All time fav songs I'll always enjoy..:)

Coco Lee's Before I Fall in Love. I truly love this song. And it has such a strong sentimental value for me. Terkenang time baru kan kenal cinta. LOL. Of course, this song is totally the right one to ask someone before you start a really serious relationship a.k.a before you fall in love or before you start to have an undying love (translated as "Cinta Mati") Haha.



Christian Bautista's The Way You Look at Me. Fuh~ I love this one too. Another song that selalu ku dangar time cinta-cinta. LOL. Apakanz. This song is very special to me pasal ada cerita sebaliknya. Hahah. It means a lot for me though. It gives me strength jua whenever I feel I'm in doubt. Though nowadays this song will often make me sedih. Huhu.



Samson's Kenangan Terindah. Haha. Lau kamu kenal aku, mesti kamu tau kenapa I love this song very much. I love this song muchie-muchie and because of it, I started to love Samsons. This will always be my favourite song ever. Nda ku pandai langu dengar. And of course, at certain times, will eventually make me cry and smile all at the same time. Too much stories for such one short song. And don't ask me to sing this song for you cos I get emotional once I hear or sing this song. You don't want to see me cry, eh? :) And yesh, pemes banar lagu ani sampai Christian Bautista even sang it!! Huhu..calie plg. Try searching rah YouTube to hear him sing this song. BTW, I love Bams!! Rugged yaaa~ hahhauhuaha..:P

Okay..enough for this time. Hehehe. Ngantuk ku udah. Sakit kepala eh. Ahir panya dah. LOL *nda g kan sadar kul brapa udah* Anyway, happy Friday~ I schleep daulu...:P

Lurve,

Kisho229

*kenangan terindah of us forever etched in my heart*

One of these days...i get damn bored~

*yawns*

*droopy eyes*

*bored*

Okayyy..I am bored. So let's just say I have a bit of motivation to blog and I will use it now. Huhu. 'Cause I am damn bored, it's friggin' making me a bit wacko and I start to think of "i-shouldn't-think-about-issues"..hoho.

I was browsing through Youtube like a free spirit (which I am not..I need to finish my *ehem* works..*rolled eyes*) when I stumbled across some clips of Korean male actors...huhuh. Gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I like. LOL. So I 'cuci mata' browsing through their gorgeous errr, *ehem, cough* browsing through the clips of them in it. Huhuh. Metrosexually sexy, meowrrr~ How amazing it is really to know that they're much older than their looks are. Huhu. Apa rahsia durang ah? Awet muda nyeee~LOL...And uh, their *cough* heart melting smiles just erm, makes me melt and I started to sound like a 'fan girl'...LOL. You know, the 'You-are-gorgeous-I-wanna-marry-you-*insert actor's name*" attitude. Hahaha. I can't blame people for being 'obsessive'. If I was born a man, and I just looked at the hunks like those below, I swear I will want to turn GAY! Haha. Hebat kan? Anyhow, I'm thankful that I am a girl *cough* maybe a lady *cough, cough* okay..make it a woman.

And oh, really...I would looooooooooooooooooooooooooove to have a boyfriend with such a sweet, honest, cute smile. Metrosexually attractive and to top it off, with a nice personality. Enough to say, a nice guy who knows how to treat a girl right. And someone loyal. And a guy who doesn't have 'over-feminine' issues. Bukan pondan ahh or gay. There's just some guys who can be overly feminine at certain times or things. Banar...we girls tend to overlook that. I mean, I do not want a boyfriend who fusses more about his 'appearance' than I do. Being vain? That's okay but not for a guy who applies a lip balm (or even lip gloss) all the time to make his lips moisturized (or shiny smoochy) or a guy that just doesn't want to go out under the sun for fear of a sunburn. Hahaha. God forbid me to have such a boyfriend. Although I am a bit boyish, I need a guy who is not girlish, sikit-sikit atu buleh lah tapi jangan jua overrrr..Kwang3x. Nanti kawin susah cia, who's gonna memimpin rumahtangga? Hoho. Nah, jauh tia menyimpang ceta ku ani..LOL.



Aaaah~ Vic Zhou Yu Min~ I like this guy very much..wawawa. He's cute with a smile I just can't resist. He's an example of the type I want in a guy. LOL. Jangan pulang 100% kan sama macam ya, atu klon tu eh. Anyway, he's just cute~~~ *repetitive mode* Hahaha...I love his smile, I love his smile~ Hahaha..majal ku ah~ and I love his sense of humor~ lalalalala...His acting too~ and his voice and his singing..hahaha..apakanz~

Kim Jeong Hoon or John Hoon is a Korean but he has made a Japanese album. Pelakon ceta 'Goong' or 'Princess Hours' ah. Huhuh. Suprised me a lot when I knew that he can sing. Huhuhu. A whole package and he's cute~ he's cute....LOL. Tapinya he's always showing that sad face of his..huhu. I only hope he can just smileeeeeeee because he's cute~ LOL. *majal ku lagi..lalala*

Aaaah....Kwon Sang Woo~ Korean actor! Macho ni, not cute. Huhu. I like, like, like his smile. Like his style too. Rugged bah. Hahaha. And he's soooooooo fair, putih melepak nya kitani. And I like his acting jua. Huhuh. Machoooooooo wahhh....

Okayy..I'm done. Malas ku udah...haahahha...

Ciao~

Rants of a loner..hehe~:P

Lelaki ini - Anuar Zain

Kasih, kenanganku
Ingatkah saat saat dulu
Kasih, apakah dirimu
Merasakan semua itu

Ke mana pun langkahku pergi
Ku masih melihat bayanganmu cintaku
Dan kemana pun arah anginku berlari
Hati ini masih kau miliki

Lelaki ini yang selalu mencintamu
Selalu, tanpa ragu
Lelaki ini yang selalu memuja
Hanya dirimu
Yang bertakhta dalam sanubariku
Sanubari ku
Aku yang mencintakan mu
Hanya dirimu…

Karena cintaku, tak berbatas waktu
Karena cintaku, tak mengenal jenuh hatimu
Hatimu…

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Just posting one of the newest song lyric that I've currently taken fancy of..huhuh~ I lurve it..if only I can changed the song into 'Perempuan Ini'...hahahaha, then that will totally express my true feelings to him...lalalalala~ *imagining how it will sound like when i sing it as 'perempuan ini'* hahaha~ Oh well...:P

One more week!! One more week in A&E!! Yay! I'm surviving it...huhuhu, although I'm still a little blank on whatI should be doing there exactly. Paed cases are not a lot (which is bad on my side in terms of experience but good at the society's side because we don't have a lot of sick kids..yipee?!) Anyway, batah udah ku inda di A&E and I discovered that I lost a bit of skills here and there...kepisan ni!! And of course, I am practising my 'blood taking-cannula-and-IV line' skill, which I am not good in yet. Malar 'bulging' ulih ku tym insert cannula ah...Huhuh, tapi ambil darah always successful (perhaps 96% of the time pulang ja). Awww...I really need to practise...atu baru adults tuh, lum lagi children (Mind you, I am a paed nurse to be..kwang3x)...

