I need my old life back~

Assalamualaikum y'all...

Salam sejahtera~ Hehehe..aaah, batah dah ku nde update ni. Now, I am totally clueless as in what to say in this blog...kan ceta apa nah?? Hmm..antah. Masa hari-hari cuti terakhir ani, nada apa-apa yang interesting terjadi arahku..cewah! Well, maybe aku mikin chubby (liat ceramin, lapas atu berterais "AKU NDE MAU CHUBBY WAH EYHH!!!") sebab malar landing ke dapur wah tujunya..hahaha...kes buring udah tue! Selain atu, well, yeah, di rumah apa nah keraja ku?? Tidur akhir, bangun pun akhir jua..LOL...abis atu tidur petang cia lagi!! Gila banar aku ani..mengepam body ku yg memang dah chubby ani...kwang3x...bilatah kan pancit ani? HAUHUhuhauha..kan makai jarum pa kah?!! Makai paku kah...heheh!

And selain atu, aktiviti lain ialah....belajar berbahasa ibunda ku...LOL...bahasa apanya nih? bahasa Iban wah...sesaja..kwang3x...bagi yang tak tahu, aku half Iban half Melayu...HUHAUHuahuhauhUHA!! Hehehe, suprise~ Tapi alom ku andal cakap Iban ani wah, walaupun ku paham cakap atu sikit-sikit...kwang3x...yeah, maju bahasa untuk negara...LOL...alom lagi ku belajar cakap Dusun lagi nih, matik...alom ku termampu kan absorb semua bahasa ani..kwang3x...

Aaahh...apa lagi ahh?? Hmm..antahlah beb..aku out of ideas dah ni...huhauhauhUH....nada ceta siuk bah nyamu hidup ku saat ini...kwang3x....and so...biarlah kisah hidup ku yang nde dinyatakan di sini menjadi persoalan di hati...ahUHAUhhauhAU.....

Signing off !~

P/S: Gathering di Bukit Shahbandar sariatu memang best..sayangnya ujan ani wahh!! Cecapie jua tue ujan ahh...turun naik payung c Potty ku pakai memayungkan kami...LOL...macam buat persembahan berpayung pulang ani wahh!! Thank you, thank you datin tazzy menjemput kediaku...ceewahh...lainkali andat2 tah jubur atu lagi ahh...LOL lahhh...nyaman kali ahh...antamz!!! Hahahaha....ciao~


Z.C - I saw him with his golden girl, but couldn't do anything but cry a million tears...

KINGKONG!!!

Assalamualaikum y'all...

Hehehe...yo, yo~ Hahaha...apakanz...antah lah, selahau ku kali...biasalah, lapas balik dari Bandar~ yelah, lapas liat wayang arah The Mall!!! Liat apa nah??? Liat ceta KingKong...ahuHUHuhau...emmm, komen? Aaaah, antah ahh, aku ani nde jua andal kan kritik2 komen2...but anyway, ceta atu sadanglah...kira oklah bagi aku~ after all, ceta ani kana re-make jua lahh dari ceta yang lama~ Tapi yang pastinya, film atu punya action effects atu canggih...ahUHAUHHUA, siuk mata ku memandang~ Siuk ku meliat part time dinaso kana bubut dinaso yang lain(aku nde tau nama dinaso2 atu...minta maaf, sori! LOL)...kwang3x...And also time King Kong kan tolong da heroin daripada kana mamam oleh dinaso jahat...kwang3x...WAHH, hebat banget camera effectsnyaaa~~ best2...sound effects pun gempak~ HAUHuhauhUHAUH....

Part paling bari geram ati, part KingKong kana bunuh ahh..aUHAUHuhuahUH...sedih ku plg meliat ani wahh!! Bangang eyh usulnya...kan nanes lagi ku tue, simpati gitu~ Chit...Part calie pun ada, time KingKong pandai merajuk ani wahh...LOL lahhh...menyamal lagi tue, mengada...bwohh..ahuHHAUHhauh.

Tapi apa yang ku tahu, aku emosi sikit liat ceta aahh..ahuhAUHauha..CALIE banar!! Kenapa kah aku emosi ani...bangang banar eyh...menghayati banar ani wahh!! Calie2....and also, ceta KingKong atu batah banget panya!!!!! Sangal leher ku melangui, ngam2 lagi aku seat dapan...chit...menyasal separuh jua..tapi apa bulih buat..ahuHUAHuhauhuHA..asal meliat wahh, nya mama!!

Di masa hadapan...aku mau liat ceta 'Memoirs of a Geisha'...'Underworld:Evolution'...HAUHuahuHAUHAU...dua2 ani aku aim kan liat~ sebab antah ahh, aku tertarik menarik...LOL... sama ia punya trailers...kwang3x...aihhh...aku nak, aku nak....ada lagi movies yang kan ku liat tapi, um, aku lupa..ahuHAUHuhuha...Nde apa, nanti tah ku mengisi ke dalam bloggy ku ani, batah2 baru kan mengisi ani wahh, got no time, no extraordinary story to share...LOL..bah bah...chow lu~

Signing off people~~

ZC - Emosi ku sejak dua menjak ani...unbalanced hormonal changes kah?? ahUHAUHauhA...

Keliru meliru celaru tergaru2..hahaha

Assalamualaikum semua..

Hehehe...memang jarang udah aku update blog aku ani...susah payah rasanya kan menaip panjang lebar di blog ani..kwang3x...tapi ani ku kuatkan semangat untuk menaip...ceewah..emmm emmm...apa nak buat kat sini ahhh?? kwang3x...antah lahh...aku in confused state~

Keliru?? Kenapa??Hmm..antah..aku rasa aku sengaja menguji seseorang..LOL...aku buat ia marah, buat ia sakit ati, sakit jiwa...sakit apa saja...KEJAM rasa diri ku ani, tapi antah lahh..setiap hari aku berpikir pasal seseorang ani, bukan rindu aahh..berpikir saja...patut kah nde patut aku buat mcm tu arah kedia and napa ku buat mcm atu, apa hal????...ahUHAUhhauHUAH..chit! Antah eyh..mikin ku pikir kan, mikin tah ku keliru meliru celaru cencaluk tarus..antah apa2 antah!!! terseksa jiwa raga ku..ceewah~

Napa begitu kejam cara ku kan menguji ani? sampai kan buat ia sakit ati, sakit jiwa dan sebagainya??? Antah...aku mau kepastian....ceeewah, serius bunyi ku ahh...hahahahaha...ANTAH eyhh..aku keliru banar2!!! Napa ku di duga sebegini?? MUngkinkah...sampai seru?? sampai seru apanya?? sampai seru untuk bergelar seorang GF?? LOL...hahahaha..matikk..ndeee..nde ku mooo...i dun wanna....umur mikin lanjut plg tapi..erkss...aku mcm phobia...LOL...phobia dgn perkataan "relationship"...

Lupakan atu sekajap..aku mau sedey kan diri sekjap...aihhh..urg yg ku suka dulooo....kini sudah berpunya...ada GF dah...sakit ati jua lah tau...tapi aku ani sakit ati nde bertempat...HUHAUHuhauHA...aku sedey lah, tapi aku happy lah untuk ia sebab ada couple untuk kedia...baguslahh..alhamdulillah...hanya aku yang sendiri di sini...kwang3x...keliru dengan perasaan diri ku...waaahh, bermadah berhelah ku ehhh..kwang3x...mana saja...biarlah...kisah lalu itu jadi kenangan ku yang terkubur di hati...aihh..emosi aku ahh~~~

Ok, atu sajalah...keliru ku masih..ahUHAUUhauHA..mampu ku menaip lagi tue..aihhh...tata~

Signing off~

P/S: Nanti ada gathering di Shahbandar..aku nak pergi...tapi, erks, nadai ku berusin kan membayar for da food..i mean, $10 is a little sum for somebody tapi bagi aku, besar nilainya...ahuHUHuha...financial status nde mengizinkan..elaun aku lagi alom ada...nak harapkan parents, mcm menyusahkan plg...aihh....tengok lah mcmana nanti...aku pi ke tak..ahuHUAHUH...NAK PI!!!

ZC - Keliru memakan diri ku dari dalam..perlahan dan pasti...ahUHAUHuha..

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Assalamualaikum...

What I only wanna say is....I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOO TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry for not updating selalu macam dulu...aku naleh and I got clinical di Sengkurong clinic...and so???? Benci saya...I need holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I gained a bit of weight that I lost...membari geram ati banar...exercise is a must!!!! aim for losing more and more weight~

Sick...or just exhausted??

Assalamualaikum...

I know I haven't updated for such a *long* time...I'm back in Brunei now, exhausted to the core and feeling dreadful...I think I have a cold, and I'm still tired from driving back and forth from home to nursing college. Aaahh...i feel so rotten~ I need a break...I need to sleep for a whole week...but reality wouldn't let me~

Reports, presentation and *miraculously* assignment kana suruh buat...ahuHUAHHaua...BENCI saya...ada kah assignment pun kana suruh buat...I feel like robot ni, kana suruh itu ini....Aihh, hate to do things spontaneously~ Nasib no exams to attend to...I feel glad about that..hahahaha...

Jumpa a few of my friends...gila, kan menangis saja rasanya time paluk my friends yang ada ahh...kana paluk ku lagi kuat2...hahahaaa, sasak nafas ku sekajap..hehe..iski jua ku berjumpa durang~~and what I like best, time urg kata aku nampak kurus...auAUHuhauhAUHuhauh...ATU banar...happy ani wahh ku ulihnya...motivated ku untuk menguruskan diri...ceeewah.....

Erm..I dun feel good...rasa ka damam selesema...batuk ku sikit2..damn...gonna rest...

Signing off~

ZC- Tired and bored...and i have a running nose...no, my nose doesn't run..LOL

Once In a Lifetime~

Assalamualaikum peeps~

It's been long since I updated it...well, not quite that looooooong ago but anyway, batah lah...kwang3x..Sejak nada berbroadband ani, payah for me to go online...well, not really payah sebab buleh ke uni and go online for 24 hours you know, tapi sebab malas kan ke uni and spent time sana iatah nde online memanjang...sekali2 saja tue time ada rasa kan online, that strong desire to just go online and see who's up for a chat~ BUT unfortunately, sini nada MIRC..which sucks, sebab aku mo join MIRC and chat~ Aaahh..addictive...mcmana ni??

And yeah, found out my allowance for this month..kana kuarkan 2 minggu saja...damn it eyh...busan beta, nde dpt shopping ni!!! AAAhh..hate it..Terpaksa berjimat cermat ni, have to curb my lust for shopping~ LOL...my friend, Feeda kesian lah sebab she got full allowance and then lapas balik brunei kana baritau bayar balik sebab she's only here for a week in this month..sakit~ sakit tue membayar ahh...imagine kan lah ahh...AUD$1068 changed it into Bruneian dollars...voila~ kan pisan membayar tue...sapakan di salahkan atas hal mcm ani?? adui makk...

