrush at my apartment

Make a second set of keys and ask you to move in

Im not crazyI know what im getting myself in

I wanna live with you

If thats okay with you

[Chorus x2]Im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth

Im gonna say to your mother just for giving you birth

Im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry

If thats okay with youIf thats okay with you

If thats okay with youIf thats okay with you

Yeah yeah

[Verse 3]We'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late

I wanna love you this way that way this way

We'll keep the neighbours away too late too late

I wanna love you this way that way this way

[Chorus x2]

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I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks, and i'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out i'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music at the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melody

It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours

*scat*

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm a sayin'is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, i'm sure
(there's no need to complicate
our time is short
it cannot wait, i'm yours 2x
no please don't complicate, our time is short
this is our fate, im yours.
no please don't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, the sky is yours!)

well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family
it's your god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved

open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la happy family
it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved

listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la peaceful melodies
it's you god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved...

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Lurbeeeey dippity dee doo~

Kisho [229]

"It's our God forsaken right to be loved and be in love...:D"

Today oh today..:D

Just woke up from my afternoon sleep.

I was tired. Slept late last night. Again. Wawawawa. Early in the morning, I checked up on Friendster and well, played around with his Friendster's background. Downloaded some skins for my handphone. Messaged with Nurul and Amal. Showered and got into my 'selekeh' dressing. Then I was driving back to my home at Tutong, JUST to get my academic documents a.k.a sijil-sijil for my registration to the Nursing Board. In the midst of searching for them, I didn't even get to eat, or as I might say, I FORGOT to eat. Just took a can of Soya Bean and guzzled it down. Rushed like crazy and managed to well, BEG my sister to loan me $5. LOL. Pathetic aight? Oh well...Then, dressed myself up in my baju kurung, and stuck to the E! channel. Only after thirty minutes of watching,I realised I was gonna be late to meet up with Nurul and Leena to go to the Nursing Board. So off I went, supplying myself with three cold cans of soft drinks...huhuhu~

Drove like an F1 racer, or kinda like that. Arrived at Bandar thirty minutes later. Ran all the way from my car to the hostel, only to found out that actually, I still have time to spare. Chatted with Nurul about my night yesterday, smiling like a fool I was. Haha. After some time, we went out to greet Leena who will drive us to the Nursing Board. Went there and ta-dah~ Finished up really quick...Then otw back to the hostel, Leena asked me about the so-called 'date' last night, I was uncomfortable with that word 'DATE'...and only gruffly replied, it was not a DATE and it's only a friendly meeting with friendly purposes. Kan? Kan? Of course vah~~ Back at the hostel, I slumped tiredly on my bed. Home!

Turned the laptop on. Laughed manically at Nurul's funny comment on my Friendster. She never failed making me laugh at her humor. Then I got changed to my selekeh look again. Jumped back on bed. Laid there and thought of him. Urgh. Played the songs in my handphone. Alamak! Jiwang songs! Thought of him again. Covered my face with my bantalz while shaking my head macam head banging or a wet dog shaking its head. I just wanted to shake my thoughts of him away. Huhu. Okay, stop there. Eventually I slept~

When I woke up, it was late afternoon. And here I am. Blogging for my reader's pleasure and to say what I did today. Wawawa. Actually, I was blogging because I have the mood to blog but just doesn't know what I do blog about. Oh well..:P

Lurbeyy dippity doo~

Kisho [229]

"Thoughts of him. Stop. Full stop. Okay, I am not well. Slap me."

Early morning...I miss, miss who?

I somehow miss him as early as I woke up today...

His face...
His smile...
His laughter...
His gaze...
His hands...
His warmth...

I ached to see him again. But like I said, I've let him go and should refrain such longings...such magnetic attraction he has for me, no matter how much I try to go away...as if there's a silver thread that binds us.

Oh well...I'm thinking of him too much. I'll let it rest then now.

Pondering,
Kisho [229]

Out wif him..erm?