Submissive mode is fading~I am feeling much better although I may *act* a little emotional at times. Hahaha. I think I need doses of 'crying sessions' to make me feel a bit relieved and tolerant to this oh so cruel world. Huhu. Is that considered as an act of I may be suffering from mental illness? *flutters eyes to Daus* Anyway, mental illness or not..someone told me that the only NORMAL people lives in the Mental Health Unit a.k.a the patients~ Hahahaha...and that I was once told that we all have our mental illnesses without us actually realizing it~ These are not my 'words of wisdom', just some random words from someone random that I will always remember and think about. Huhu.

22 days til *ehem* my famous day~ yay~~~ I'm counting it so that you peepz won't be able to give me a suprise birthday event. LOL! Yakin ku ah kan kana buatkan suprise birthday event~ Hahaha. Just wishing ja. It's not wrong, right? *flutters eyes innocently* Lagipun, I'm not just counting the days til it's my birthday...the same date of my birthday is also actually my dad's birthday..wawawawa~ Happy birthday me and happy birthday to my dad~ HUhu..double celebration kali ahh~ And I am at my most 'iski-ness' due to the birthday time bulan puasa~ Penuh berkat dan rahmat tu...yaaay~ and also I read somewhere that said 'kalau berpuasa time birthday, doa akan senang di makbulkan'...Hahahah. Ngam2 jua my birthday on bulan puasa..kekekek..oh well~ buh, aku iski! LOL! XD

Til then~ Farewell...:P

Lurve,

Kisho229

*hearts u my [015] til life leaves this fragile body of mine*

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Loyal

You stick with your friends no matter what, even if you feel like they're doing the wrong thing. You believe in letting people figure out their own path in life. It's not your place to interfere. And part of your loyalty means that you'll do a lot for your friends. You definitely go the extra mile. You'll even do great things for friends without them asking. After all, that's what friendship is all about. You are truly a friend for life. And you have friends you've known since you were a kid. Your friends can count on you to do a favor, remember a birthday, or just be there to listen. Your friends need you most when: They can't turn to anyone else You really can't be friends with: Fickle people who change friends quickly Your friendship quote: "Friendship doubles your joys, and divides your sorrows."

What Makes You a Good Friend?

Huhuh..something that is RIGHT at last..:) Yes, I value friendship as much as I value other precious things in life (well, except when it comes to love, I tend to value love much more than anything...which is bad..wawawa...) Yes, I am a loyal person and I'll do anything i can do for my friends..hahaha, just to make them feel happy and satisfied (um, and again..I can't make my friends happy and satisified for now on my love life..hahaha, i'm still mourning for a love i lost!! And i get so stubborn and blindly loyal to *ehem* him..:P suwie ahh temen-temen~ hehee...)

How girly kan aku ani?:P

You Are 24% Girly

You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit. Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way.

How Girly Are You?

Hahaha..i lurve how this works out...kwang3x..aku tomboy? NOT..banar. I may looked like one (perhaps~) tapi nda tomboy eh. Half boyish, half girlish..atu i totally agree but not mostly tomboyish..lalalala...

You Are a Tomboy

You're having too much fun to bother with nail polish and crazy diets. Guys are instead impressed by how much you know and do!

How Feminine Are You?

Pot, cemana ni? Hahahaha..u told me supaya jangan jadi tomboy..kwang3x....oh well~ i will not though...maybeeee~~*ehem, cough*

But errr, my tomboy potential is still waiting to be discovered? LOL..antamz...kekeke..

Addicted to Internet??

You Are 61% Addicted to the Internet

In your opinion, life without the internet is hardly worth living. Could be, but you probably need a bit more fresh air and sunshine to think clearly.

Are You Addicted to the Internet?

Hahahaha..oh well, Pot..u see? I am a bit addicted to Internet..lalalala...oh please let me find a cure to this!! Kwang3x...NOT!!!! I lurve being online..hehehe..dapat jua at times, see [015] online and that brings much satisfaction than I can ever feel in a day...lalalalalala~ :P

When I'm in stwess..:P

Assalamualaikum peepz~

Been quite some time since I updated my blog. Connection rah hostel ani bah nda mengizinkan ku memblog. Hahaha. I'm not making up excuses ahh~ Banar...connection in hostel semakin 'buwuk', 'tewuk' hantapz...As I recalled, E-speed Brunei masani LAG~ Oh well, hope durang dapat fix the problem as soon as possible..WE ARE DESPERATE FOR A FAST CONNECTION!! hahaha...but I can't complain much because connection yang ku pakai ani FREE~ahahaha..so no komen banyak from my side..:P

Anyway, it's been tiring for me these past few days...sal apa nah? Because I'm in the afternoon shifts, yang sungguh sibuk dan sangatlah bosan. Di A&E lagi tu..Triaging as usual tapi rasanya cases in the afternoon ani semuanya HEBAT-HEBAT BELAKA! Membagi sakit kepala banarnya..some patients banyak complaining, tapi what else can i do? I'm just a student and satu lagi, yes...procedures rah A&E ani lambat...awo, macam siput nya urang but liat la dulu wahai patients~ sesungguhnya doktor hanya seorang dua ganya...lau lah setakat damam dan batuk selesema yang dapat di tahan-tahan atu, tulung taaaaahhhhh...bersabar saja...ani ya Allah, tahu tah udah ku kenapa urang kaja di A&E atu marung2 mua bisdurang...nah, kuar bahasa Barunai ku ah! HAHAHAHA...ilang bah senyuman mesra atu pasal bicara dan komplen kasar abiskita yang ke A&E atu..huhu~ I'm not exaggerating, it's the truth...Nya urang, mesti sama-sama bertolak ansur tapi i find some patients are too 'pushy' a.k.a membagi pressure...Bukan ndamo menolong, bukannya nda kasihan tapi mesti ikut policy jua..except if patient atu is critically ill or membagi ingau ati bah usulnya atu, atu tah yang patut nya di utamakan..I'm sorry with my words here tapi I'm just a bit stressed out with all these. And I will totally NEVER want to work in the triage area ever again! Hahahaa...OVER aku ah, tapi mental ku wah...and also, I am not entirely blaming the patients...ku blame jua sal tempat A&E atu...nda bisai~:S I hope kana renovate lagi tu tempat A&E ah...HAHAHAHA...*evil laughter* Okay, that's all my opinions saja plg...minta maaf banyak-banyak atas kekasaran bahasa..cewahh...seriously! :)

And oh but again...I'm in my submissive mode...submissive to my feelings that I've kept hidden and to my own self. *sigh* I miss my [015]. I can't stop my tears everytime I have to make myself believe that I don't miss him. It's a torture. Sakit nyamu...I tried to persuade myself that I don't love him anymore but it just makes a deep gash of wound to my heart. Painful and there I go again, tearful as always. I tried and I tried harder for all of those whom I promised to try to move on. But the more I tried, the more it hurts and I feel like I'm walking on those shards of broken glasses laid out for me...Must it be this difficult to erase an unwanted feeling? How long must I keep trying? How long must this torture goes for me? Guess what? I don't want to have to go through such things like this in my life but it happened. It will eventually happen to someone one day...doing is not as easy as saying it...please understand..:'(