I'm counting days kan balik ni..nde terasa rasanya kan balik cia aku this Sunday...aaah...kesian ku jua Kak Ramlah...tinggal cia ia sorang2 ni...aihh, berat my hati kan leave...Damn...anyhow, gonna spend my remaining days here with Kak Ramlah..bagi ia cheer up sikit, bagi ia good memories sikit before I leave for good~ Oh yeah, we went to Movie World masa hari Ahad...hahaha..it was damn fun kali ah..later I post up some of the pictures I took when I was there...ahUHAUHuahua..

Next place to visit, Sea World and the Australian Zoo~ Here I come~

P/S: mY RESEARCH assignment kana checked and I have to resubmit...damn eyh...hope dapat ku siapkan as soon as possible..kwang3x...ceewah...I need a miracle~

Signing off!~ away~~~~~

ZC - Animals...just love them, well, except for dogs and pigs and boars and...bla, bla, bla... ^_^

HaRi RaYa PiX

Selamat Hari Raya~

Assalamualaikum~

I would like to say SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI to all~ AMPUN MAAF DIPINTA atas segala kesalahan atau kesilapan yang telah terjadi~ Dan aku, aku maafkan segala salah silap yang ada, kalau ada yang ku nde ingat, harap maaf...sememangnya aku lupa kan udah kisah2 lama atu...ceewah...Here I am, right in front of my lappy and berbaju kurung pink (without my tudong) and typing in everything in my mind in a rush~ HAHAHAAH....

Anyway, a little bit of info of what i have been doing a few days ago...

- I went to see my doctor, DR. LOGAN and found out that my Hep B was a mild version, which meant, it's not truly infectious (but still dangerous, as I can infect people with it) and I can go for follow up once a year~ hehee....alhamdulillah~

- I went to Indooroopilly~ the largest and biggest shopping centre~ my first time going there...heheh...naleh and truly exciting tho...apatah lagi aku puasa, rasa macam kan pulak my legs sebab the shopping centre atu too big...shops nya lagi banyak...aaahh...and I think I got into a hypoglycaemic state...shivering, cold skin, headache...nasib saja nde pengsan~ fuhh..alhamdulillah lagi...syukur...

- I went to the uni to get my lappy installed with the QUT wireless program..and it caused so much trouble...rasa kan melatuk lappy..hahahah...tapi sayang ku masih...berjasa besar tue my lappy...heh...alhamdulillah sebab aku ada lappy ku ahh~ teman kesunyianku tue...teman sejati..hahaha!

- I had my RESEARCH assignment handed back to me...and much to my disappointment...I failed it...TOTALLY! matik...I didn't cry, I didn't believe it...tapi it's true..and so, I need to make an appointment with my tutor and discuss about it today (my first day of raya and I'm meeting a tutor for my assignment, this is weird...)...I have to resubmit it again nyamo...hate it eyh...no holidays...damn!!! Research is just not the thing for me...tapi, erks, it's actually important...anyway, alhamdulillah sebab I have the chance to resubmit it lagi~ kira ada peluang for me to make it up...chai-yo!! GANBATTE-NE!

- Called my family back at home...nasib aku nde sedey2 ani..alhamdulillah..ketawa2 ku with my lil sis' punya jokes....c kambang atu eyh banar...aah, she wants me to see Chicken Little...adui mak...and I, in return asked her to check out kalau Underworld: Evolution ada udah kah nde~ ahuahuhauhAUHAUHAUH....

- Got a Hari Raya greeting card dari my friend in Brunei..adui mak..thank you, Sal~ I missed you too..I missed everything about us...ceewah..atu yaa..hahahahaha..oh my goodness~

- Kena proposed by c Zul again...ani kali ke antah berapa( maybe the fourth official proposal~)...I dunno, and I don't have that kind of feelings arah nya (I have fear of starting a relationships...)..besides ia baru putus with his GF...adui mak, he said GF nya punya pasal lah durang putus(he didn't want to tell me the WHOLE story)...emmm...nde batah his relationship with his GF(1 month ++) ...auhUHUHAUUahu...adui mak, and he said, he wants to propose lagi time aku kana lanja ulih nya...alamak~ I feel...intimidated...I challenged kedia pulang, and asked him what if I accepted?? Hahahaha...terdiam ia...and he balas my question atu towards me lagi..aduiii!! now, my turn to terdiam...the truth?? I THINK I can accept him, tapi my heart goes to only one person...I still like Kesuka (REAL NAME: ada lerr...)..I can't forget him, I can't let myself go free from him...ooh IS THAT LOVE??? ...but anyway, c Zul confident katanya yang ia buleh make me his GF, and I say, rather challengingly, just try it if you can..hahaha...guys with his confidence~ damn...terseksa aku macam ani...being pursued~


That's all for now...kan bergambar lagi for Hari Raya ni..hehe...okay..that's all...

Signing off~


ZC - SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI~ MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN~

An appointment....

Assalamualaikum....

Woke up for sahur today...hahaha, rajin ku bangun for sahur~ Walaupun, sejak dua menjak ani aku malas kan bersahur and bangun pukul 2:30 am Aussie time...Sanak my tummy for a moment, kekanyangan sebab kana suruh abiskan makanan~ I know I shouldn't tapi...sayang jua rasanya nde menghabiskan makanan atu although aku nde suka kana pajal makan...damn eyh! But anyway, I did it...aku makan jua and now my tummy hurts....

Today, anak bulan udah kan kana teropong...hahaha....macam nde sangka, masa berjalan macam lakas usulnya...nde sadar udah kan abis bulan Ramadhan..how time flies by so quickly, without us realising it~ Hm, raya kah nde esuk ani ahh? Well, let it be answered by today....ahuHAUhahuhAUH....I'm not looking forward to Raya tho...maybe pasal aku di luar negeri ani, or maybe it's just that I'm not really excited about Raya just like the year before...antah eyh, I dunno...Raya for me is like any other day...emmm...aku ndada semangat raya eyh~~

OOh yeah..my Med-Surg exam...well..I suck at the short answers questions....TOTALLY!! hahah..banar ni..teruk...my answers atu banar short saja..but then, time I glanced around arah urg lain punya papers, a whole page kali ahh ia membuat and even with their small handwritings...nde kan membari watir tue, it's like I'm thinking..eyh, drg ani membuat short answer kah...essay ni?? Kwang3x....Really, you would think such a thing when you see them writing their so called short answers....O_o

And yeah...I'm gonna go and have a date with my doctor~ LOL lahh..not really a date..just an appointment and for your info, my doctor's a woman...an old woman...hauhAUHuhauHAH...what for? Well, I'm not gonna hide this...I got Hep B...yeah, I know...it's dangerous and I can infect you with it...like I always say to myself "I got poison in my blood"...that's just a reminder for me lah...hahhaa....not that I hate having it, well, I do sometimes...tapi mana jua ulah..there's no cure for Hep B, in my case tho...cehh....damn, my life is full of challenges...it's like Tuhan can just take my life away right here, right now...I got asthma and Hep B, like two worst conditions in one body of mine...kwang3x...tapi ndapa, pemberian Tuhan jua, like I said, mana jua ulah...life goes on...til the day Tuhan tarik balik pinjaman nya arah aku...=x

Anyway, signing off...nantuks ku jua rasanya..but I want to keep myself awake...krg nde terbangun lagi to get ready for appointment ahh..jauh lagi ni hospitalnya!!! and I need to get a bus to the city before I could get to PA hospital...hehe...and that takes a whole lot of time...hehe...chow~


ZC = Take my life...take my soul..I wish my life would be something I would not regret to have..

Exams Fever~~ (ek-zam fie-vah!)

Assalamualaikum y'all...

emm...examz nyamo!! Damn..had my Ethics exam tadi and it sucks....BIG TIME!! Hahaha...yeah, aku nde belajar banar2 for my ethics 'cos it doesn't interest me...lagipun payah eyh!!! Damn...Some people would just walked out of the exam room with a smile and a smirk showing how easy that was!!! LOL..I was not one of them, I looked like I'm gonna passed out at any moment because I was also fasting...HUAUUAUhuahha...IT'S A 5:30 PM exam...and what am I gonna do???? I got hypo....LOL...cianz eyh..lapas exam tarus ruah beg Supre for my biscuits...nyum!!!

Tomorrow...will be another exam...Med-Surg...oooh man, this one is gonna be tough~ Hopefully not...I can't afford to make myself feel worthless for not studying hard enough....hahahaha...I did study for this one~ Banar...serius ku ne....I did look up at all those answers for my exam preparation before ~ I did....seriously!!

Emm..so sleepy right now..end this blog here..and my english pun nde betantu lagi ni..I'm so damn sleepy...

P/s: Notice how I always say "damn???".....aiyoo..bad habit...

Japanese Horoscope~~

Here's a Japanese horoscope which I got from Beulye's webbie...hehe...

VIRGO WOMAN (24 Aug. -23 Sep)* Eastern Japanese Horoscope - Please follow given DATE for accuracy.

She will be similar to Leo woman in appearance. A slim woman who walks with confident and proud. She has an egg shape facial structure, high and round forehead. She likes to look straight as if she is searching. She is not a pretentious type and will always say what she thinks.
* comment: I'm not slim..hauhUHHAUH...i will say what i think at certain times, but never always...egg shape facial sructure and high + round forehead...i think so~~ I always look straight..hahah..i dunno about the searching part~=p

You will see Virgo woman walks fast. She will try her best to be perfect, to look perfect and to feel perfect even though there is no such perfection. She is very delicate of what and how she dress. She is bright and easily despair with obstacles. She likes smart guy who will be compatible with her, so if you are a rich dumb guy, you can forget about her right now.
*comment: I'm a fast walker...I admit it...aku suka jalan laju2..hahha...emm, a bit of it are true, I like smart guys...I dun care about looks, or wealth...I'm not always bright and yes, sometimes I despair so easily with obstacles...kwang3x...

She is not a very possessive or jealous person for she expect respect from her love one. She does not like a part time lover, or a temporary mate. If she finds her dream man, she will not go away. If she does not like you, she will always keep a certain distant. Act proper and appropriate is her discipline.
She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase. She likes a gentleman who open the doors for her. She wants to feel protected and when a man taking care of her, she will feel like a complete woman.
*comment: Ohh yeahh..hahaha..aku bukan penjeles...i dun want someone yg hanya kan main2 with me...I wanna a serious relationship and i expect him to not fool me around..give respect ahh~!! if i dun like a guy, I will keep my distance, sometimes, nde ku contact lagi...nde ku layan~~~ yesh, i wanna a guy who can be my knight in shining armour....someone who can protect me, and if there's a guy who takes care of my being, I feel like a woman, sebab aku ani..a bit boyish~~ HAHAHAHA...