Back from an outing with him~

Feeling rather happy. He was being nice and funny as usual. I was being different a bit, trying to act casually enough so that I don't show him what it is inside me. But then, well...things got weird. I found myself sitting next to him, rather than oppositely facing him. We got crowded inthe same seat, with our laptops up and running in front of us. He took my laptop because he asked me to install a programme inside his laptop. And he was being naughty, chatting away with my chatters and friends using my MSN account. Strangely, some people doesn't even suspected that it was not me who was chatting with them. Hahaha. And some people just, well, blurted some things that erm, embarassed me to him. LOL. Pisan! Nasib jua nada something yang secret tym kana bawa chat ah. :P So in return, I used his MSN to chat wif some of our friends. Wawawa. We made people confused. And some people even thought it was something of a great progress between me and him..duh~ so NOT it~ :P

And oh, I realized...I stole some intimate moments with him.LOL. Casually putting my head on his shoulder, stole a touch or two or hundreds, cucuk his tummy and leaning my body near his. LOL. Gatal eh. Well, mana jua ulah.He was using my laptop and I have to check on the chatters who were chatting with me! *alasan!* And we watched a Korean movie together too, with him laughing at some humor from it. I am happy though to see him like that. I wish I can always see him being happy that way...

We spent for about four hours in WYWY. Hohoho. Mana jua ulah. We were downloading some songs and movie clips to watch together. He was busy at certain times, messaging people on his handphones. I felt a slight annoyance but well, that's him. I am not going to ruin that moment by being moody and following my sheer annoyance. I just smiled and listened like usual. Laughing at some moments as he spoke of his cousins. He showed me his nephew and nieces' pictures, describing each cute children happily. Oh well, he's a kid lover, much more than I do. But I was really 'grigitan' when seeing his nephew and nieces..Cute vah~ Hehe.

After two rounds of drinks and a basket of fries, we decided to leave and off we went to Amal's house. To get my registration form that I sooooo needed to fill in. *sigh* Spent about 30 mins there, laughing ourselves at our silly conversations. Mengumpat jua. LOL..Humans~ Anyway, off we went back to the hostel after that and he dropped me off at the hostel. I was, doubtingly wanting to spend more time with him..but then, my other self refrained such thoughts. I should just appreciate what I had than what I won't have. Hehe.

And so..here I am. In my hostel's room. Alone. Looking at the time. Still early. Haha. And I smiled with the thoughts of him...Rindu sudah terubat. LOL. And yes, I am cheating myself in not loving him anymore. Haha. Sedih? Not really..maybe it's better this way...

Lau ada jodoh, we will be together one day..as a friend told me that if we believe we will be with that one person, insya-allah, it will happens. One day..someday. :D Do I believe in me and him? Well, only God knows..:)

Savouring moments,

Kisho229

"Everything that happened...I will always try to believe in myself.."

Denial, denial, denial...such a sin~

SLepT LatE LaSt NiTe~

Can't get rid of me thinking too much and so, I distracted myself to my late entertainment hours~ Browsing through the Internet for the long awaited Korean drama series that I'm just DYING to see "The 1st shop of Coffee Prince"...and voila! Huhu..got the online english subbed clips!! *Too bad I'm not good in torrent-ing clips, lau nda banyak ni ulih ku..wawawa.* Yezaaa...Happily watching it and laughing manically to myself inside my room, kinda stopped me from thinking whatever I was thinking.Haha.I just watched til episode 2 and well, because the connection weren't that good, I decided to get my shut eyes...wawawa. Ooooh, I am soooooo reallyyyyyy can't wait to get the DVDs so I can watch this romantic comedy~ Weeee....Gong Yoo~ Eun Hye!! Lurbeee it~ :D *smiling, smiling, smiling*