Because of my submissive mode, I am acting a little bit weird here and then. I am sorry my dear friends for freaking you peepz with my sudden change in atittude and the way I chat with you all...macam bunyi orang kan mati plg wah...wawawawa. *abis tia ku ni kan kana ladai leh c Pot* Walau apa-apa pun, ku minta maaf saja atas segala kesalahan dan kesilapan ku andai nya ada pada semua temen-temen gue...wawawawa~ I wuv u all!! :p Sorry peepz...you just need to endure it for awhile until I'll be okay tomorrow or the next~ Masani ada a bit of loose screw sikit..Lalalalalaa...I'll be me again but not today...:)

With a farewell, I'll leave you with my latest song addiction = Cinta Dalam Hati : Ungu

Ungu - Cinta Dalam Hati

mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku

mengagumi tanpa di cintai

tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia

dengan hidupmu, dengan hidupmu
telah lama kupendam perasaan itu

menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku

tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku

reff:ku ingin kau tahu diriku di sini menanti dirimu

meski ku tunggu hingga ujung waktuku

dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya

dan ijinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja

tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya

dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejab saja

repeat reff

Lurve,

Kisho229

Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate

You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger. You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause. You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you! A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

Oh geeez...this seems right..lol..barangkali laa~ :P

You Are 44% Emo

You're not emo, but you're plenty thoughtful, unique, and even a little angsty.

Are You Emo?

Daus, look!! I'm only 44% emo~LOL...awwww~ wawawawa!! :D

You Go For Brains!

You want a guy with a big... brain. And of course it would be nice if he were a total hottie, but you're not counting on it. What's on the inside is what counts for you. (Besides, you can always change the outside later!)

Do You Go For A Guy's Brains or Body?

This is erm, 80% true..wawawa..yes,intelligence turn me on...let's just say, i like a bit of nerdy looking guys BUT with style..LOL..lau nerdy beravis, ndatah ku mo tu..:P

What Your Blue Outfit Means

You're a classic girl with an impeccable sense of style. Down to earth you project a loyal and honest persona. You are sweetly feminine - a strong, tough guy can't resist you. Designer match: Prada Signature accessory: Fur lined leather gloves

How Your Favorite Outfit Tells What Kind of Girl You Are

This one is funny..wawawa...it's not accurate on the part of "being sweetly feminine"..LOL..no, no that's wrong.wawawa~ *denial*

You Have Your PhD in Men

You understand men almost better than anyone. You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well. Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful.

How Well Do You Understand Men?

Hahahaha..suprise, suprise~~~ I do understand about men??!! Wow...well, I do at some certain points but men are still one of the biggest mysteries of my life..wawa...:P

You Communicate Like a Man

When you communicate, you like to get to the point. You're not afraid to say what's on your mind - and leave it at that. Talking about your emotions drains you. You rather keep them to yourself. You prefer solving problems to wallowing in your sorrows.

Do You Communicate Like a Man or a Woman?

Hahaha~ okayyyy...i communicate like a man?LOL..ya wahh?? what do u peepz think??:P

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ISFP)

Your personality type is caring, peaceful, artistic, and calm. Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 8% of all women and 6% of all men You are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Wow...rare personality panya aku ani...wawawa...cool~:P

Your Birthdate: September 22

You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking. However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone. Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5 You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Hahahaha..okayy...this is ntah lah...i agree with the above part but i don't agree on being able to bring out the best in people..wawawa...mental!! :P

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

LOL!! Eunuch~~ Lalalalala..so calie ni...wow~:P

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

Hahahaha...i agree of most of it except the first one...LOL..I don't fall in love quickly and easily and totally not often...wawawa..I only have crushes easily and often..lalalala~

Countdown yaw~

Count down til my *ehem* day when I'll be famous..LOL..byk peminat ku ni on that particular day~Yeeezaaa...hahahaha~:P Tapi of course, it'll be time bulan puasa~ rahmat tah udah tu..hehehe~:P

Cam bitch on top~LOL..apakanz~:P

I was out from the shower this morning. Dressed comfortably in my clothes. Sat in front of my laptop and wondered, "What am I gonna do today?EP?Erks...I think I'll skip it for today, save it maybe for tonight..". Browsed through my lappy's contents, in search of entertaintment. Found one and played "Golden Sun 2:Lost Age" which my sister has installed in my lappy. After an hour, got bored. Wanted to sleep but my eyes wouldn't let me. Sang along with the music played in my Windows Media Player, with the idea of improving the voice..LOL. Practice makes perfect, no? Hahahaha.*laughs like a fool* Then unconsciously *ehem* my fingers reached for my handphone yang ampai-ampai on the table. And a wicked idea just crossed my mind. How wicked? Not really but still wicked. How can you not say as I rather cam whored myself than doing my important EP??? HAH!! Totally wicked, no? *smug smile* Thanx to my trusty, handy dandy handphone (for which I am always indebted for all those sentimental value it has), I am saved for at least a few minutes of boredom. LOL..now, let's see what has my handphone cam managed to capture of the very vain me~~ XD

NOTE : Somehow, I can't upload my pix rah bloggy ani..awwww, shucks!!! Nda ya nyuruh kamu liat aku cam whoring by myself wah tuh...HAHAHAH..damn eyh~ Oh well, nanti tah ku try to upload lagi..LOL...bah sambung ceta saja tah ah?

After taking quite a handful of pics, I went and practised my creativity in Adobe Photoshop. Batah udah nda praktis sampai ku lupa on some important steps on using Photoshop efficiently. Huhuhu. Guess I need to brush up my skills again, tunggu and I mean tunggu tah time I will be having my leisure time..wawawawa...Ooooh lalala~ Tapi, em...okay jua la the end result..ahakz~ Lurve it tho...

aNYWAy, that's a piece of what I did for today...Boring ah? Awu, andangnya boring...kamu nda jua bawa aku keluar to cam whoring ka apa...LOL...jangan mare~ I main-main aja~:P Btw, thanks to Potty sal belanja-ing i semalam di *ehem2*..Trima kasih yaaaaa mbakkkk~ Jangan jara2 lapas ani...I lurve u ni Pot~LOL...pandai cia udah lurve2 time kana belanja..*evil laugh* Kerana mu jua, my cough nda menjadi~ Yezaaaa...berkat Coke Float, nda plg menjadi batuk ku..kekeke, tapi selesema tatap maintain~~~*siruk2 hingus* Kwang3x...