She memorizes everything about other people and about herself very well. She can really keep secret, you can trust her on this. She likes a refreshing and a mild scent. She is very delicate in maintaining her beauty, so you could see she is seriously picking soap which match and most suit her skin. Do not comments her on this very picky habits, it is her happiness in working full times as a self beautifier.
*comment: HAhahah..well, I dun really memorize about people or myself...i do have quite a good memory..yeah, I can be secretive and can keep a secret~ emm..I do like refreshing n mild scent~ Not really delicate in maintaining my beauty..hauhUHUha...And yeah, i do spend a lot of time memilih my stuffs..hehe..

She is not an innocent angel for sometimes she can be as tough as steel. Even she easily despair, she is not the type to cry over it. She is a shy type, so making speech in front of the room can make her nervous even she walks and talks confidently.
*comment: Well, erk..yeah, sometimes..I am tough, I dun cry easily and I am shy...making a speech is like a nightmare for me..damn it~

She only search for true love , not just any love. Her love is an ideal one. She likes to think no one is neater and as effective as her, which can irritate you sometimes for there is no such thing. She likes sweet talk, but she can slip and say something unpredictable and unbearable to you too. When she stops getting mad, she will totally forget what she just said and be an angel again. If you have a date with her , you'd better be there on time.
*comment: Yesh..I'm searching for a true love...well, I dun think I'm neater or effective than anyone...I do like sweet talk and sometimes say something stupid from my mind...i do forget why I get mad at certain points and yeah, I like punctuality...hahahaha

Flowers and sweet word can calm her down. If you want to say sorry , make it brief and straight forward. Do not drag your apologetic words into a long making it up events, it could lead you to another world war. She likes her man to dress nice and clean. She is good in details especially with money. Do not make she thinks that she is a clown or funny.
*comment: flowers and sweet words...well, can calm me a bit...and yeah, I like apologies to be short and straight forward...I like to have a man who dress nice and clean, who wouldn't??? Not really good with money, I can overspent tueee...ahUHAHUA...I dun like it when people think I can be a clown or funny when I'm serious...

In the beginning of knowing her, please try not to glance at other pretty woman so much. Early period of dating her, try not to hold her so much in public, it would not be a proper thing to do. She loves books, stage play and music and likes to criticize about them too.
*comment: HahHAHAHA...yeah, nde ku suka tue kalau kan dating, ia kan liat bini2 lain lagi...meaning he's not really interested in me...*pouts* and I dun wanna have physical contact at all in public, selahau jua tue...I do love books, I am interested in stage play and music...and sometimes I do criticize about it..hauhHAUH...

Criticism woman is her icon including big and small things in life starting from your hair, your dress , and the way you talk. If you are in love with her, be as almost perfect as your can.
*comment: Well...I do criticize a bit...tapi nde selalu...only when I'm with someone who knows me well..hehe..erk...I dun really need a perfect guy, I only need a guy who know how to show respect, yang baik, yg caring...i dun need a guy yg pretending to be someone else...please lah, I know i'm not perfect jua, so why do I need a perfect guy or almost perfect guy????

HAhahha..That's all...kinda fun jua mengomen pasal horoscope ani...yeahh~~

I'm soo emotional~

Assalamualaikum peeps~

Aihhh...time ani, aku dalam kesedihan...ceewah, sedey ku ni, sedey~~ Selahau jua ku tue, sedey2 ani...isk isk isk, emotional aku ahh..HAUAAHAHUHA...berlinangan aing mata ku ani ulihnyaa...adui mak, antah eyh kenapa aku ani~

Napa ku sedey2 sampai nangis2 ani?? Well..erks...antah eyh aku ahh, emotional...atu bah, dang Emma latenkz...eheh..aku chat sama ia, sambil ku mengadu lah kiranya pasal topik dissertation ku ahh...and oh yeah, aku baru tau, maybe aku ani ada eczema kali..gatal my skin ni...tergaru2 ku sana sini...isk isk iskk...so depressed, so tension, so mengusut~~~ Anyway, back to my story..iatah lapas atu dang Emma ceta pasal Khatam Al-Quraan esuk durang ahh di kolej...iatah ku tanya, sapa saja ikut...nya Emma, semua ani wah...except non muslim lah ahh..and then, nde ku tau kenapa, sedey ku tarus~ Emma lagi taip ayat2 yang menyedihkan...mikin ku sedey...HAUHAUAHHAUA...sasak ku eyh...

Why?? Maybe a small matter plg tue...tapi bagi aku, I lost an important event being there with my friends di Brunei...udah tah masa atu miss ikut ET ke Thailand, miss lagi liat ET presentation..and then miss lagi time durang sibuk2 kan cari topik for dissertation, time durang Emma ke KK lagi...I feel, mcm I lost all those good times...mcm, aku ketinggalan~ adui makk...like aku rasa, baik aku nde terima my scholarship ani daripada I miss all those things....those memories...those memories which I can cherish masa kami nanti masing2 keraja udah...iatah, sedey ku ahh..bulehhh??? Senitip ku ahh..emotional banar~ Damn it!!! Those things bukannya buleh balik2...iatah...I missed it all and I feel alone, mcm I won't be part of those sweet memories with my friends...isk isk iskk....meluahkan tah aku ani...My life here in Brisbane, nde berbaloi rasanya when I think of those things I missed back there in Brunei....hehe...I know, aku sound negative...kan menyasal tah aku ahh..tapi then, aku nde buleh menyasal, udah rezeki ku di sini...syukur alhamdulillah pada Allah sebab memberikan rezeki ani...so, no need to be regretful~~ after all, I will be back to Brunei nanti, and I will embrace new memories yang ada aku in it~~~ YAY!!!!

Oke then...no more eyh...naleh ku menaip...masih ku sedey plg, aing mata pun kan kuar kalau ku ingati kata2 dang Emma...aiyooo...HAUHAUHUAAHUAH....cheer up myself!!! Kan balik ne~~~

Signing off~

P/S: Nanti aku nde online lagi berkuatkuasa pada 4.11.2005...HAHAUAH..sebab broadband kana stop...damn it...buring tah ku ni nanti....


ZC - Memories with friends are never to be forgotten~

Obsession, I replayed it over and over...morning~

Assalamualaikum Peeps..

Hye people, morning~~ HAHAHAHAHA...yesh, I'm blogging this in the early rays of morning~ I must be crazy but no...hell noT! Anyway, why am I blogging in English?? Damn it, I dunno..I can't resist the temptation NOT to blog in English...It's like an obsession, or a bad/good habit I've been developing bit by bit...Kwang3x....

Anyway, just to blog that I LOVE the song "TONG HUA" by Guang Liang (Michael Wong)...HAHAHAHA...how many times did I blog that one out!?? A lot...and I just realised that it is a popular song when I was browsing thru the Internet~ Geez, but it was a GREAT song, enough to make me feel sad inside~ I'm on the way to memorize the song~ HAHAHAAH...stupid, but yeah...I like to memorize songs, especially Japanese and Chinese songs, whatever!!! It's like a satisfaction for me to do so...And oh yeah, Michael Wong looks *cute*...LOL...I know, I have always tend to LIKE Chinese guys, and I dunno why~ Perhaps I will marry a Chinese??? HAHAHAHAHA...

Aiiihh..I'm so tired, so sleepy...But I'm not going to sleep yet...the people from the PACK N SEND company will get my things later at 10 am, and if I sleep, I'll just doze off and won't be awake til 11 am at least~ So, it's better to slap myself awake by browsing thru the Internet and maybe try to find tips and hints on making a signature or an avatar...I wanna make my own design, I mean, the sig and avatar for the #maktabduli webbie...HAHAHAHAAHA...I can do this, yeah, I need to...This is another satisfaction I must have!!!

oKAy...I'm a bit out of ideas right now..my ears are itchy from constant listening to my big headphones...and my face is full of pimples, and my eyes are getting more and more sore from constant reading and looking thru things in the INternet...and my body feels so sluggish, I may fall off my chair right now..HAHAHA...and yet, I still need to face today by waiting the PACK N SEND people and also going to Gardens Point to get my ticket in STA Travel...aihh..*sigh* then, I may have to go to Queen Street Mall and get crazy with a bit of shopping...perhaps..I dunno...I need to buy things for my friends...*sigh* I feel tired....

Signing off~

ZC - Sorry people, I'm blogging in English...sekali sekala bah~ HAHHAA...

Tong Hua...sadness~

I like this song very much..tapi ada udah dalam my song collection...HAUHAUHAUA...i need FEN KAI LV XING very very muchie!

Oooh Happy Day~

Assalamualaikum peeps~

Hahaha...well, i am proud to say...aku punya tiket balik ke Brunei udah konfirm, udah ada untuk ku ambil!! Yahahahaha...i am so happy, truly, deeply, madly excited!! Nde sabar rasanya kan balik ke Brunei...It felt like macam bertahun-tahun udah ku di Brisbane ani walaupun aku di Brisbane just for 8 months~ Nde sadar masa berlalu sebegitu laju...ceewah, keluar bahasa baku ku ahh!! Hehehe...anyway, it was fun and a lot of experience i gained here in Brisbane!! A lot of things to see, to feel, to do...hehe..sampai I can't do all of them til now!! Ohh yeah...13/11/2005 !! That's the date I'm gonna go back to Brunei, surely I will miss Brisbane walaupun i have bad memories here....

One day, perhaps, one day, kalau di murahkan rezeki dan dipanjangkan rezeki...I hope to go to Brisbane lagi!! Maybe with my family, or my friends or even someone whom I dedicate my life with forever...HAHAHA..paham2 lah tu...hehe...eyh, sedih jua rasanya ni membuat post ani...HAHAHA...astah~ I will surely miss my times here in Brisbane, especially sejak akhir2 ani...(I wanna go to Sunshine Coast to see Steve Irwin's zoo!!!)

Oh yeah..gonna go to GOLD COAST lapas my exams..HAHAHA..gumbira ku eyh..this time, I won't miss bergambar di pantai nya ahh...the last time I went there, it was raining nyamo...eeehh, so bad!! Maybe, hopefully go to Harbour Shopping town~ Shopping meh~ LOL...Hopefully lah~ I need to buy things for my family and friends jua nanti tue...ahhhh, i'm not a good shopper when it comes to buying things for somebody!!! So, iatah selalunya aku tanya2 or byk questions arah urang yang selalu shopping sama aku...annoying, yeah, I know...LOL...better to ask another's opinion dari aku bali yang just for my own taste!!! Nde ja?? HAHAHAHA...at least, there's a chance yang maybe the taste atu 50-50 sama with someone who I'm going to give to...auhahaa...