Ah...I am in confused and denial mode. Huhu. Today, I'll be going out with him. Yesh. Him. Us. *horrified* And I am having mixed feelings. Okay~ I know I said I let him go...okay, I don't love him anymore.*denial mode* But...must there always be a but??? Anyhow, I am feeling rather drawn to him again. Eeeek!!! And I found myself saying "Let's go lepak and ceta-ceta" to him...Okay, I am unconciously doing that and when I found myself doing THAT, I was slapping my face several times in horror. Pure horror at such stupidity. But well, he started it first~ He was asking me when will we meet up for a chat and to get those songs he requested for me to download for him. And zapppp...........! My fingers were typing those words of "let's go out, minum-minum and lepak!" AAAAAAAHHHH... and it gets worse when he said, "Oh sure, I have my day off tomorrow" STOOOOOOOPIDDDDDD!! WHY did he say that?!!!!! Of courselah, he's being honest but WHY sooo SOON??!!! I feel I am not ready yet to meet him after that stupid dispute and after that curhat thingie..:S But well, that other part of me is craving, really CRAVING to meet with him..and I can just feel that me is enjoying this. Haha. I'm outta my mind eh?:S Help me~~

Lurbeeee,

Kisho229

"Denial is a way to bury this love...but I can't be restrained by it!"

A day of disappointment..curhat~

I am feeling rather disappointed to myself...

Disappointed to myself because I let people's hopes down...

I changed a whole lot since last year and it has been something disappointing...My changes make others see me differently. So differently...I am no longer as naive, as innocent as I was before. Love has changed me. With love, I see life more realistically. And with the truth of life, I changed to adapt myself. I want to open myself, my real self to the world to see. But with that changes, I have hurt a lot of people and letting them down...Why do people expect so much from me?

Is it because I was a briliant student? With such a bright future ahead?
Is it because I was innocent and untainted with life's truth?
Is it because I was too kind and they loved the old me, one with a good girl personality?

Why does it hurt when people get hurt because of me? Deep down, I cried. Deep down, I wished I am not me. So deep inside, I want to be free...I want to be one that people don't expect so much...

The word "disappointment" that came to me today was like a stab to my heart...There are people who are disappointed of me. At such word, I wished I am not me. I wished I was just back to my "I-am-average" person. Where no one will expect so highly of myself. Where no one will sarcastically say I am too good for them...where no one will say "Pandai kau ah, nda payah belajar pun pandai menjawap tu!" or one who will say "Urang Aussie x ah..kana antar belajar sana~ Terrer ni"..Because everytime that comes up, I was never proud of such words. I was never proud of myself being so called intelligent. Even though it's always a joke and I would always smiled, my heart hurts deeply. I would trade my place for yours if I could...then you will know how much that really hurts...

And so...I am just blogging this because I hope someone will understand. It never was a bliss being expected so much. It was never happiness when it comes to disappointing people...And somehow, I am badly missing him...the one that I've disappointed a lot in my life or rather, the one that had been disappointing me the most... Ouch! There goes the other part of me, trying to get sad, trying to uncover the gaping wound I've tried to cover away~ :S trying to let go of that feelings out again...oh no, no, no~ :x *slaps my other self...huhu*

Anyway, please oh please, Forgive me dear friends if ever I disappointed you all deep down inside...I regret myself...we humans never can run from doing mistakes...Forgive me...:')

ANyway, I am addicted to the song "Kasih Tercipta" from Faizal Tahir...I can't stop singing it and it can't stop playing in my mind too...I dedicate this to him...even if he doesn't know..Huhu. I am getting sad again~ *sigh*

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Kasih Tercipta - Faizal Tahir

Kasih hilang tiada bicara

Setelah cintaku kau puja

Rintihan rindu terus melanda

Redup cahaya oo hati lara

Bisiklah kiranya aku bersalah

Sedetik tersirat rasa

Kau cipta kasih yang kumiliki

Cintaku jujur selama ini..

Carilah aku dalam hatimu

Sayang sebutlah kau rindu

Hanya…pintaku

Kasihmu kekal setia

Usah biarku ooo terus terluka

Mesra suaramu…kini berbeza

Gagal sembunyi sedih

Kenangan lalu menusuk jiwa

Manis seindah berganti pedih

Ooo..kasih tercipta..Ooo..carilah ku sayang

Carilah aku dalam hatimu

Sayang sebutlah kau rindu

Hanya…pintaku

Kasihmu kekal setia

Usah biarku ooo terus terluka

Pabila bersamamu..debaran

Darah arus mengalir cinta

Lahir selamanya

Berilah kucupan sayang

Biar terukir wajah..