Ohhh awuuuu~~ Tadi because I was damn bored...I went wacko mikirkan my wishlist~ LOL..Top and foremost of my wishlist will be a DSLR camera~ Wuuuuu...aku mauuuu~~~I wanna take snapshots of my world by using a DSLR cam~~ Tapi hal nya, luan mahal...LOL..what do you expect? Ahakz...I need to have lots of money to buy one~ Mudahan saja ku lakas dapat keraja..Amin~~~ And mudahan to all my other peepz jua...:D Dapat jua ku minta belanja dari kamu!!! HAHAHAHAHA...(lari ku daulu ni sebelum kamu ampas or latok or bibit or ntah apa-apa ka lagi kan kamu buat rah ku..kekekeke)

Ahh, okayyy...before I leave you til the next post~ Cuba dengerin yuk lagu-lagu indon ini...LOL..Download cia di mana-mana aja yang dapat mendownload mp3 atu~ Sesuai utk time hujan...Hahahaha..apakanz...:P

> ShaRuL GunaWan - JaNji
> PInkAn MaMBO - cINtA taKKaN uSai
> UnGu - CinTa dALam HaTi
> TanGGa - CinTa BeGini

Bah atu ja...LOL..Farewell, til da next time..heehehehe~


Lurve,
Kisho
*counting my days til i grow yet another year older and wiser...wuuuu~!!!*

Cough attack~:S

*cough, cough*


*pauses*


*cough,cough, COUGH!*


*gasp loudly*


Oh man...seems like I'm having a cough attack, topped up with the 'sweet' hot fever and cold~ Geez...all and all, I hate having coughs. Cough makes me have those acute shortness of breath which then leads to a flare-up of my asthma!! And when this happens, I usually get sick for two to three days, unable to move as freely as i could. I would be bound on bed, taking in my inhaler as I find breathing is difficult. I would wheeze and be sleepless at night. I would sleep most of the day (but always interrupted with dozens doses of coughs) when that happens. Strictly CRIB~Hahaha...I just hope my cough doesn't get worse. Besides, I hate cough syrup...that sickly sweet concotion always manage to make me feel nauseated. 90% of the time. Urgh!! I rather have tablets and pills swallowed than having syrup slide into my throat~:S Oh well, just hope for me to get better soon~:D


When sickness strikes, I always went for music to comfort me up. Music is always a wonderful creation of the human mankind. Wawawawa...Of course, times like this I still opt for my 'jiwang-jiwang' songs..hehehe..like I said, I am a HOPELESS ROMANTIC~ Bob's 'Pengalaman Cinta' has always been one of my favourite songs of all time~


Bob - Pengalaman Cinta


Lama baru kini ku rasai
Memori bersemadi nan bersemi
Derita bahagia kita alami
Telah sebati menjadi cinta yang murni

(Bridge)Apa kah kau berubah hati
Daku tak mengerti
Mana pergi janji
Mengapa menyepi
Di mana dikau

(Korus)Cinta datang pergi tak diundang
Hilang tiada ketenangan suram
Pendam dan tak mahu ku berdendam
Kenangan cinta kan hanya menjadi pengalaman

Telah kau pinta setulus cintaku
Kau damba ikatan kekal abadi
Kecewa meracuni hati suci
Andai cinta mu sering silih berganti
(Ulang bridge & korus)


I lurve Bob's voice~ Hehehe...I'm not a fan but I love his voice. Lawa. His song "Cinta Seorang Teman" made me cried the first time he sang it in Akademi Fantasia 2. I have never ever felt a song so touching that it reached my heart..wawawawa.

Aaahh..okay~ I'm done with an update~ Heee...sekali nya ku rajin tu update ah~ Wawawa... *ehem* final words~ I MISH HIM [015]!!! Hahahahaha..sanak kamu??!!!! XD Kekekeke..Peace~

Lurve,

~Kisho 229~

Exposed to germs~ahakz~

Ohh...my head hurts, my throat felt stuffed with lots of dry,sticky cottonballs and i keep wiping off that goo running down from my nose a.k.a hingus, i sneezed a lot here and there..wawawa..yesh, i am sick. Damam. My body felt chills, even though the hostel room is as humid as it can be. My body felt weak, my eyes watery and my taste buds went tasteless. I could't enjoy food!!! Help~ huhuuh...I don't want to be sick right now...but well, what do i expect when i sit there in the triage area with all
those sick people coming with the same problem i am having right now? Oh man..i dislike being sick~:S


Today, triage area is fun~ The one who supervised me was a funny man. Wawawa..and yes, I did my first day of triage today. Although not confident, the staff who accompanied me was quite reassuring. I was left several times though, to handle the triaging alone but nasib jua the cases were not that 'heavy' for me to handle. A bit of stress when i was scolded for a mistake that i done.Huhuh..my mistake. I admit that, well, anyway, it should be a lesson learned and remembered. Hope I won't make the same mistake though...haiyo~~be strong!! :D

RTA's cases are a lot in my few days in the A&E Dept. *shivers* I just hope that you peepz be driving carefully anywhere and do be cautious of your surroundings.Pedestrians should be aware and obey the rules. Jangan nda toleh kiri kanan time lintas jalan.The same goes to drivers and especially young drivers or new drivers~ Alert, especially when it rains!! I don't want to see my peepz to get into RTAs or end up as..*shivers* oh well~ Bari ijap bah. And please do take care~:(


Aside from being sick, I find myself being horribly missing [015]. Geez, I may lose my mind, constantly thinking of him every seconds that I have to spare. Aaaaahhh, especially everytime i got sick, for example, now?..ahakz~ windu cia ku beravis ni...oh man~ *sneezes loudly* brrrr....i am sickly missing him~ hehehe..:)

Lurve,
Kisho hearts [015] owes

My demotivated self...:S

Assalamualaikum peepz..

My two days in A&E were, not as much as in HELL as I've said before. Happening jua la.Kinda liked being in the triage area (although I'm scared of the possibilty that someone might just collapse in front of me suddenly) due to the different, unique humans' behaviours that can be observed there. I liked to see what and how humans (Bruneians) try to cope with their sickness and disability; and when they tried to express what they feel at that precise moment. Some I say were exaggerating, some were plain cool about it, some were kinda health conscious and some were not (such as like myself..hahahaha, i am totally not health conscious~:X) Triage is cool at some point, and too hot to handle at the next~ wawawawa...anyway, I didn't do triaging at the moment because I feel incompetent to do so. I know that to triage, we need to be experience-wise and knowledge-wise upon the different diseases and disability that may occur. I am not up to that specific task yet...Thinking of this, I feel Ineed to salute to those working in the A&E department especially in the triage area because they need to be an expert on a whole lot. Huhu..

Anyway, macam-macam ulah lah yang dapat di lihat from being in the triage area. Macam-macam kejadian jua. Even events that you might not even think could happen to somebody somewhere. Huhuhuh...scary but the painful reality. Social issues. Huhuhu, I don't think I need to say much about it. Think for yourself~ Lalalalalala....

And oh~ I loved it when I met a senior of mine in A&E...ahakz, which I have a crush ever since I laid my eyes on him~ Cewahhh...He never seemed to smile at me all this time when I was around but oh yesh, that day he was smiling at me with those heart melting smiles, teasing at me as in why in the hell a paediatric nurse-to-be like me should be in A&E (well, my tutors put me there...bukan kerelaan ku!!!) and even called my name after looking at my BIG nametag (in which I don't like banarnya..wawawa, adakah ya panggil aku c Tiyah? Why o why cruel world? I rather be called by my first name wahhh...but of course, leave the Hajah out of the list..lol) Fuh, I can feel my cheeks got hot as he teased me sampai nda lagi beta sanggup bertemu mata dengannya kerana terasa malu yang teramat sangat...LOL..makin rugged udah ya~ Hansamu~~ Sugoi, sugoi~Lalalalalalaa~Who? Jangantah bertanya...hahaha~ I rather keep it as a secret~ :P

Let's leave my clinical placements out of the way, shall we? Currently, I am addicted to the song by Pink titled "Who Knew"~ Kinda make me a bit sad jua la...but still I loved it~:D Here's the lyrics~

Pink - Who Knew

You took my hand

You showed me how

You promised me you'd be around

Uh huh That's right

I took your words

And I believed

In everything You said to me Yeah huh That's right

If someone said three years from now

You'd be long gone

I'd stand up and punch them up

Cause they're all wrong

I know better Cause you said forever And ever Who knew...