Emm, right now..aku obsessed balik sama Vic Zhou!!! AAAAHHHHH...huney!! Matik eyh....why, oh why do you may ask?? Kwang3x...well, sebab aku suka gaya nya ahh, I wish aku punya BF nanti cool macam ia!! HUAHAUHA...*i'm setting my preferences too high*...kwang3x....ermm, besides, aku mo liat his latest drama tue...apa namanya ni, 'MARS'!!! I've seen the original work plg in the manga of 'MARS' , it was fabulous tapi bila ku liat c Vic Zhou yang berlakon for the hero in MARS, I was like, oh damnit!! Gotta buy that! I must!! Hahaha...BECAUSE I really like Vic Zhou masa ia berlakon...obsessed ku ni, I'm not being myself nah...hahahha....the strange thing is~ aku nde pernah banar2 liat ceta Meteor Garden, part 1 or part 2, whatever...and aku nde brapa obsessed with Vic time ia berlakon sana, I wonder~ But since aku bali "Love Storm" (where I get to see Vic and Ken, hensem durang ahhhh...), aku minat berabis!!! Hahaha..selahau ku ahh...well, you can say that I'm not THAT obsessed banar, tapi I like eyh...I get overexcited liat Vic Zhou and I think I got my eyes macam dalam anime bah, ada shining2 stars~ Hehe~

So my newest wish in my wish list would be MARS vcd set (Which aku pernah liat berjual di kadai but only in mandarin/cantonese version...damn!!!) HAHAHAA...and also, my next newest wish is to dapatkan that chinese song that I got so obsessed about "FEN KAI LV XING" by Rene Liu...I think lah...aihhh...

Ok then...off I go..alum ku study banar2 for my exams ni..aiyoo..I need to, but I think I'll do it tomorrow or tonight...I'm not sure *lazy*


Signing off~


ZC - imPaTiEnTLy WaItIng To Go bAcK tO bRunei~

Forgot how...

Hey..just posting up a bit~

Atas request my dear friend Potty, aku pasang balik my taggy ahh...hahahaha...naleh ku mencari2 macamana kan masukkan ke arah bloggy ku atue...after 10 minutes of mind boggling, akhirnya berjaya jua ku...aihhh, hedek ku memikirkan lagi because aku ada dua taggy ni...one is from c-box (which i'm currently using) and the other one is from tagboard...hahahaha...iatah paning, nde ku kilala mana satu yang selalu ku pakai!!! And also, i put up a counter sana...hahaha, bida counter ku!! I need to find counter yang much better than that eyh...emm, i wonder where~

Oooh yeah, menyimpang sikit...I've found one of my ex-classmates dulu from SRMA in Friendster...hehe..laki2 plg...eyh, no worries people~ LOL...cecapie ku ah!! Anyway, we chatted a bit last nite, reminiscing of the old times and wondering where our other classmates go now! Tapi then, aku ran out of ideas and ia pun jua!!! That's funny...awkward bah rasanya, like a big gap between us~ I ended that conversation pretty quickly too!! All this times, nde ku pernah kan out of ideas ani wahh, i mean in chatting with a friend, nde kira laki2 kah bini2...hahaha, adui mak...I feel s**pid~ and aku rasa malo berabis!! Malo sebab I dunno what to say at all...speechless ku nyamo!! Feel bad too... Hahaha...mind you people, I get excited at a slightest thing...sanang overexcited nyanta!! People can read how I get overexcited~UAHUAHAHAUA...

Anyway, atu saja lu..awaiting for my other ex-classmate to reply my friendster's message~ kali ani bini2 plg..hahaha...somehow I feel old...=p


Signing off~


ZC- My LoVe iS LiKe aN EtErNaL sNoW

Bored..sick...i need a new background!!

Assalamualaikum peeps~

Hahaha...liat nih!! I've changed my bloggy punya background using blogspot punya templates!! Why?? Sebab aku inda ada ideas kan pasang background macamana as my bloggy punya background...Sick of trying to find one particular layout to use...aihhh, i feel macam nada originality~ that it's not me~~~I want a background that says " it's me people...hauhauha "...hehe...payah bah cari that kind of layout when i'm not the one who do it myself...nde ja?? If only i know how....

Ohh yesh..hari ani...I'm eating my sungkai alone...hauhaua..kesian, sampai ku lupa masak nasi!!! terpaksa ku tunggu sampai nasi masak baru eat...sementara tunggu nasi masak, aku makan kismis saja..hahaha....my housemates?? They went to eat sungkai outside nyamo~~ aihhh, i dun wanna spend my money eating outside eyh...especially when aku nde batah lagi kan balik ani..hehe...i need to think of money, money, money...ole2 kan di balikan for my family, for my friends....aaahh, i'm gonna be crazy!! ahahha...

Hmm..ari ani, aktif ku posting up new topics inside the # maktabduli punya webbie~ HAHAHA...thanx to Ly for her hard work on setting that up!! Dgn Ms^ELLe also Potty latenkz, kami menghebohkan webbie ahh dengan posting yang antah apa-apa antah...antamz saja cia daripada nde berpakai tue webbie ahh...at least, there's something to read in there...hahaha...sayangnya, nde banyak urg register inside da webbie...duii, dapat di hitung ani bah...al maklumlah, webbie baru...alum lagi kana promo tue...heheh..dui mak~~

Oke then...enough for now..naleh ku menaip saja sehari2 ani....too much typing~~

P/S: I'm obsessed to this one Chinese song...FEN KAI LV XING by RENE LIU, i got the english version tapi nde lawa and so, my quest to find the song alum berakhir, i need to find that song!!...tapi kan, aku nde tau di mana can i find that song to download...isk isk isk...i only heard it on this website :

http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=YlCKgFZeku0&search=two%20chinese%20boys


Signing off...

ZC- My LoVe Is LiKe An EtErNaL SnOW

Hari ini overexcited~

Assalamualaikum peeps...

T_T....aku nde ada mood tadi time petang sampai malam ahh, sebabnya lappy ku ani ada VIRUS!! I HATE VIRUS!! mengacau saja idup ku yg tenang bahagia ani, geram ati ku sampai rasanya kan membunuh orang bah!!..huahuaa..but then, aku ada mood cia...gumbira kali ah, bahagia rasanya ni!!! Sampai ke awangan~ LOL! bwoh..tahap kronik udah tue kalau macam atu!! Hehehe...sikit saja kan ku postkan...masa ani, aku sedang chat dengan Kencana ku~ aiyoo~~ dunia ku terasa di awangan~~ *di angkasaraya gitu*

Anyway, aku bahagia jua~~ sebab poskad ku sampai arah nya..from AUSTRALIA with LOVE tue!! HAhahaha...selahau aku ani!! ia ucap terima kasih byk2 kali, and aku apa lagi, bahagia sentiasa...berseri2 kali mua ku ani time ia malar kata terima kasih nya atu!! Ahhh~~ bahagia ku ni~~arahnya lagi tue poskad pertama dari ku kan sampai ke Brunei ahh~~ waaaahhh, ya ALLAH...syukur alhamdulillah~

Oohh, yang paling ku gumbira hantap...time ia chatting sama aku ani, ia bagitau yg mama nya bagi ia poskad dari aku ahh time ia balik rumah masa sariatu...and mama nya tanya kedia, "from gf kah??"....WAAAHHH!! apa kanzz~~tapi ia kata "bukan, from kawan yg belajar di luar negera"....T_T <-- part ani aku hampa...hahahah...tapi aku taip arah nya "kenapa nda kata awo?? biar mama mu terkajut!!" LOL...

Then..ia kata " kalau skandalz ku tau ni, cemburu karang durang..."...and aku apa lagi, mcm erkzzz....skandals??? Kencana ku ada skandalzz????TIDAKKK!!! macam nde caya...macam dalam mimpi..lapas atu ku berani2 nya menanya kedia.."ada ko skandals kan???" <-- dlm part ani, aku kecewa..

Lapas atu ia ketawa...katanya " Nada eyh...sapa jua mau berskandal or bergf sama kediaku ani??" <-- rasa kan ku jawab "aku bah, aku mo!!" LOL...selahau tah aku tue...

Then aku jawab "Aler...kalau ko ada skandal bah banar, jeles ku tue eyh..." <-- dlm part ani, aku mcm nde caya aku taip mcm ani...matik eyh..sengaja cari nahas ku ahh!!!

After that, ia jawab balik.."kenapa plg kan jeles? nda payah jeles eyh...payah bah berskandal sama bergf ani" <-- dlm part ani, aku rasa kan kick ia...nde ia paham kah..hauahua....

Lapas atu, aku dgn buduh nya kata " haha...mana tau berskandal, dapat jua ku heboh2 kan arah urg!!"...and ia kata balik " eyh, ko macamana? nada skandal?? bulih jua ku heboh2kan!!!" <-- terkena aku...tapi sanang ati jua sebab ia nada skandal...LOL..

Kalinya aku jawab ...."behapa kan berskandal!!! baik ku berBF tarus bah, nde susah!!"...and then, ia diam...Bwohh!!! apa meaningnya ne?? hauhauhaa..erkzz...hedek I...

Anyway....enough excitement utk mlm ani...ia alum balas apa yg ku taip ahh...behapa kah ia...kalau membaca poskad ku atu sambil rindukan aku, baik jua...LOL....aiyoo...*hampa*

Signing off~~


ZC - My LoVe Is LiKe An eTeRNaL sNoW~

Raya main2~

Assalamualaikum y'all...

It's late...and aku sleepy...nantukz nih~ But I keep on forcing myself to be awake~ Anyway, just a short,erm, a short post...I think..emm...

Went to the city tadi,tired...bakas mencari rumah for my housemate to stay next year...met David, an Australian guy arah tempat where my housemate thinks will be her kind of place to stay at next year...haha..David was cheerful, friendly and obviously g**...whoops~ bukan aku kan mengucap tapi it's true...anyway, malas ku kan ingau tho..hahaha...

emm..last nite kami bergambar u know..berposing sakan so that we can take the perfect pix to send to Pelita Brunei utk sambutan Hari Raya...maybe about 2 hours kali kami berposing, gambar sana sini...LOL..calie lah...and yeah, found out baju kurung baru yg mama bari atu, it's just too oversize utk aku...LOL..abis eyh...i look like obese lady...ahahaha...but i like the colour tho~ BLUE nyer...i didn't put makeup on, just lip gloss...sadang lah usulnya aku~ but pimples scars...erkss...nampak arr~~

Hahaha...tonite...durang in cenel maktabduli voted me as "Queen of Latingz" and it makes me laughing out loud...gelihati I tau~ calie bah!!! not that i mind...bukannya a bad thing for me!! It somehow makes me feel appreciated~ LOL...i know, i do sound stupid but yeah, I feel appreciated...kwang3x...small things like that makes my day a great one~ and yeah, Ly~~ thanx for the encouragement, tho i dunno what charm do i have in myself and also for wishing me luck to find someone, a missing part of me~~ hahaha...