Kasih tercipta..

Berilah kucupan sayang

Biar terukir wajah..

Kasih tercipta..
Ooo..kasih tercipta..

Kini kumengerti..

Walau berbisa..

Kurela kira kau bahagia…

Feeling sad...

Kisho229

"I rather be the one whom can't disappoint anyone..:)"

Raya fever?Apa cure nya?

Kisho : Aihhh...batah menunggu kana bagi angpau ani..rehat jap dagu rh tgn u Pot~

Potty : Dgn rela hati, hamba persembahkan...*kontrol ayu*

Potty: Give u nose servicing lagi..wawawa~

Kisho: I gib youh tandukz...*bunyi urg tersumbat idung*

When we are bored...we do this...kontrol AYU!!!!

Aahh..let's see...sapa yang OUT usulnya ah? LOL...*tunjuk yg tgh2*

Our BENKOs~~~ C owen and c maang~Wawawa..

Fun day on Friday!!! We as usual...the two devilish people went to beraya-in at KB to one of my colleague's house pasal she ada open houz. So we went there TOO EARLY, so go cuci gambar rah pat Soon Lee Pandan..haha, and also terpaksa menyukat Pandan and Mumong for about 30 mins and so. We ada raun2 jua rah umah Pot's cyg and well, him...tapi nada toh durang. Huhuhu.

At open houz, we kana jemput eat2...and walaupun nda meriah, still satisfying. Kanyan jua pawot ani. Hehe. Before kan balik, kana suruh karaoke...which, erm, although as fanatic I am with singing to myself, I declined the offer sal jadi gadis pemalu. Wawawa~ Before balik also, we were given angpau~~ Guess how much? :P

Then we otw ke Seria, we singgah dakat rumah Ka AJ, which fortunately for us...she was there. Not in a right timing but still, we got to meet her and da cats...wawawawa. Lawa c Chubby nya..wawawa. Ngam ka tuh? :P Then we went to Seria Plaza...meraun cari photo album for my own. Then muleh ke umah at Tutong...

Balik umah, my mom bawa beraya and I angkut Potty sekali jua. So we went beraya to another open houz, a friend of my mom...Sampai sana, wah...banyak da cats..gebu2 eh..LOL. Makan tah lagi kami ani. Okay jua la. Unfortunately or rather embarassingly, terjumpa cia ku dengan seseorang yang well, my mom cuba jodohkan with me...LOL...kinda embarassing tapi buat tak tau je la~ Hahaha. Then we went to another houz, beraya-ing sana and got bored. For one hour, we sat there and cam-whoring ourselves cos nada keraja lain lagi selain makan and minum. Bloated udah da tummy.

Back home, iskiness kan beraya lagi..so beraya cia at my jiran sebalah..wawawa. Potty pun masih merakat lagi. Kana angkut, jadi my mom's anak angkat...LOL. Then we indirectly begged my mom t go beraya lagi and nasib la kana lapas~ So with the freedom we had, went to KB lagi to beraya at one of my friend's houz. Hehee...Stayed there quite batah jua la and then jalan to Arca to jumpa Pot's cyg...then went to Seria Plaza again to cuci mata. HuhuHU...Gerigitan ku sal ada ceta korea "Hello Miss Lady!" yang ku mau bali...too bad, kapih tym!!! Oh Noooo!!! :PsABAR Saja~

Then barutah muleh...otw muleh, Potty was being hyper in the car while I was being really tired. Nasib ada Potty jadi penghibur..wawawawa..Melatenkx u Pot~ Sampai umah, alreADy pukul 9 or 10 x....hehe, sent POtty off and then I went to my room. Just slept~~ ZZZZzzz...And sampat g mengatal tuh rah..ehem, sumwhere...wawawawa...

So atu ja tah...I am tired banarnya..wawawa.Tapi I just wanna blog~ Hehehe..