Remember when we were such fools

And so convinced and just too cool Oh no No no

I wish I could touch you again

I wish I could still call you friend I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now

For they're long gone

I guess I just didn't know how I was all wrong

They knew better Still you said forever And ever Who knew...

Yeah yeah I'll keep you locked in my head

Until we meet again

Until we...Until we meet again

And I won't forget you my friend

What happened

If someone said three years from now

You'd be long gone

I'd stand up and punch them out Cause they're all wrong and

That last kiss I'll cherish Until we meet again

And time makes it harder

I wish I could remember

But I keep Your memory

You visit me in my sleep My darling Who knew

My darling My darling Who knew

My darling I miss you

My darling..Who knew...Who knew

Oh well, I dedicate this song to my [015]..huhuhu, even though he won't know at all...I lurve u sayang, still do and still am. Doing my best to wash this stain you left in my heart and yet, no clorox nor detergent of Fab nor Breeze nor Vanish can do so..LOL..okay, it's sooo lame of me..ahakz..sesaja wah~ Yup, yup..let the song above express what I am feeling currently..Nda ku mau kamu membaca madah-madah cinta berjiwang ku kali ani~ Kekekekek..

And so, I finish this with a good farewell~ Tata~ Til the next time when the blog-striker is up for her task~ Hahahaha...apakanz..I write craps, people..LOL..:x

Lurve,

Kisho hearts [015] owes

17/8/07 - Alai Kratong nite~

Well~ here's a short summary of what we did on the 17th~

I drove back to Bandar on Friday morning and went to pick Cinta up at her houz. Went to fetch Potty and found out that ya lum mandi.Wahahaha.So took a few mins to go to the hostel to put my things there and changed into a much nicer clothes for myself. Then went back to Potty's. After that we went to the Mall, and of course to the Essensuals where Cinta wanted to have her hair straightened. Me and Potty got bored. Started cam whoring like usual. My handphone threatened to switch off because my battery got very low. LOL. Borrowed Cinta's handphone and continued cam whoring ourselves. Potty got hungry. Went to eat at Ahan Thai and Potty belanja fries and Coke. Thanks aaahhh Pot~ Mwahsss...hahaha., Jangan jara~ Then back we go to the Mall, where Cinta then asked us to buy a drink and food for her. Out we went to the food court and bought a Double Choc at Kokoberry. Then we went to KFC and bought a Cheesy Wedges for Cinta. Then back we went into Essensuals, cam whoring again and again and again with Cinta's handphone. Wahahahah.

Finished at half past six. Walked around and window shopped. Cinta brought us to engrave names on jewelries. Potty got her necklace written "Potty 37" while Cinta bought a large steel armband engraved with her name and a handphone accessory for her mum. I didn't want anything because I was unsure what to make...wawawawa. Anyway, Potty belanja us Cokes again...bloated pawut ulih nya~ Hahahaha. Then we made our way to my car, kan menuju ke Alai Kratong in Jerudong Park Amphitheatre.

Arrived at 8pm. Made our way to the Amphitheatre which was half crowded. Nasib balum start lagi when we came and nasib jua that the rain wasn't falling heavily as we went there. Took our seats while anticipatingly excited to see it start.

The performances in Alai Kratong were marvellous~ Absolutely..I love it. And I even fluttered my eyes at the sight of a Thai singer named Smith. Hensum~ LOL..macam Taiwanese artist~ and his first song was adui mak~~ I love it so much~Hehehe. Bruneian artists were fantastic too..traditional songs like joget made me wanna joget too..LOL..anyway, the most fun performances were when Smith sang in Malay~ and when the Thai artists sang 'Dang Mengalai'..lawaaaa~ and of course, a bit silly too sal durang sang it in their Thai slang bah...heheh~ But lawa all the way~~~ Finished at 10.30pm or so. Cinta treated us for a late dinner at the gerai.

I ate 4 cucuks of chicken tails with rice...nyaman~and of course, another round of Coke..LOL.Potty had a Kuew Tiaw and two Cokes. Cinta had her 4 cucuks of chicken tails too with rice and a Puspa drink. Thanks again for the marvellous dinner Cinta kuuu~ Heheheh..Really full my tummy wah jadinya~ :D Sent Cinta home at 12pm. I stayed over the night at Potty's houz sal the hostel is closed after 11pm. Felt totally tired and slept almost immediately~

Huhuhu..atu tah saja laporan dari ku..wawaw.I'm a bit lazy ni...no motivation to blog tapi memajal diri jua.hehehe..Anyway, will like to attend Alai Kratong again next year if ada, tapi wonder if ku kana lapas tuh? Hahahaha..:P

Lurve,

Kisho [2215]

Pix from 17/8/2007

Ago-go style along with da phunk look by Potty~ :P
Kana impit di tangah2..wawa..napa mulut u Pot?? o_O
Declaring my love to a fair, er, white maiden? hahaha..
Potty and Cinta in JP Amphitheatre for Alai Kratong show..hehe~
Da stage of Alai Kratong~ yeezaaa...:P
Cucuk mata u ah Potty...wawawa..eh, where's the blood?
Horrible faces, I tell you, such damnation..LOL! :P
Posing in Essensuals..wawawa..
Squeeze in lajuuu~~ :P
Whatever pose we make, it's nothing more horrible than taking it in a jamban!! HAHAH! True cam bitches we are~ :P

Cinta on the process of straightening da hair..wawa..
Oldies who were just wondering what era they've been thrown into..:x
The ugliest julur-julur faces of the century...hehe
Hit da face, not my new specs!! cos healthcare is free in Brunei but not specs!! :x
Kurik cia Pot..ada banyak emas tuh...wawawa...

Our Sugar Mummy for da day, belanja2 us..Thanx cinta i~ :P
My OMG-I-LUV-IT jersey..hehehe..wuv~
Buang bored wif Potty Gaban at Yayasan Arcade..wawawa..
The tangga models..:p
Us three, smiling our best~ lawa kannn? :P

Wazzup~~ Sorry for the delay...anyway, I didn't have the chance to do my health talk cos nada urg sudi kan mendangar my talk in the clinic~ Pathetic but I was totally pissed off with Bruneian attitudes...Throwing me those damn fucking excuses, I just blew up a fuse inside me...nasib ku nda retort a.k.a membalas durang punya excuses atu..wawawa...but I was drained as I held that anger inside me..huhuhu. Nasib tah banar nda melatup bah..esh3x...Totally stressed up and much more stressing was the fact that I'll be starting my 3 weeks of HELL in the A&E Department...a 'great' time for the news to reach me when I was already stressed up..anyway, atu ceta sal health talk ku yang nda menjadi..