Oke...that's all..hehe...emmm...oh yeah, Potty...haha..selamat hari raya in advanced dear~ stay latenkz u ahh, maaf zahir dan batin, segala salah silap yg tidak di sengajakan atau di sengajakan~~ and i dedicate a song for u...lagu nyaa "Anugerah Aidilfitri" dari Siti Nurhaliza!!!! Wahahahaa..dgr lagu tue eyh, lau nada, download saja arah mirc ahh...heuheuheuheuhe!! No baju matrix for you dear~ ada tah tue brg ku bagi nanti~ haha..

Here's some pix dari posing2 ahh :



Kak Ramlah and me...aku personally like my pose in this pix...mcm ayu..LOL

Kami semua..housemates...ayu gitu....LOL

Just these two pixies dulu..got some problem with uploading ahh...aiyoo....anyhow...enjoy~

Signing off...

ZC - I'm just plain tired of life...but then something comes along and it makes my life colourful~

Selamat Berpuasa....

Assalamualaikum y'all...

It's late at nite...nantukz ku nih...tapi sebab a friend asked me for my help on her Friendster, I had to stay up nih right now and so decided to spend my time to update my bloggy ani~ Realized yang i didn't update my bloggy as frequent as I always did in the first few months of my blogging~ Hahaha...malas kali, sibuk jua with my last semester ani, and also addicted to MirC now...heuheueue....urg2 cenel maktabduli will know me, ahaha, always called c jabir aku ani..cianz...LOL...jabir kah aku ani? ndada jua...pendiam dan pemalu kali ahh...LOL

Anyway, durang in cenel maktabduli is going to make a website for cenel atu...heuheue..Ly, dearest Ly kana assigned jadi tukang buat dat webbie...haha, walaupun not really make a website, nda ja Ly? hehe...sampai gila2 katanya...hahaha, aku pun gila time ani, gila buat research assignment yg payah kan mampos ani....I have loads of work needed to be done, exams to study for...and all of it makes me go irritable, cranky nya urg...i would be swearing like an Australian even before I know it...LOL...astahh...

Got my xs user in MirC suspended...LOL..antah ia kenapa...cianz c Tazzy buat kan , and two days after that, that xs user kana suspended....hehehuehueh...terpaksa c Tazzy buatkan yg baru lagi tu...cianz ia...nda sengaja kan menyusahkan u Tazzy, maklumlah, urg kebaruan in MirC atu..heuheuhe...sori boss~~ *lari, takut kana marah ulih Tazzy sebab panggil ia boss*

Puasa!!! Hahah...puasa ku ni eyh..walaupun ku jauh di mata, LOL...tapi kurang pahala puasa, sebab terpaksa pakai clothes yg a bit...revealing~ LOL..kenapa? why? this is not me!!! ceeewah, hahaha...anyway, pasal kepanasan bah...musim bunga di sini ani, mikin panas~ it's like i'm a few inches from a blazing fire!!! Panas berabis...terpaksa tah makai baju yg ehem..sadang2 utk panas2 mcm ani...LOL...berpaluh ku jadinya..hehehe...emm, puasa ani jua...aku tais liur kan makan mcm2, misalnya cendol!!!!! astah, pun sia2 eyh...tais liur ku berabis ni...huheuhe...nanti balik brunei saja ku makan cendol...nyum kali ahh~ also tungking ayam...alamak, increased saliva production nih!! Hahaha...LOL!

Tepon my mom tadi...ia kata aku mikin lampuh...adui makkk!!! Hahahaa...adeh dehh, ia kah?? abis eyh...lampuh ku ni~ *sudden low self esteem* hehee...atu pun lepas ia liat my pix yg ku antar ke brunei...LOL...antah eyh, mikin gamuk kali banar??? uiskk...nda bleh jadi nih...nanti ku try exercise berabis...diet~ LOL...insyaallah...liat lah mcmana kan..heuheue...jan saja ku obese..atu susah ati ku tu eyh...hehe...masa ani masih peringkat overweight saja...kwang3x...

erkks...oke, atu saja kali dulu...jabirness kan aku atu~ LOL...anyway, thanx for reading my bloggy to people yg sudi membaca~ hehe...appreciated people!!!

Signing off~

ZC - belajar da word "VAIN" from Ly...hahaha...I am vain~ kwang3x

Jodoh di mana, diri behapa??kwang3x

Assalamualaikum peeps...

Tired...exhausted...naleh...LOL...today is fun! I went to Lone Pine Koala Sanctuary di Fig Tree Pocket Rd~ Jumpa koala, jumpa kangaroos~~~~ heuehuhuhe..tapi nda sangka...koala ani panya, *tutup idung dulu* bebau ihh...mcm bau ancing~ LOL...tapi cute and cuddly~ aaahh...ke jiwa ku ihh binatang atu~ LOL...:P Kangaroos lagi, waahhh~ friendly but cranky..LOL...atu tah apa yg ku describe utk binatang bernama kangaroo ani...maybe pasal panas kali, iatah ia cranky tuu...heuheheuheue~ Use 430 bus from Myers Centre ke Lone Pine...it takes about half an hour lahh...batah, tapi okiess lahh~ heuhuehuehe...asalkan sampai ke Lone Pine nyamo..i dun care~

anyway...i'm dead tired nih *tapi idup masih...tired berabis saja*....heuhue...kan pulak rasanya aku berjalan2 tadi, tapi ku kuatkan semangat, terkezut2 lagi time ada lizards lalu lalang ani, aku lagi nda suka lizards of any kind *geli i tau~*..heuheuhuhe...the real funny part was when kami bagi feed arah kangaroos, berterais2 ani wahhh~ sampai urg putih pun liat kami ani mcm alien~ tapikan kami berterais2 ani sebabnyaa...takut kana gigit time bagi makan arah kangaroo makai tangan saja ani, tapi aku nda brapa lahh..heueheu, tu kak ramlah~ LOL...feeda oke jua sikit..:x emmm...basah tangan aku dgn aing liur kangaroo...yuck, tapi siuk membari makan feed ahh...one thing is, time one of the kangaroo tarik tgn ku ani wahh~ tajam bah da kuku~ matikk..aku tahan takut saja lahh..nda plg ia tarik kuat, nda luka apa2 lah..tapi kezut aku ahh~ LOL...

Bergambar sama koala is a new experience for me...and experience yang a bit embarassing...LOL..sebabnya, aku beli semua yang kana display ani bah, i mean..urg selalunya beli photo sama calendar kah, or sama postcards kah, or sama key chain kah...tapi aku?? aku beli semua...LOL...malu ku ih, mcm kana ketawakan, adui mak...antamz saja cia..asal aku bahagia bah~ :P tapi ku bawa baibun deh plg masa aku malu2 atu, heuhuehe...aku katakan arah urg yang aku sama da koala yg aku paluk atu make a cute couple...ketawa durang~ LOL..nah...antamz saja cia..:X

Hmmm...not much...atu saja lahh...LOL...tapi aku abis usin membeli2 di sana atu...just stuffs for memories...LOL...emmm...:x

Oh yesh..sebelum ku menutup cerita and post some pix...aku kana lecture wah di malam, ulih my senior a.k.a cigu di kolej pasal mencari jodoh ani...LOL...bari malu jua lahh...bagi geli hati jua~ ada kah patut, kana suruh mencari jodoh aku ani??? bwohhh...mcmana kan tuu?? apa lerr...from my housemates ke my cigu from kolej...semua ani wahh~ mcmana kan tuu ihh?? hedek ku ih...LOL...adeh dehh, payah jua...awoo~ awoo~ ada ku kawin tu nanti...LOL..tapi nda ku tau sapa urg yang malang atu~ LOL...kesian tah ia terpaksa kawin sama aku tuu...:X...okies ihhh...some pix to share~

P/S: Ooops, pix nda dpt di load...antah kenapa..ada angin nya lagi ani..sasak ku eyh...mana saja tah~

Signing off~

ZC

Yay..happy me happy you!

Assalamualaikum people~

Ooooh..great life! heuuehueh..kenapa kan? apa jadi kan? mengapa kan? hehe...not much..tapi kan..aku happy berabis sebab aku sudah liat Final Fantasy Advent Children and the Last Order!!! YAY~ *lompat2 luan excited mcm ambuk* kwang3x...ooops..hehe~ aiyoo...happy hantap aku ahh...nasib jua ada Limewire...oooh Limewire, ko lahh hero ku...heuhuheheu..mcm banar aku ahh..

Tapi kan..nda jua ku puas hati lahh..i mean, selagi aku nda membeli DVD nya, selagi atu aku nda puas ati banar..antah kenapa...maybe my fanatic side says "Gotta catch em all"...LOL..heuheue..and also, ada something pasal storyline nya buat aku rasa, emm, this is not right...bangang ku...heuheuhee..iyaaa, itu dia aku kan kritik ni..lol...

Tapi what I love best is....the battle sequences!! Atuuuuuu lawa ia punya battles~ ke jiwa ku...LOL...especially Sephiroth lawan Cloud dalenk ku sayang..heuheuhe..:x tapi aku paling suka battles yang ramai2 ahh, berlawan sama Bahamut yang super cool and paling ku minat antara semua GF or beings yang kana summon!! Love Bahamut~..wahhhhhh, dalenk ku Vincent Valentine dengan gaya coolnya..adui mak, ke jiwa banar..heuheu...hensem2...Red 13 jua best!! doggie dog ku..LOL...

The funny things dalam da ceta also ada...heuheuh..c Reno and c Rude ahh...aiyoo, durang atu, cute!! kawaiii ne!!! suka ku liat durang..kira penghibur dalam ceta atu lahh..hahahaa~ Reno tah terutamanyaa...aihh Reno, hensem ko ahh tapi...heuheuhuehue...cinta ku hanya pada Cloud Strife...heuheuhe! :P Sephiroth pun cool jua..best ia atu jadi evil person in da ceta...heuheuhe...Kadaj, Yazoo and Loz, emm, time battles, memang cun ahh sequences nya..best~~~ :P

Yang buat aku nangis mcm c paloi, time masa last nya ahh..uwuwuwuwuw...Aeris yang lawa, yang best..isk isk isk, liat expression mua Cloud lagi masa ia liat Aeris..adui makk, sedih ihh...sayang ihh Aeris awal mati..isk isk iskk, dua kali ku liat, dua kali jua ku nangis masa ending nya atu...atu banar aku ahh, menghayati!!! heueuheuhe...calie jua...tapi iskk, kenapa ko pergi Aeris-chan yang lawa yang cute yang hantap baik nya ahh..adui mak...Tifa lawa jua, cool ihh ia atu...ganya, ndada ceta lovey dovey kah ia sama Cloud???? isk isk iskk...ending pun nda clear sangat...of course lah durang happily ever after tah kononnya...but, mcmana Cloud??? kawin kah ia? mcmana Tifa? mcmana Rufus?? adui makk..terlalu byk persoalan...tapi yg ku tau Red13 ganya ahh idup atuu batah...sampai ada anak kah, cucu kah tuu..LOL...:x

Tapi what's make me feel so much sampai menghayati ani...perasaan bersalah Cloud...not being able to save anyone katanya....tapi in the end, ia sedar yang ada people who support ia...and that is what is so important..isk isk iskk...aku pun terfikir jua, aku pun ada rasa bersalah...tapi bukan not being able to save anyone kah apa..tapi not being able to please everyone...atu tah ia...isk isk iskk...seksa nyamo...alangkah bagusnya kalau i can please everyone, can make them smile with my prsence, can make them happy with me alongside their lives...waduhhh..ganya, it's truly impossible...aiyooo...feel so bad now..:x

Anyway, atu saja tah...signing off...muahzz..