Lurbeeeeee~

Kisho229

"Raya, raya, raya kan~~~ sebulan??? :P"

Pictures worth a thousand memories~

Here are some pictures that well, eventually I uploaded after Potty keep asking for it repeatedly. Cian u Pot..wawawa..nah~

A day before Hari Raya - Adventure to Miri

Potty : Lihatlah gigi ku dan lidah ku~~~ Chantik kannn??~~

Kisho : Erks..I'm not ready yet! Cam bitching while driving nih~

Potty : Me and my meow~ Jangan lupa sanyummmmmm~~~Cam bitching on da loose!

Kisho : I must pose like a F1 racer...must, must, must~

Potty :This is da dagu..I cucuk2 da dagu..She has double chin!! wawawa

Kisho : Oy Pot..don't say anything about me double chin! :S

Potty : Sanyummmm!!!

Kisho : Aik?! I'm not ready yet laaaa~~~

Kisho : We are the models of neoprints~ This is how we pose~

Potty : Maintain sanyum..sanyum2 segala~ HUauhauhaua

After neoprinting, we decided it's not enough and ta-dahhh..cam whoring~ :P

22/10/2007 - Suprises! :P

Potty: I am ayu segala...I am in white and I am a nurse...

Shidah : We are nurses~

The special maut pose of two new recruited staff nurses~ Aiyooo..why da ayuness all of da sudden?!! :P

Eating at Sushi Tei with Shidah as our tukang belanja...Haha.

Ah...another update!

I'm being 'rajin' today. Despite my sleepiness and my unending troubling thoughts, I am blogging away happily~ well, not really as happy as in really happy though...owh, I am hungry too. Really hungry and yeah, lonely...hahaha. Think I really need someone to hang out for the day but...who? Aaah, I am getting lonesome...Lonesome tonite~~~ ooh soooo lonesome~~~


Just blogging here to say something quite, um, interesting...I've been thinking about what people say in these past few months...What, eh? Hahaha...getting lots of comments about me behaving like a guy. Or rather, some new people who chatted with me sometimes mistakenly think I am a guy...Oh pleash~ Am I that boyish? Nda juaaaaa~ *pouts lips girlishly* Haha. But really, I am not THAT boyish...a bit but not too much. Haha. I act like a girly girl at times~ I do...but maybe it just doesn't show too much. Hoho. I do act 'bibiran' like a girl~ I play with my hair when I talk~ I get sensitive at sad moments and go 'awwwww....' at romantic films. Hehe..okay, does that convince you? If it isn't, I just don't know what makes me boyish~~~ Banarrrr~~~ :P


Skipping that up, I am currently finding myself thinking of him quite frequently these days. Wondering about him, his life now without me clinging onto him. Still in love with him? Not really, my heart just turned cold after I made that decision to let go. I really gave him up... I feel I can't receive love, just like the old me in the past, before I met him. It's as if I locked my heart away and threw the key so far away that no one can ever find it easily. Ooooh...scary. Maybe it's just my defense mechanism, trying to protect myself from heartbreaks...Haha. Will I ever find someone to find that key and unlock this chained heart of mine? :)


Anyhooooo~ That's all for now. Hehe. I am out of ideas. And my brain is limited in its capability to think due to my sleep deprivation. Owh God, I need to sleep...:(


Lurbeeeeeeeey blippy doo~
Kisho229

"This road of mine, I dare say is a wicked one!"

Top of the morning..*dead nerves*

Suprise~ I woke up damn early just to finish my extended project. HAHA. Managed to finish it, well except for my appendices which I am going to do soon enough..Anyway, my extended project's quality is damn not good. Huhu. Pisan eh. I know because I am a good critic of myself..hahaha, my self-criticism is improving over the years~ Lalalalaa..

I am tired..I think I'm having eye bags right now..Oh geez~ Later, I have a whole day of revision classes..wawawa. And I think my health is going to deteriorate due to all these restless nights and stress, I feel myself wheezing sometimes and I, um, left my inhaler back at home...oh-oh! Hopefully it won't get worst..hehe. Amin~

I gained back my weight, sadly and pathetically. Haha..benci ku eh. Blame it all on open houses during Raya. LOL..nda jua lah. My fault jua sal mom cooked yummy foods at home and I just can't resist that...huhu. Who could resist our mom's cooking?? :P But anyway, I am still going strong by not eating RICE!! Wawawawa...pun sia-sia eh..:( I miss eating chicken rice...bwuhhh...