A great big thanks for my cinta sebab sudi belanja me and Potty at CAPERS. It was my fifth visit to CAPERS and I still love it~ Nyaman da food~ Heheheh...I had 3 helpings : First was the BBQ Ribs Penne, then Fetuccini Carbonara and a Lasagne...wawawa...nyaman2~ Heavens!! :P Potty also had 3 helpings (I forgot apa) but my cinta only 2 (same like mine except not the Lasagne) ja...kanyang ya kali? Hahahaha..Bah, jangan jara2 belanja kami g~ Mwahssss~ :P Lapas atu, Potty suggested that we went to Yayasan Arcade cos she wanted to play DDR...so, kami layannnnn ja...lagipun, it's fair enough that we need a bit of burning those lumps of fat~ LOL...and sooooo, bermula lah journey kami ke sana~

My cinta totally treat us for two hours of fun rah arcade ah...atu mendulur banar sampai we call her as our "Sugar Mummy"~ Hahahaha...we spent about $20 rah arcade ah...the first $10 was spent on DDR, where I think I need lots of practice to really score in DDR...hehehe, Potty was terrific in the game, jangan ja ko kambang sana Pot! LOL...Then my cinta went to dance with Potty and of course, none of the both of us can beat Potty...ya andal udah beravis~ Terpaksa tah practice hantapz g ni~ After two rounds of DDR-ing with Potty (3 rounds for Potty), we went karaoke-ing macam biasa, opening song must be high pitched punya lagu a.k.a "CINTA" by MIsha Omar & Jaclyn Victor~ Hahaha..batah udah I nda karaoke tuh, nasib I dapat sing tuh...kekekeke...I forgot how many songs we did karaoked that night but it was totally fun~ Yezaaa....My cinta, however, was karaoke-ing with her friend that she met that night...huhu..While waiting for her to finish karaoke-ing, me and Potty, as cam bitches we are, went cam whoring ourselves...wawawa...

After that, we went home soon after my cinta finished karaoke-ing with her friend...Yezaaa..a great nite, a splendid dinner~ Hehehe..I was happy that night~ Although I feel how wonderful it would be if I could spend such a fun time with him..*sigh* oh well...:P

Lurve,

Kisho

Menyamak-ing~

Hahaha..juz wanna post up telling u peepz that I am very lazy at da moment and will update soon~ Soon as in after I finished doing my health talk this Thursday~ Wish me lotz of luck bcos I sux a lot in public speaking~ Hahahahah...*keeps fingers crossed* :P

Kisho misses [015] a lotz..*sigh*

Mz Jersey 23 - weeee~~ I'm lurvin it!! :D

It's morning~~ Friday morning...I woke up feeling dazed and lonely. Oh well...Took my shower and everything I need to do in my morning routine..Got bored eventually. Looked into my wardrobe closet and I can just feel soooo excited looking at my new jersey~~ Yaaaay...At last~~ After so much suffering and waiting~~ Hohohoh..oh well, I think I'm gonna wear it today if my friends really wanna hang out together in Bandar...If not? Geez, guess my jersey will have to wait~ Hahahaha...mental tu ku ahh~ Kan show off my new jersey~ :P

Somehow, yesterday's clinical in Kiarong clinic was fun..wawawa...why all the fun suddenly, you may ask?? Well...I was assigned to assist the doctor (which in my right mind, doctor do not need to be assist with small trivial matters...), registering the names of the patients, translating for the doctor and controlling my 'i'm bored' face...wawawawa...After an hour or so, I went out and left a junior midwife to take that place of mine while I went for some skills-hunting. Entered the injection room and voila~ Time to be 'c injek', but of course, under supervision~ Hahahaha..I lurve giving out injections~ Yezaaa..One by one, kids crying and brawling after I gave the injections~ Siuk jua panya..lol..Hep B, Tetra HiB, MMR, OPV, Influenza and CDT~ I managed to give it all to the little kids and babies~ Lawa and cute g tuh babies yang came~ Adorable they are when they smiled~ wawawawawa...whoops~maternal instinct is increasing~ :P

In the afternoon, of course, was of no importance. No class. Buring. I was tired. Then remembered to get the jerseys from the shop. Went there with Potty. Jersey c Potty lawa banget...mine was a-okay and I still lurve it~ LOL..Then I was damn hungry..Decided to go eat 'cungkil' in Aminah Arif~ Nyamannnnnnnn like always...Potty got bloated and I was just satisfied a.k.a nda kanyang banar..wawawawa...Then went to shop a bit for my dinner. Pastu mulehhhhhh~~~ When I got back, I admired my jersey, putting it on with a proud smug on my face...I lurve it..LOL..I think I'll get another one one day..But if anyone wants to make one for me for my birthday, bah I'm willing to take it~ Ku sokaaaa wahhh...heheh..make it black or white~ :D

My E.P is going steadily slow..wawawa..Lum ku terbuat banar-banar.I am lazy.I am a fool. Oh well, I will do it anyway. Me, always the one to do things last minute..huhuh~

Anyway...again, I say what's in the heart...I miss him...It's almost 2 months since we last contacted each other, sharing news of what's new...But now, it seemed like he doesn't exist. And perhaps, maybe I don't exist in his. What should I be doing?? None I supposed. Ego, my terrible ego much like a man. Gosh~~ I miss him...O please God, let him see how much i deeply love him...*sigh*

♥♥Missing [015]♥♥

⇝Kisho-Sama²²9⇜

Trip to Capers~ weeeeeee~~

Assalamualaikum peepz~

Today was sooooooooooooooooooooo boring at my clinical placement in Kiarong clinic. I do not like to be in the clinic, just not my cup of tea. I am not looking forward into the days where I have my MCH clinical placement...especially not when it comes to giving health talks~ Ohhh mannn...I truly hate it!! But positive mind leads to positive attitude, so I might just fool myself into actually 'liking' or 'loving' it against my will...wawawawawa...apakanz~ Tomorrow, I'll be back in RIPAS Paediatric clinic which I tend not to enjoy..huhu, it's just me because I don't like working in clinics...*sigh*

On the opposite though, I skipped aerobic classes..wawawa, and instead I went to have a jersey made with Potty~ Hahahahaha...my jersey won't be that 'lawa' or anything. It's quite loose and I may look like a pregnant lady...wawawa...extreme ku ah~ Anyway, it is darkkkkk navy blue in colour and printed on the back will be "KISHO 23"~ Yeayyyy~ at last, a jersey for me with my own nick nameeee~~ Weeeeeee~ *squealed in delight* Then we went to pick Daus up at the hostel because I made my mind up for a trip to Capers, thinking of the delicious Penne Lamb Shanks in mind..wawawawa...Funny however, that we had to wait for Daus for about 30 minutes more or less...huhuh, I wonder what took him so long? hehehe..:P