ZC - Jadi pemilih dalam hidup, tapi utk kebaikan sendiri...LOL

Kisho-Sama..hait! Japanese obsession~lol

Assalamualaikum peeps~

Huhuheuheuheu....aiyoo~ batah nda update my bloggy ani~ mana kan jua aku ahh...malas jua, buring jua, sibuk jua..heheuhue..mcm2 ada nyamo~ lol....lagipun too much things in my mind masa ani...aiyooo~~ I'm having muddled, mixed, rojak thoughts, hueheuhue...

Oooooo...kemarin, feeling sanak plus hedek plus bloated...lol...antah ih kenapa...kan muntah2 lagi rasanya, maybe kan menses kali kot??? hueheuhueuheuhe....makan panadol sebiji, tapi nda jua mengasi banar...heuheu, terpaksa ku tidur awal jadinya~heeuhuehheuhe...nda cia aku melakukan kegiatan malam seperti biasa, which is : chatting and online~ lol...abis2...

Ohh yesh, masa ani lain keraja ku ahh...chatting in MiRc plg ku..huehuehheu...aktif nyamo mlm2 timbul di sana, especially in cenel maktabduli~ heuheuheu...aku jadi tukang nyanyah sana, kes buang buring plus buang tabiat...and meeting a few new, erks, some of the people in the MiRC...heuehue...tapi thanks to Ms^Pot a.k.a Potty kamvang latenks hantap~:P emm..and under the nick of ^KiShO-SaMa^...:P

Apa meaning ^KiShO-SaMa^ ??? Huheuhueh...emmm...not sure lah aku ani..but I think "one who knows himself"...heuhuehhe...nama laki2 nyamo...sesuka hati ku memakai nama ahh...saja~ mula2 nya memakai nama HeRoInAdDiCt which is the nick yang aku selalu pakai since this year..heuheh...and then, aku tukar makai nama "^KuRoSaMa^, tapi kan nada meaning walaupun cute bunyinya..heuhheuheuheuhe...kamvang banar aku ani~

Okies...lovelife news??? Nada apa2...hehe...nothing's changing...only one in my mind..huehuehuheuhe...sapa nah????? ada lahhh~ walaupun ia nda anggap aku potential GF in future, tapi heuhehe..aku sedia menjadi GF nya...kwang 3x...adui mak, kesian ku ih! Apa jua ku bulih buat...cian2...berusaha saja...erkss, tapi dalam bab ani, nda ku mampu berusaha...udah tah kami atu kawan baik, if i do tell him i like him, things will never be the same again...isk isk isk, atu yang aku nda mo tu nah~ from kawan baik jadi musuh kah, jadi strangers kah apa kah...aduii makk...silap2 haribulan, ia nda mo ada contact wif me again...lagi sengsara~ I'm being negative, ohhh hantap sasak ku nih....well, let it be like that...sesiapa ada nasihat, bagitau tah aku~ heuheuhuhe...

I'm done now!! Arigatou gozaimasu minna!!! lol...perasan japanese aku ahh..heuheueue...bye2

Signing off~

ZC - ^KiShO-SaMa^ = one who knows himself/herself...i have a place in life to be something of worth~

I'm missing somebody ~

Assalamualaikum y'all~

Been quite some time since I last updated my bloggy nih~....hahhahaha...sibuk dgn keraja and stuffs...assignments lagi memanjang..hahah...without realizing, kan bulan 10 udah..kan puasa~ wakaaka...and also..emm, kan birthday ku tuh~ cewaahhh...heheh...mikin tuha tah aku nih~ 22 years old..hahha...lawa da number, i like it~ udah patutnya mature and mikin cool~ hahahahahah! *LOL* dapat kawin udah tue!! tapi nadai calon nyamo!

Owh..hopefully will be back to Brunei nih..in bulan 11 sebab nya baru tadi ku terliat da jadual of da exams...wakakka..kira2nya dalam pertengahan bulan 11 lah aku balik Brunei..hehe..yakin ahh aku ahh~ astene...mudahan jua lah~sampat jua beraya tue arah rumah2 kawan2 tuh~ hehehe...cewahhh!!

*sigh*....aku bangang nih...antah kenapa...somehow...hahaha..memang calie nih...emmm...aku macam missing somebody!!! *LOL* heheh...erkk...antah ih...sapa??? kamu mo tau siapa?? heheh...aduii mak, gerenti kamu ketawa nih...wakakakkaak..yakin ku ah~ nda ia online for a few days and aku sudah macam buring berabis...macam ilang something...isk isk iskk...rindu ke??? wakakakkaka..adui mak...abis2...astene...rindu kat seseorang yang nda ku sangka bulih rindu ani wahh~ macamana kan tue?? hahahahha....palui ihh~ astene....wapeh ih~ webek kebek lebek tebek bebek~ hahahahaahahaha..astene!!

oooh yesh...atu saja dulu ih..wakakakaka...ohhh aku gumbira nih jua...da faveret da muchie TV series ku..."HOUSE" kana calonkan in the Emmy Awards!!! Yay..oohh, bahagia nya aku..minat ku ihhh ceta ahh....obsessed ku ih!! Wakakakakaka...Hugh Laurie, u r da best!!!! Wuv his character as Gregory House tuh!!! Fanatik ihh akue ahh, bulih~~~~ hehehhe!!! Emm..masa ani in USA, udah season 2!!! Matik..isk isk iskk...adui makk!!!! Nda ku dapat miss rasanya ceta ahh~ wakakaka...ke jiwa tuh..huhuhuh..:P

Okies..I'm done here~ Next time lagi..isk isk isk..nyaman jua rasanya meluahkan diri ahh...wakakakka...astene...hehehehe~~~ani tah siuknya berbloggy...wakakakaka!!

Signing off ~~

ZC - I miss u..but then...why do i cannot accept or love u for my own??

Zemo ke jiwa day~ hahaha!!

Assalamualaikum peeps...

Wahahaha...hari ani luan bahagia ku nih...cewaahh...pada yang inda tahu, aku masih clinical di Community Mental Health and this will be the last week!! Yay! Tapi sedih jua ihh...ahakz, gonna miss dat place and my Buddy nurse ahh, Peter!!! :P

Owh, owh..gonna share2 with u all...hari ani aku bahagia...kwang 3x..berapa kali aku balik2 taip ahh?? hehe..kes bahagia sangat nyamo...okies...one thing is, ada student yang undertaking his placement arah tempat yang sama dengan aku tapi not nursing plg...ia ani placement for social worker lahh..wakakaka...bahagia ihh...emm emm...first time ku jumpa ia time meeting for case reviews bah...kwang 3x...di dapan mata nyamo...pikirku doktor sebab usul nya ahh..ahakz...tapi panya student social worker bah..emm kan kata hensem, nda jua lahh...good looking and yang paling ku suka time ia senyum!!! Waaaahh, berputar dunia ku dengan mcm2 kaler! Ahakz...apa lerr...anyway...ke jiwa lah first time ia senyum arah aku...waduhhhh~ ahakz...

Okies, namanya?? Panggil ja c Chad ihh...wakaka...omputih nih...hehe...emm emm...iatah kan, aku ani pikir payah kan jumpa ia atu bah...cos kami lain2 buddy nurse bah..iatahkan...ngam2 hari ani bah, ada meeting for smoke check which is basically mcm education process for case managers to educate clients nya supaya nda bersigup..heheh...and guess what? panya c Chad ani ada!! Waahhh..melayang jiwa ku...hehe! and so...aku ani duduk di siring lah..jauh..hehe, and my buddy nurse c Peter duduk dakat meja...ndada kerusi dakatnya, and so aku duduk lahh sorang2 di ujung2...hehe...emm..and then!! Alamak~ c Chad ani duduk di sebelah kuu...aaahhhhhhhh~ owhh my goodness!! dengan senyumannya yang sweeeeeeeeeeeet!! aduiiii makk..tolong anak mu ani..hehe..

Iatah, emm...ia tagur aku and aku pun cakap sikit2 ja lah...mcm mimpi ihh ia duduk sebelah ku..kwang 3x, then kami ani meliat orang menghidangkan toasted bread bah di meja...kami ani duduk jauh lahh and so, aku time atu lagi lapar, ahakzz...eksen ja lahh menapuk lapar ku aahh...tapi kann...iatah, aduiii makk...c Chad ani tanya aku, mau makan toasted bread atu kah?? aku cakap nda lahh, no thanx and how about u? nda mau kah? kalau nda aku ambilkan, katanya nda sebab ia kanyang masih...ahakz...fusyoo...and then nda sampai lima minit ia tanya lagi, sure nda mau da toasted bread? kata ku, no, nda payah tah...ahakz...and then..ia pujuk aku makan!! Waduhhhh!!! and terpaksa aku angguk dengan ayunya...kwang 3x...hahahahah!!! iatah ia ambilkan, waduhhh!!! malu nyerr beta...adeh makkk...and then ia ambilkan tisu lagi!! Waahhhhh, ke jiwa ihh...astene!! menahan diri ja bah aku dari berlari keluar sebab dalam hati, ada rasa kan explode bah...fusyoo, excited kali ahh...wakakaka!! fuhh fuhh....malunyer...kwang 3x....

sepanjang smoke check atu, nda ku berapa perhatian bah...ahakz, selahau banar ihh..c Chad ani lagi malar toleh2 time aku ketawa...(ketawa time ada orang buat jokes dalam meeting ahhh~) waduhh, kontrol ayu cia aku aahh...bulih!!!!!!! and so...lepas atu, abis ler..ahakzz..main mata gitu cakap see ya laterzzz!! kononnya nda jumpa lagi lahh tuhhh..kwang 3x...tapi apa nah??? jumpa cia lagi!!! AHHHHHH~ ke jiwa lagi ku ihh...kali ani duduk sama2 di meja tapi with my buddy nurse jua lahh di sana...durang bercakap and aku gerenti mesti ada di sana cos buddy nurse ku ada di sana..heheh!! :P kali ani, waaahh...ke jiwa ihhh...sambil ia cakap2, ia liat2 aku with senyumannya...kwang 3x...buleh gila jadinya!! :D

Ku sangka ahirnya di sana saja...kwang 3x...heheh..panya jumpa lagi!!! aaaahhh...kenapa?????!!! tapi kali ani berdua gitu...heheh!! my buddy nurse sibuk doing something with his client's chart and aku di dapur lerr...and panya ada c Chad ani...kwang 3x....kami cakap2 gitu and then ia offered aku coffee!! Ahakz...aku cakap no thanx ihh..and katanya sure?? aku cakap sure...eksen ku lagi bagitau aku kan lunch jua...ahakzz!!! waduhh...ke jiwa ihhh laki2 nya ani...lalalalalalala...english ku pun nda bertantu jua olehnya...astaga!! Selahau rasanya aku ani ihh...ke jiwa banar...tapi sayangnya, tinggal dua hari lagi ganya ni sebelum ku abis clinical...waduhhh!!! akan ku kenang dirimu Chad...kwang 3x...bwohh!!!