And oh..I can't stop singing 'Cerita Asmara' by Dr Fazley. Wawawa...lagu klasik eh aku ah. I just don't know..kinda like that song. Now it's in my repeat mode in my Windows Media Player. Huhuh...sad and jiwang. Well, that describes me. Hehehe...:P Emo?? ;p

Lurbeeeee blup blup~

Kisho 229

"Can't stop the music~"

Blast me up!!:P

I am in the process of having a brain damage.Wawawa...This is what I get for doing a last minute work. Yeah, my stupidity strikes again!! *slaps self with a 'keli'* LOL. Anyway, I am taking a break a bit and just find that little mood of mine wants to blog. Ooooooh, how can I even spare a time to blog when my work is just waiting 'ampai-ampai' so I can work on it~ Haha. Malas ku ingau tym ani...I just need a break from thinking of my extended project walaupun suntuk berabishly masa masani!!! Oooooh...Kisho's going wacko!!! Aip,aip,aip...toinkz~

Exams are not too far away and I haven't revise. Not a thing. Haha. Pisan eh. I am really going bad this year. I'm just changing too much that I suprised myself with such horror. Ahakz...I need, need so much to change...esh3x..terrible eh~

Last nite I slept late, ada 'curhat' with Nuwul. Kinda make me feel myself relieved of some things that's been inside my head. I couldn't stop talking last nite, sampai karing leher ani wah..wawawa. Suprised myself too that I didn't cry at all when talking about him with Nuwul, about the letting go thingie. Maybe that old part of me is back, bwuh....She was suprised to hear me finally letting go and seemed a bit sad. Huhu. One thing that I remembered her saying was " He hurt you more than he himself has ever been hurt before...maybe one day he'll realize his loss.." Hahaha. Aiyooo, kinda make me feel like I am really stupid..LOL. One year plus of waiting, she said, is kinda torturous for myself. Hahaha. Suffering for the one I love bah...anyway, I am no longer doing it which kinda left an empty place in myself. That loneliness and that strentgh I am holding on to bury it all away from me. I find myself arguing about some things inside my head...Huhu. Buleh gila ni..wawawawa. I am someone yang suka pendam problems to myself and likes to think too much of things...like now?

Anyhooooo~~~~ I can't stop feeling flirtatious naughty nowadays..LOL. I think I am suffering from a mental illness, maybe Daus can confirm that? Hahaha...But with the extended project in the way, my flirty self is bound inside me...huhu. Ndatah dapat begatal ni.LOL..maybe it's the loneliness acting in its mysterious ways. Hehe.

Find myself attracted to the song "Whine Up" by Kat Deluna...huhu. Lawa badan nya. Grrrr....erks, I mean, she has a good body, nicely curvy...erm..apakanz~ Wawawawa...the videoclip was a little boring to me and the dances were...nothing to cheer about.HUHUHU...Well, I'm leaving you peepz with the lyrics...wawawa...sure tangkap body shaking punyerrr~~ :P

Whine Up - Kat Deluna feat Elephant Man

[Elephant Man]It's summertime
Ladies looking hot
Shaking up what they've got
Elephant Man and Kat, c'mon

[Verse 1]Senses telling me you're looking
I can feel it on my skin (Whoa)
Boy I wonder what would happen
If I trip and let you in
Don't get shook by my aggression
I just might be the one
Let's skip this conversation
Just whine your body up(Ha Ha Ha)
Don't wanna wait no more(Ha Ha Ha)
You got what I'm searching for

[Pre Hook]Cause I'm feeling your vibing
I'm riding high is exotic
And I want you, I want you here
Pull me closer and closer and
Hold me tight to your body
I wanna feel you, I wanna feel you near

[Chorus:]Whine up, whine up, whine up, oye!
Whine up, whine up, whine up, oye!
Whine up, whine up, whine up, oye!
Whine up, whine up, whine up, oye!
A ese nene lo tengo trikiao (oye)
Cuando lo bailo lo bailo de lao
Y lo empujo lo tengo tumbao
Con mis caderas lo tengo amansao wind!