At 7pm, we went to print Pot's and mine jersey in Q-lap...wawawawa, which totaled at B$33 for all the word prints...wawawa, meriah toh~ But anyway, I have my wish granted~ Heee...jersey incoming~~ Yeahhh...wawawawa...and then, we went to Capers with our stomachs growling hungrily for food (well, my stomach for sure..wawawa) As usual, the environment in Capers was kinda romantic and dreamy~ The side view next to our table was also splendid, I felt like being back there in Brisbane, having to watch the night scenery...know what? I imagined myself having a romantic dinner there with someone special..wawawawa, but of course, who will be that someone special eh?? Insya-Allah, that moment will come for me one day..:D And so, Daus was the most excited one and he was eager to have a taste on the "all you can eat" promo...huhuh. Daus did most of the cam whoring while I was taking some lazy snapshots...Huhu, which then brings me to think of the word "cam bitches" trying to "cam whoring"...hahaha..new word of the day everybody...we are called "cam bitches" and what we like to do is "cam whoring"~ LOL...that should be perfect~ :D

Our 1st round :- I ordered a half plate of Penne Lamb Shanks, while Potty chose the whole plate and Daus, em...he chose some kind of spaghetti which tasted splendidly nyummy~ Daus was like, OMG, in heavens after taking in a bite of the spaghetti he ordered. He loved it and I loved my Penne Lamb Shanks~ Nyaman kali aaaaahhhhh~~ No regrets in choosing this one although it may be a bit tasteless at some points...Hahahaha...and we ordered a pizza, half Amatricana and half Diavlo...Nyummy jua, huhuh..But I am not a pizza fan...no thanks~ :P We all ordered Cokes for our drinks and yeah, took the Sehat water on the table to satisfy our thirsty selves..:P

2nd round :- I ordered a Fetuccini Carbonara which tasted ooooh so heavenly creamy milky superlicious indescribably delicious! Hahaha..nyaman tah banar tu meaning nya wahh..I recommend this one for someone who likes creamy melting saucy taste in their mouths..Potty ordered a Spaghetti Arabiatta Gambas which was spicy HOT and I almost looked horrified to see Potty surviving in eating it...wawawa..Padas banar usulnya ah...plus with all those 'cili padi' in the tomato sauce..Yowser~ For one who loves spicy food, this one is recommended..huhuh, just make sure you have your bottle of water ready~ Wawawawa...and Daus? Erm..he ordered the oh-so-tasty BBQ Beef Ribs Penne...and damn mannnnn~~~ It wassssss soooooooo nyummy!!! The beef ribs were ooooh...nyum!! Daus almost cried for having to finish this delicious plate of food...hahaha, didn't you? But nyaman laaaa....nya orang, nda menyasal wah makan ahh the pastas!! :P

3rd round :- I ordered a plate of Capers Cartoccio, oven baked linguine with lots of seafoods in it..nyummy too but too heavy on the tomato sauce..I mean the tomato sauce is too much..hahaha...But it was still good and appetizing~ Daus and Potty decided to have a go on another pizza of Spinache and I-forgot-what-the-name-is pizza...wawawawa. It was another delicious trip to a temporary heaven as you slide the pizza down into your mouth..Nyummy and crispy with lots of toppings and thin crust...Nonetheless, it was still oh-so-good~ :P

And so, we came to our conclusion (or rather Daus came with his conclusion) that it was of no regrets that we came to have our heavenly dinner in Capers..Hahaha, I think the heavenly part was when I paid the bill and treat the both of them~ That is heavenly enough..LOL..anyway, I enjoyed to see those happy faces as they ate with me..huhuh, nice dinner and lots of gossips..wawawa..and a bit of mind challenging questions..Erm~~ Then we went to Q-lap Mall to have our 'so-called' desserts at Dreamcones...huhuhu...

Me : I chose Rocher and Oreo flavor for my gelato~ The Oreo was nyummy but the Rocher was too damn sweet that I think I may have a toothache a few hours after taking a bite on it...huhuhh..and I asked for almond flakes as the toppings which was oh nyummy~ I lurve almond~ :P

Potty : She chose Raspberry Milk and Orange flavor. No comments from her. Hahaha...she loved it, I think?? What says you, Pot?

Daus : "Caramel and Apple Kiwi, is the worst combination of taste you will ever tasted!" was what Daus said..the opposing tastes of sweet caramel and sour apple kiwi just made it tasted "bitter", as Daus commented. Poor him..huhuh..so a reminder, do not mix these two flavors or you will suffer just like Daus had been! LOL~ :P

Anyway, we went back to our homes with a feeling of bloated..kanyang bui~ But satisfied (for me laa) with all of it for tonight..Huhuhu..siok jua~ Thanks Daus for belanja-ing the gelato~ Huhuh...

Plus~ I mish him..who? [015]...I have this aching feeling inside me that tug at my heart..I want to see him, meet him..I am desperate to hear his voice, his laughter and see his smile...I want so much to hold him close, make sure he exists in my life...I want to know that he was no dream of mine, not some kind of false reality that lies to me all this time...I want to see him, God, please...I want him to love me...just once more before I find myself thinking of him as only a painful nightmare...I want him, I need him...For if I erase him forever in my mind, I will never be the same me again...I just don't want that to happen...:(

Sowie..will upload some snapshots taken in Capers later on..I am just so sleepy..:S

♥♥i mish u [015]♥♥

Kisho-Sama

My fcukin blog worth..??

My blog is worth $0.00.
How much is your blog worth?

Look at this!! Got this one from Daus~ Wahahaha..oh man..my blog is not worth even a penny! Kepisan eh...oh well, I don't mind..wawawa...it's my blog and I lurve it~ Lalalalalalaa....:P

My fun day at a fren's wedding~ :D

Well then~ a quick post here!! Yesterday a.k.a 5th August 2007, I went to a friend's wedding in Lumut. Of course, this friend of mine I haven't met for a long time since I finished my O-level exams in 2000..and mind you, my friend is the groom..not the bride. Wawawawa..Anyway, it was tiring trip with Kubamz and my sister but indeed was entirely fun!!! Yeahh..siokk ahh...I don't regret having Kubamz along on that day because she was sooooo capie...LOL..she made my crying in my laugh..wawawa, meaningnya calie tah udah tuh lawak jenaka nya rah ku...Mostly we joked about the *ehem* singers of the function..calie la durang nyanyi and Kubamz made fun of it..wawawa...we were totally evil that day~ Jahat eyyy~~

Anyway, besides meeting my friend who had his wedding on that day...I met his brother who was my old classmate in AAC too.. Of course, I am much closer to the brother and yeah, we lost contact for about 4 years..hahaha. He was as charming as usual and I still adore this guy~ He is one of the closest guy friend I ever have..wawawawa..hanya kawan, okey?? Nothing more than that..*i hope* LOL...