Anyway...atuu saja lahh...ahakzz, emmm....nda banyak bah kan ku share time clinical atuu...ahakz...sebab mostlynya ke rumah orang and bagi depot..heheh...and banyaknya meliat system administration and management...:P complicated things...:D

Okies...done here!! Atu saja...

ZC - Baru rasanya kan terminat omputih...ahakzz!! apa ler...kan jadi orang Aussie??? hehe...

Zemo..just updating..:P

Assalamualaikum y'all...:D

Okies, just wanna make this brief and sweet...wakakak..kes malas kan menaip banyak2 bah nii...nda kamu kesian kan aku kahh?? ahakz...anyway, here's da summary of what i've been doing in the weekdays this week...kwang 3x...:P

Hmm, kena placed in Community Mental Health and aku ada Buddy nurse named Peter! Ahakz..laki2 nyamo..nasib nda hensem, nasib jua nda muda..kalau nda, aduii, ke jiwa tah tuu..ahakzz!! He's incredibly nice...kadang2 ia bangang kan cakap sama aku sebab aku pendiam and luan ayu ani...wakakakaa..nda banyak cakap bah...iatah...susah sama aku ani!:P Anyway, first day sudah aku kena bawa home visit a.k.a ke rumah org mental...wakakakka...banyak orang mental yg ku jumpa ani, some i would say freaked me outzz..and some would be just nice and sweet enough..ahakz..bwoh..tertaip dlm bahasa english nih...wakakaka...emmm...rupanya banyak boarding houses a.k.a hostels untuk org mental, and most freakingly strange, banyak dakat2 tempat aku tinggal masa ani whcih is in Lutwyche....wakaka..bwohh!! as my buddy nurse would say "a lot of mad people live near you!"....wakakaka...adui makk...

done my first IM injection arah bum...wakakakakak..tapi kajar2 jua lahh dikit...ijap nyamo, first time lahh katakan...sampai my buddy nurse tepuk2 my shoulder and kata "you did well, ummi"..wakakaka..kambang ku plg jadinyaa...isk isk iskk...and ada time jumpa client yang schizoaffective where client ani bukan main laju bercakap sampai nampak ia ampus ahh..nda lagi mau berhenti cakap tuu..aku plg ijap...ish ish ish..and ada client yang delusional banget sampai kata ada polis kan tangkap ia tapi nda banar bah...adui makk...and ada patient lagi delusional sampai ia kata nenek nya bagi ia wasiat yang ia dapat all the banks, all the companies in the world...waduhh..rasa kan ketawa tapi kesian jua...sebab bagi durang, apa yg durang cakap atu banar...kitani nda dapat suruh ia kata nda banar...:P

time di community mental health ani...aku rasa macam aku sendiri dah keraja sana sebab the whole team atu baikkkkk sangat...time meeting, aku kan bawa jua walaupun aku nda tau apa yang kan durang cakapkan...time case reviews, duduk sama doktor2...waaahh...rasa bisai bahhh...unbelieveable...:P different kalau di brunei...i am proud to say that i have been given such a chance to be here in Australia...syukur alhamdulilah sudah bagiku...luas pandangan gitu (termasuk jua melihat para doktor2 yang hensem banget...aaahh, ke jiwa!!)

Anyway..atu saja kali..summary jua ganya aaahh...wakakakak..sebab malas niii...adui makk..mesti ku rajinkan diri nih..hehehee....

And oh, masih kelahi sama Wayne bangang nak mampus atu...aku sama Zul dah cleared up just being friends...masih alum jumpa Zaim lagi since gath...Harris and aku ndada contact...a couple of Mirc chatters yang ku kenal still in stage berkenalan...wakakaka..and aku masih alum ada gambar terbaru masa ani untuk di sharekan...sebab aku malassss...ahakzz!! Birthday lagi nda lama...adui mak, 22 tahun cia umurku yang cool ani..ahakzz...golden number tuh...:P


ZC - Menanti saat bahagia menjelang tiba...kwang 3x...ahakzz..as in balik ke brunei!! (kamu pikir apa?)

Zemo's wacky observation~ lalala

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh~

Owh ceh...ahakz, nada yang important kan di buat in da bloggy tapi..emm, yesterday aku ada Med-Surg midtest bah, waaahhhh! sanang?? payah?? bagi ku 50-50 ja konfiden ku ahh...aduii makk!! aku ani nda jua study banar2 for da midtest, aduii, kedapatan cia!! bwoh...lalalala~ Lalai bah aku dengan MiRc ahh...aduii makk! Nya Potty, kan belurih laki2..ahakz!! Kasar tu Pot! :P emm...emm...sekalinya aku masuk da cenel brunei bah, waduh, menimbunz da guys approach..adui mak, kan nda layan, nda ku sampai hati...kan layan, aku jua yg paning melayan..wakakka! apa2pun, ku layan jua..toink! Terlampau baik bah hati ani..toink...maybe kan mengubati hati yang lara ani~ wuwuwuwuw...

Hmm, c Kubamz ada boyfie dah...ahakz, kempunan c Zul....hahaha, adeh mak, tapi aku yang jadi mangsa ani wah! Alamak....aduii makk...abis kena hujani dengan ayat2 cintan yang power!! Wakakak..tapi nda pulang aku teraffected tuu...kabal my jiwa...lalalala~ aku pun buat nda tau, sasak ia tarus!! Wakakak...aduii, biar cia ehh...apa lerr...selahau itu budak...ia show off lagi kelemahan ku..apa nah?? KUCING!!! Lawa kucingnya....geram ati ku...kan ku bibit bah...ahakzz! Bwohh...lalalala! bukan bibit orangnya, bibit da kucing...wakakakaka!! :P

emm, emm...adui makk...apasal lah laki2 nya ani...mudah sangat cakap sayang, cakap I love u, and ntah apa ke benda lagi yang sewaktu dengannya?? baru jua kenal sedikit, mula tah bersayang2 ani...aiseh, alum lagi meliat ulah...hahaha! Iatah yang ku nda berapa tuh...payahnyer nak trust...ayat bukan main manis, bunga2...hahaha...susahnyer...iatah buat aku ani rasa malas kan kenalan sama laki2...wakakaka! emmm...tapi ada baiknya jua, sebab ada laki2 yang buleh di buat kawan..hahahaa! Dapat ku nyaya jua...:P and dapat ku menyelami apa rasanya jadi lelaki ani..wakakakak! astene~ i mean...kenal2 bah...nda salah kenalan kan? tapi mesti hati2 jua...hopefully nda pa2...:P

lalalalala...emmm...aku rasa aku ani ada fear of commitment...emm...ku pikir2 bah ni...bwoh..payah ni...wakaka, kadang kala aku rasa macam jadi runaway bride...macam2 di utakku yang creative ani...lalalala! emmm...kan start a relationship atu, macam bagi aku takut ja...ijap ku...ntah eh kenapa aku ani...lalalalaa...suka org mau, tapikan mulakan payah rasanya...toink...conservative lady ku ani ehh...lalalaa...nda modern ehh...maybe aku takut kena lukai, cewahh...erk, tapi seriously lahh, banar tuu...susahnyer...aku ani nda berani ambil risks, iatah payah nihh...nda berani challenge myself bah...aiyoo, nya kak Mila...aku lack of assertiveness and confidence...awoo, memang banar tuu...nda ku tau kenapa...:(

Kalau ku confident nanti, wakakaka...best tu eh...macam2 ku buleh buat...iatah ni mesti build my confidence...tapi mcmana ahh? nda ku tau nih...bwoh!! emmm..owh yesh, aku tengah motivated nih kan kuruskan badan...wakaka..adui mak, build self image and self confidence...hehee! Insyaallah kalau dapat, turunkan berat atu lima kilo ja kah, puas jua hati ku...hehe! Gym membership~ next month...hahahhahahah! nda ku kira jua...mao masuk membership! biar ku exercise berabis...krg balik brunei, biar cuzin2 ku sasak!! wakakaka...cehh, disebabkan aku nda pandai bergaya and gamuk, durang sanang2 ucap aku macam2 ahh...sasak ku tuh...:$ tengok nanti nih...wakakaka! biarrrr~

Hmm...esok clinical wahh!! Community Mental Health~ lalalala...adui mak, di Valley lagi tuu...hehe..adeh, tawakkal saja eh..niat ku di sana cuma kan ambil experience and clinical...emm emmm...insyaallah nda pa2 tuu...doa kan keselamatan ku peeps!! dua minggu lagi tu..hehe..adehh....lepas atu aku cuti 2 minggu plus one study week! yesh...hopefully ku dpt berjalan2..hahahahaha!! :P nda plg merunggau...hahahaa! emm emm...bad joke ehh..ehekz!

Hmm...atu ja kali...aku ndada idea nih..sesaja ku mengupdate bah...:P..buring kuu..lalalalaa...emm emm...buh-bye!



ZC - Buring nih...hidup tak seindah impian...:P

Zemo's feeling hurt again...

