Flash update~

I am BACK!!

HOLIDAYS are almost OVER, which are 'tanpaku sedari'..LOL. Kinda it just flew passed me by in silence. Oh well, that's what time is. It goes without waiting for anyone, not even a mere glance. Huhu. We just have to grab whatever we can within it. Oh there it goes again, my ramblings~ My raya this year is kinda dull. I am bored. Huhu. Oh I forgot~

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI TO ALL~ MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!! :D

I am stuck in my EP. Stuck in developing my action plan. And that is a plain crazy thing because I have to submit my EP somewhere next week. Hohoho. I swear, EP is one of the most ridiculously complicated thing you NEED to do to get a mere DIPLOMA. It's really overdoing it, I mean, EP is actually not in a DIPLOMA standard. IT should be in a DEGREE standard and I'm struggling with it pathetically. Plus with the lack of GOOD resources for articles, I feel I am on my way to DOOM...Okay, not to forget to blame me for my lack of motivation to do it. And I think I'm getting bored with studying. Oh yesh, my thirst for knowledge has decreased, dropped, plunging. Oh God..my parents will not like to hear that coming from me. They would burn me into the deep pits of HELL if I do say something like, "Ma, Pa. I think I'm bored with studying..I don't want to study anymore. Carikan calon laki ja. Kan kawin ku, byk kawan2 ku kawin udh~"!! Owh bummer...I think I should be spanked for that. Huhu...I am just joking though about the marriage part. Haha. So oh not ready yet~

Guess what too? I am FINALLY letting go of him. Yes, I am. Absolutely. I just realized something, coming to my rationality and senses. He doesn't care about me as I thought. And I can't make him love me again. No matter what I do. I give up after a long pondering. I was BLIND before. Totally. I am burying that love and feelings I have for him inside. Tanam and simen tarus. Goodbye love. Sayonara. But not entirely. He is still a friend that plays an important part in my life. Guess that's it. Friends.Tapi if ada jodoh, then it's fate. I leave that to God. Now that is done, I am feeling a bit lonely. Maybe I won't be able to love as much as before..Oh well, now peepz, your wish has come true...I am moving on with my sad life. Good thing eh? You peepz won't see me crying myself silly or being moody as much then. Bad thing? I guess I've changed a whole lot more...more to the inside than outside. Huhu. What are the changes? Jangantah tanya..sure will, not everyone will like it. Haha. Will I be searching for new love? Ahakz, awu..I will. Ganya miana kan mencari ani eh? Anyone has any bachelor male friends to hook up with me? Hehe. :P I need a wingman or a wingwoman nih~~ ;p

Owh...gotta go~ I need to get my brain reeling in ideas for my EP...HELP!!S.O.S!! Or rather S.O.B a.k.a Save Our Brains!!! Hahaha..me and my sick joke..:P Leaving you with a lyric from a song I just can't resist~ *hint* May express what I really feel inside...huhu..bunga2 eh ku ani..*hint*

"I Just Can't Live A Lie" - Carrie Underwood

Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't watch you walk away

Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've been through
Could I wake up without you every day?
Would I let you walk away?
No, I can't learn to live without
And I can't give up on us now

[Chorus]
Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me?
And all the reasons that make loving you so easy
The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe
The way you know just what I mean
No, I can't learn to live without
Ohh, so don't you give up on us now

Ohh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Ohh, and I don't wanna try

Ohhhh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

I just can't live a lie
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Oh, I cant live a lie [x2]

Lurve,
Kisho229

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