[Verse 2]Boy keep doing what you're doing get me hot
Winding up your body you don't have to stop
My temperature is rising, want you more than before
It's an animal attraction, whine your body up(Ha Ha Ha)
It's the magic on the floor(Ha Ha Ha)
I don't wanna wait no more

[Pre Hook]Cause I'm feeling your vibing
I'm riding high is exotic
And I want you (and i want you too), I want you (and I want you too) here
Pull me closer and closer (closer and closer) and
Hold me tight to your bodyI wanna feel you (I wanna feel you too), I wanna feel you near

[Chorus:]Whine up, whine up, whine up, oye!
Whine up, whine up, whine up, oye!
Whine up, whine up, whine up, oye!
Whine up, whine up, whine up, oye!

[Elephant Man]Right here
Now bring your body to me right here
She’s got the finest body I fear
Shake your booty off
Shake it off in high gear
And she runs her fingers to my ear
And all the black mons got white fear
And she shakes her booty right here
Mow pump up the volume right here(Woah Woah Woah)
It's riffing(Woah Woah Woah)
Give me the whine now
C'mon!
[Chorus: 3x]Whine up, whine up, whine up, oye!Whine up, whine up, whine up, oye!Whine up, whine up, whine up, oye!Whine up, whine up, whine up, oye!
Lo cuero, toca los cuerosLoca e que ta!!She's crazy!

Lurve,

Kisho 229

"Cerita yang lalu itu, cerita engkau dan aku hanyalah igauan yang lara...cerita membalut sepi, cerita yang kita bina bersama, punah musnah akhirnya..."

Flash update~

I am BACK!!

HOLIDAYS are almost OVER, which are 'tanpaku sedari'..LOL. Kinda it just flew passed me by in silence. Oh well, that's what time is. It goes without waiting for anyone, not even a mere glance. Huhu. We just have to grab whatever we can within it. Oh there it goes again, my ramblings~ My raya this year is kinda dull. I am bored. Huhu. Oh I forgot~

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI TO ALL~ MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!! :D

I am stuck in my EP. Stuck in developing my action plan. And that is a plain crazy thing because I have to submit my EP somewhere next week. Hohoho. I swear, EP is one of the most ridiculously complicated thing you NEED to do to get a mere DIPLOMA. It's really overdoing it, I mean, EP is actually not in a DIPLOMA standard. IT should be in a DEGREE standard and I'm struggling with it pathetically. Plus with the lack of GOOD resources for articles, I feel I am on my way to DOOM...Okay, not to forget to blame me for my lack of motivation to do it. And I think I'm getting bored with studying. Oh yesh, my thirst for knowledge has decreased, dropped, plunging. Oh God..my parents will not like to hear that coming from me. They would burn me into the deep pits of HELL if I do say something like, "Ma, Pa. I think I'm bored with studying..I don't want to study anymore. Carikan calon laki ja. Kan kawin ku, byk kawan2 ku kawin udh~"!! Owh bummer...I think I should be spanked for that. Huhu...I am just joking though about the marriage part. Haha. So oh not ready yet~

Guess what too? I am FINALLY letting go of him. Yes, I am. Absolutely. I just realized something, coming to my rationality and senses. He doesn't care about me as I thought. And I can't make him love me again. No matter what I do. I give up after a long pondering. I was BLIND before. Totally. I am burying that love and feelings I have for him inside. Tanam and simen tarus. Goodbye love. Sayonara. But not entirely. He is still a friend that plays an important part in my life. Guess that's it. Friends.Tapi if ada jodoh, then it's fate. I leave that to God. Now that is done, I am feeling a bit lonely. Maybe I won't be able to love as much as before..Oh well, now peepz, your wish has come true...I am moving on with my sad life. Good thing eh? You peepz won't see me crying myself silly or being moody as much then. Bad thing? I guess I've changed a whole lot more...more to the inside than outside. Huhu. What are the changes? Jangantah tanya..sure will, not everyone will like it. Haha. Will I be searching for new love? Ahakz, awu..I will. Ganya miana kan mencari ani eh? Anyone has any bachelor male friends to hook up with me? Hehe. :P I need a wingman or a wingwoman nih~~ ;p