Assalamualaikum all...aiyoo..not feeling good...not feeling nice time buat da bloggy...eeeeeeeeeeeee.....sasakku ehh!! i hate myself nahh....hate myself hari ani...sasakku!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hate it...i hate certain guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nda ku kira ni....hate them!!!! Kan nangis ku nii...jahanam banar!! Why is life so cruel? Why am I so stupid....:(

Why? Kenapa? Ceh...kali ani pasal Wayne...jahanam c wayne atuu....lainkali nda ku mo layan ia lagii...tau nya ia marah aku saja...nda pandai kan faham what i wanna say...:( sasakku ehhh...sasak!!!!! sikit2 menyamal...menyasakkkk!! go to hell!!!~ wuwuwu...marah ku niiii...wayne paloi!!! wayne menyasakkan my heart!!! I hate u!! and u and u....and u!!!! I mean c wayne ani...wuwuwu...benci ku ehh...meluahkan ku nii...guys ara such suckers!!! uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.............

sebab satu hal...ia marah...ia pissed off...sial...wuwuuww...aku sasak dah rasanya ni...benci ku ehh...lainkali..nda ku mo kenalan sama laki2 yg muda ani...menyasakkan...luan immature...luan bagi marah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! baik kali nda ku kenalan sama any more guys...menyusahkan...mengambil kesempatan saja!!! I hate uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!! bwoh...marah ku banar2 nii...munung ku udah nii...nangis ja alum...

kerana satu gambar...kerana satuuuuuuuuuuu gambar...kami kelahi lagi..isk iskk...nasib ia ani bukan BF ku apa...tapi lukanya masih terasa....arghh..antamz ko!! peduli lahh...aku kecewa nii...laki2 memang mengecewakan aku kali ani....:(

Anyway, adios...aku sasak...aku malas kan layan laki2 lagii...biar...baik ku jadi lesbo kali bagus!!! Wakakaka! sasakku ehh....:(

ZC - Nda mo jadi lesbo ehh...still straight lady...:P

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh~ Hellew all!! Hahahaha...astene...full gitu salam gue, bisa2 ajaaa deh!! Wakaakaka...astene!! Emmm, apa aku nak ceta arah sini ahhh?? Wakakakaka, sebab am so clueless nih...banyak banarnya kan di cetakan bah, but nda tau start dari mana...wakakaka! emmm...

Owhh...yeah, yeah, um...masa di Ekka!! Fun fun eh..hahaha! although aku sama Feeda ja...tapi Ekka is fun!!! Tempatnya rupanyaaaa basar~ hedek kami dua meround da place...heheh!! And a lots of barang2 nyamo, tapi not free!! Tapi ada barang2 nya atu, from AUD$100 something jadi AUD$10 jaaa~ macam nda caya nyamo!!!But...nda menyesal, i tell u, kalau ke sana....hahaha! ganya just setahun sekali ani bah...buring...and masa kami ke sana was da last day bah...sayang!!! Paling calie masa kami liat2 kambing2 ahh...wakakaka! siuk ku ketawa melabangz bah meliat c Feeda ketakutan...astenee!! Omputih pun malar meliat kami ketawa2 ani...wakakaak!! Aahhh~ biar..asalkan aku happy! asteneeee...emm, emm...and paling ku hairankan...kambing ani first time ku megang bah, bulu nyaaa bah...macam karpet ani wahhh!!! Wakaka..rasanya buleh kan di limpang2 or di peluk2 bah da kambing...wakakak, tapi nda ku mo ehh, bau kambingz melanda!! ahakzz...astenee...and also, satu lagi yang bagi calie, masa kami naik one ride 'Haunted Mansion'...ku fikir bagi takut sangat, terais2 juaaa olehnyaa...wakaka...sebab aku ingat yang Scooby Doo masa di Gold Coast...panya, kena takuti jaa oleh orang bah...astene, c Feeda tutup mata da entire time masa ride ahh...gelihatiku juaa...astene!! Tapi siuk lahh..wakakaka! Siukkkkk siukkk...ganya aku nda berani naik yang extreme2 ani...hahaha! :P


Emmm...apa lagi kan ku cetakan ahh...emmm....nda ke BSS idol masa ari atu..adehh, kerana assignment melanda ku..wakkaa..last minute lahh katakan...aduhh makk..tapi siap jua lah, ganya ku antamz2 saja bah nyamo!! Biar ehh...nda ku mo fikir lagi tu assignment..hahaha! sayang ehhhh sayang...aduhh makk..wakakaka! emm emmm...heheh...owh yeah...ku rasa minatku masa ani melanda arah c zaim!! Wakakaka..nah, confession terbaru ku...ntah kenapa...namanya datang minat bahh~ gila bayang ehh~ apa lerr...and c zul pulak satu hal...ia ani macam jelesh semacam ja...wakaaaakaakakaka..asteneee~ malar di sabut2...and paling yang buat aku suspect ia jelesh time ia marah aku show gambar aku dengan zaim...ahakzz..astenee...and also ia korek nama c zaim from Kubamz ani bahh..aduhhh!! apa lerr...aduhai lelaki ani...apaaaa lerr~ hedek2...


Emm...news flash!! ada bunyi2 kami ani kan kena suruh sambung study!! Wakakak..adehhh, iatah kan, emm, aku happy plang tuu kalau sambung sini ja...kira ambil degree ahh..ahakzz..astene..emm, tapi nda tau lah dapat...hopefully dapat...feel so glad eh kalau dapat...and dapat jua ku jumpa zaim ja!!! wakakak...amboi, gatalnyerrr...hehe! :P nda lahh...i mean, dapat jua ku still with my HongKong friends...heheh..astenee...and mana tau ada peluang nguratz omputih!! Wakaka..astene, apaa lahh angan2 ku ani...antamz!! and dapat ku explore Brisbane...wakaka, sanang jua kalau my family ke sini, aku tukang tour guide...lalalala!

Emmm..bwoh..i think ani saja ehh...nda ku tau kan buat lain lagi....wakakakak...clueless amigos gonzales...wakakak..astenee...aduhaiiii dunia...lihatlah aku yang berdiri di permukaanmu..mengharap satu kasih bertandang di hati, mengharap dua jiwa bersatu nanti...cewahh..ayat jiwangzz tuhh..wakaka...


ZC - Percaya...jika cinta itu akan tiba~

Zemo's emergency update!!!

EKKA 2005 <----Pixies 20/8/2005

Weh, aku post saja gambar2 dulu yaaa...ahakzz..aku sedang gagas nihh...emm..emm..tapi ani some of my pix time arah Ekka (funfair lahh macam atuu usulnyaa...) Emergency nih...mao chow dulu!! MUahzz!!

Time queue for Ekka...hahaha! sempat lagi posing yo!! Aku suka liat aku dalam gambar ani...macam~ LAWA!!!

First time touching a kambing yang selalu di sebut2...wakakkaak! KAMBING!!!*obsessed bunyinya*

Attack of da kambingzz! Bau kambing ku ari atuu...wakakaka!!

Gambar sama kambing..yang pentingnya aku banyak posing sama kambing!! Wakakaka!

Ahh..ani gambar sama lembu tiruan...wakakakak..ada cap tapak kucing tuu arah badannya! :P

Anyway...tunggu kan sambungan nya...ahakzz..bilaaa??? adaa lahhh...ada tuh ku update tuu..ahakz...gotta go!! buh-bye!!

ZC - In a HURRY!! Ahakzz...sabar yaaa...lalalala!

Zemo's naughty day..hoho..flirty!

Assalamualaikum you all! Love you all very muchie..haha! batah dah nda makai the word 'muchie' yang di ilhamkan oleh dang Potty...:P hahaha..anyway, batah jua aku nda update bloggy ku ani...cos malas jua, cos aku ngalih jua, cos aku busy jua...hahah! macam2 lahh...tapi mostly aku nada cerita lah..hehe..mana happening kan update bloggy pasal hidup aku yang constant ja usulnya ani..hehe!

Anyway, kemarin a.k.a hari Sabtu bersamaan 13 Ogos 2005...wakakaka, aku pi gathering arah University of Queensland, pasal Bruneian High Commissioner yang baru in Australia datang ke Brisbane..so kira kan kami ani kan datang meliat ia ani..heheh...and supaya kehadiran kami di Brisbane ani diketahui...wakaka..apakanz aku ahh...and erk, makai baju kurung and tudung lagi tuu..ayu lahh kami sorang2 ni..hahaha! ehem...

Gambar aku di dalam kereta otw ke UQ

Gambar aku, Feeda and Reena on the back seat of keta sewa

Tapi kami ahir ani bah ke sana...wakakakak! malu jua lahh ahir atuu...janji melayu banar...exposed banar kami ahh...aduhai!!! and because kami late jua adalah seperti biasa, kerana sesat! hahaha...namanya alum pernah ke UQ ani..wakakaka! sakai lagi aku tuu...basar da uni tau...lawa lagi...anyway, sampai sana, kami sempat liat slideshow saja...wakakaka! siuk lahhh slideshow nya atuu..calie!! i give credit to the person who did the slideshow...lawa and calie...and then kami ada photo session...walalalalalaa...abis ehh, exposed muha ku yang ayu ani...oops!! sambil2 menunggu kena gambar atu, aku ada gambar2 sikit sama anak pengarah of nursing...wakakaka! and then Hi-Tea...nyaman kek2 nyaa...nyum!! Gambar aku dengan CT..Jay Gurl!!

And then..huhuh...aku jumpa Zaim!! Erk, siapa c Zaim ani??? well, ia ani kawan c Kubamz and aku pernah jumpa ia and pernah kena belanja oleh ia time c Kubamz birthday!! Bukan calang2 belanja, belanja atu di Empire!! Di Spagethinni (ngam kah nda spellingnya ahh...antamzzz)!! Mahal hantap makanan yang ku makan atu...wakakaka! anyway, ia ani bakal doktor...bwoh, bakal berkeraja sama2 niii...hehe! kami ceta2 sekajap saja lahh...huhu, dalam ceta2 dengan gaya ku yang melabangz sampai org teliat2 ani...aku ampas2 ia...geram ati ku...whoops, bukan ampas2 tanda apa2...aku ani kuat mengampas jua...lalalala! anyway, ia ani one of the AJKs lah yang organize the gath..lalala! sempat ku bergambar berdua sama ia...wakakak...ada jua lahh mata yang meliriks arah kami..oops, tapi aku sama ia nada apa2 lahh...kawan ehh....wakakak, walaupun ia tanya aku, sudah kawin kah alum..kureng asam!!

Gambar aku with Zaim...wakakak!

Hehehe...anyway, lepas atu kami sesi bersalam sama High Commissioner ani..heheh! small figure of a woman rendah dari aku..tapi baik lah usulnya...datin kali ahh!!! wakakaka...anyway, abis atu kami pun balik lahhh...ngalih jua tau!! wakakak...tapi siuk jua....banyak panya orang Brunei di Brisbane ani..aku kena bagitau, Bruneian students paling banyak di Brisbane ani lahh...oooowh, panyaa...wakakakakk!

Anyway..emmm..nanti ada event lagi...BSS Idol...wakakka..Bruneian Student Society Idol..bwoh, menyanyi bah..kira AF untuk students sini...wkakak! iatah kan ku liat ni nanti...hopefully dapat ku ke sana...ngam2 esoknya atu kan antar assignments lagi...aduiii!! matikkk...wakaka...

Signing off...

P/S : Kubamz..jangan ko kan jodohkan aku sama c Zaim ah..and also not Kencana..wakak! and Effa, nda buleh kah aku bergambar berdua sama laki2 ani?? Kenapa? Mengapa? cewahh...

ZC - Tengah siuk practice menyanyi untuk BSS Idol...wakaka, mcm banar...ehem!