Owh...gotta go~ I need to get my brain reeling in ideas for my EP...HELP!!S.O.S!! Or rather S.O.B a.k.a Save Our Brains!!! Hahaha..me and my sick joke..:P Leaving you with a lyric from a song I just can't resist~ *hint* May express what I really feel inside...huhu..bunga2 eh ku ani..*hint*

"I Just Can't Live A Lie" - Carrie Underwood

Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't watch you walk away

Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've been through
Could I wake up without you every day?
Would I let you walk away?
No, I can't learn to live without
And I can't give up on us now

[Chorus]
Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me?
And all the reasons that make loving you so easy
The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe
The way you know just what I mean
No, I can't learn to live without
Ohh, so don't you give up on us now

Ohh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Ohh, and I don't wanna try

Ohhhh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

I just can't live a lie
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Oh, I cant live a lie [x2]

Lurve,
Kisho229

"Biar ku bawa harapan dan pendam rahsia..Dan biarlah dari kejauhan ku doakan mu bahagia tanpa duka dariku..."

Dun eat rice!! LOL..

Juz updating a bit~ Sal aku kambang ni masani..hahahaha..what for? what of? well...

I LOSE SOME WEIGHT!!! Yeeeehhaaaaaa~~~!!!

And now I'm so flattered and happy for myself becos I lose quite a lot..well, not really. Dalam kira-kira 3kg plus je dalam about a month. Hhahaaha.Tapi at least I lose some weight kan? And that was unexpected..aiseyh~ Healthy diet? Erm, nda jua la.Wawawa.Kontrol makan ja. Payah jua menahan iman kan makan itu makan ani...nyaman-nyaman lagi makanan di Brunei ani. Hahahaha. Puasa tah lagi. Wow~ menjadi I lose weight...ehekz *kambang beravis*

One thing I do to lose weight is..tak makan nasi la~ Awu, nyaman kali nasi ani ah.Staple food bah tuh tapi I'm avoiding it for almost a month jua. Ikut tips my 'stewardess' fwen yang cakap avoiding rice can make you slim down...wawawawa. So now, I am believing it pasalnya I never lose weight as much as this!! Well, except when I was in Australia plg sal masa atu, I mostly walk and walk around the city, window shopping and food options are kinda limited for me. Hahahaha. *kambang again and again*

Anyway, bah Pot..we're at the same kilogrammes masani. LOL..mari kita tengok siapa yang slim more lagi nanti. LOL..owh, I am sooooo body conscious beravis masani. All because of him tho. He's losing a lot of weight, nda g bepawut ya ah.No fun eh, nda dapat cucuk2..Ah, ndapa. Sanang jua for me and dapat tah bali baju lawa-lawa ni nanti di KL if I slim down a bit..wawawawa~ Dapat bergaya ni..Huhuhu. Gonna be sooooo vain toh di KL~ :P

Okay..atu saja dulu..

Lurve,

Kisho [229]

P/S : I'm worried about him...hope he's okay..and hope I'm not outta my mind a.k.a datang selahau for now..:S

Gagas update..lol

-Tearful week.
-Confused at how I feel and think.
-Feels fate is playing games with me.
-Wish I can just erase the past and live another path of life.
-First time ever I did something I'm not supposed to do because I was 'unwell'. Regrets it but I do need it.
-Spent a nite of sungkai wiv him and found it wonderful. Yet more things I know about him makes me feel I am weak and helpless.
-Hope God will help me and listen to my prayers...although I don't think I deserve to ask anything at all.
-Went to KB..cari ketenangan. Thanx to Potty.
-I am blogging in this way because Potty is in a hurry. Wawawa. Sabar Pot...

I am DONE!

Lurve,

Kisho[229]

"I love him, I love him...Ya Allah, dengarkanlah doa-doa hamba-Mu yang hina ini.."