Sadly, I still remember about HIM..my [015]..can't get rid of him in my mind..I tried hard, locking my feelings of missing him away soooo far inside my heart but sometimes, it just threatens to burst at any single second. His face constantly etching deeply in my subconciousness...wawawa, now i am talking crap!! Buh...help me!! Ohahaha...oh well...*sigh*

Mish my [015]...*sigh*

Kisho-Sama

Friday morning..geez~

Woke up by the sound of the hostel's door knocked aloud and I sleepily made my way to the door. Opened the door and found the hostel's warden informing me about some people are going to fix something in my hostel unit. Nodded a yes, wiping off my "taie mata" or eye discharges hastily. Then went into my room, slumped on my bed and got a sudden headache. A silent curse muttered under my breath as I got my body to wake up and my brain to start functioning normally. *shrugs* That is how my supposedly *ehem* quiet Friday morning is started and now I'm feeling both sleepy and hungry. I couldn't get back to sleep as I wanted, my mind continuously reeling in everything about yesterday and the yesterday onwards...oh man!! I'm the type whose if sleep has been disturbed, will not easily slide back into that dreamland~ I am a light sleeper too, meaning if I still hear anything around me if i'm asleep..I mean, a slightest sound can wake me up!! Terrible~ The only time I have a deep sleep is when I am very exhausted to the core and when I'm sick. Huhuhu...Funny how humans are so different from others...:)

Erm...what should I do now? I can't go back to sleep and it's still early. I won't be doing my EP because I have no mood to do so in such an early hour. Huhuhuh..Browsing through my Friendster and Facebook now was getting a bit boring...Nothing new is there~ Oh man...perhaps I should watch the DVDs I bought yesterday?? Or tinker with this bloggy of mine by changing its template?

Thinking of all of these, I have a sudden feeling that I am lonely. So damn lonely. Have you ever feel so alone when in fact, there's always a friend to chat with? When there's always entertainment that you can find leisure in? I just don't know...life feels so empty when you really sit back and think about it...Well, I am a critical thinker, I think a lot about life...Nothing is simple about life and it gets complicated once you even started to think of how things just work. Huhuh..okay, I'm starting to annoy you people with my self-ideas about life...wawawa..let's just leave it there~ :D What we should just do is enjoy life, no matter how complicated it is! *winx*

Right-O~~~ Guess I'll just stop there..weeee~~

♥♥[015]'s forevermore...♥♥

Kisho-Sama

P/S : I mish cam whoring..huhu.apakanz~ :P

I can't sleep...

Feeling a bit insomniac now and decided to have a go in creating some kind of a bloggy's entry...

What should i do? em..lemme think~ Oh yesh...let's just say I'll put bits and pieces of my rants and rambles here..huhu..biar kamu paning~ :P

Before I did this entry, I went and watched a Japanese movie called "Nana 2". This is a sequel to the movie (which is obviously..) called "Nana". I lurve this movie~ Siokkk..hahaha. It might be a tad boring for people who likes a much more action packed movies because this movie is all about life. The type that I like : inspirational, humans' complicated lives spread into a movie that makes you think...saya sokaaaaa tuh! :P Anyway, this movie is adapted from a Japanese manga, also named "Nana", done by the same person (mangaka) who created "Paradise Kiss" : Ai Yazawa~ I lurve both of her animes~~ weee...For the synopsis of the movie, please check this website :

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nana_(manga)

www.nana-nana.net/

Btw, I lurveeee Mika Nakashima starring as "Nana Osaki"~ She is soooooooo cool~ Hahaha..Rugged wah ya in the movie~ Sugoiiiiii dessssu! And I am totally in lurveeee with Yuna Ito's voice, the lady who is the lead singer of "Trapnest" in the movie...She is one talented singer~ And yeah, I lurve her recent new song called "Mahaloha" feat Micro Def Tech. A catchy, cheerful song~ You go, gurl~~~~:D Buh, I'm talking outside of the topic now..hahah, anyway, I'll give "Nana 2" a 3.5 out of 5. Huhu, I liked "Nana" much better than "Nana 2"~

Urm, what else is there to chat about? Erm...oh yeah, I've said before about attending dance classes at the place where I do my aerobic classes...And I am still thinking what kind of dance do I want to go for??? There are only three choices : Hip-hop dance, Modern Jazz and Pop Dance. And so, I am considering which one will I go for? The two most interesting dances that I would like to have a go are Hip-Hop Dance & Pop Dance...but yet, I need to pick one only. Huhuh..antah eh, I can't think of which one suits me better. I am not a good dancer though, a very slow learner and a clumsy person to top it off!! Huhuh...Have to practice it over and over~ Buhhhhh...:P

And oh...there's this one particular song that has been stuck in my mind for a few days...LOL..annoying but I just can't stop singing it in my head. What's the song u asked? A song from Enrique Iglesias, "Do You Know? [The Ping Pong Song]"...I dunno why that song is sticking into my mind right now...maybe because of the ping pong music? LOL..antah eh...not a fav song but it just stuck inside my head~ Hahaha..Is there any kind of way I can get rid of this "strange obsession"?? :P

Okayyyy~~ I'm feeling sleepy now..It's about 3am in the morning and thank goodness that it's Friday tomorrow..yipeee, so dapat ahir bangun~ Hahahaha..Adios~

[015]'s forevermore...

Kisho-Sama

What have i been up to eh?

Assalamualaikum peepz,

It has been wayyyyyy too long since I updated my bloggy. Sorry for the delay in updating 'cos I've been truly busy for awhile and much busier when my clinical attachment started in late July. And also since I've been *ehem* actively participating in my *ehem* weekly aerobic classes, which left me drained each and every day since it started. Huhuhu..and I may be totally drained if I started with my dance classes *ehem*soon. Heee~ oh well...

Let's start with my clinical attachment~ urm..I had my first two weeks' clinical in the school health services unit in ong sum ping. The first day of school health was a total exhausting to da core day. Imagine me, on my first day, had to given the MMR injection to about more or less 100 students. Aaaaahhh....very,very tiring. But anyway, school health was fun!! I have a great time there, being independently learning about what school health is all about. Hehehe...I hope to work there again one day but well, that seems to be a far-fetched dream since I joined the paediatric course. Oh well~ I hope my other clinical attachments in the near future will be as rewarding and fun~ *keep fingers crossed* Next week I'll be starting my clinical attachment in Paediatric Clinic in RIPAS and the Kiarong Clinic...oh God and I have to do my health talk on Hands, Foot and Mouth Disease while being there..eeek!! :S I hate health talks...wawawawa! :S Wish me all the luck I can have~ :P

And oh, we the paediatric students did do some educational visits to several places of importance for our knowledge. Such as SMARTER situated in Sengkurong, a centre for autistic children and Pusat Bahagia in Pulaie where we get to see the 'special' individuals learn working skills and such. They were very informative and an eye opener for us. I learned a lot about autism and a few bits of the reality of what our community has to offer the 'special' people. All in all, I am happy with the visits~ I will have a clinical attachment in SMARTER for a week or two later before the fasting month and that will be totally challenging in terms of trying to communicate with them.

And yeah, I had my BLS (Basic Life Support) assessment yesterday and heck, it totally drained me up!! My back and wrists are aching all over due to the CPRs I have to performed for the assessment...oh God, please don't let me do it again~ not in the near future..it was exhausting~~ But happily, I passed my BLS..thanks to God! I am so happy! *grins* My mutiple choice test was a 44/50 which marked me as a pass...fuh, nasib jua la...My practicals were a bit crazy yesterday but I did everything in sequence which is the most important thing. I need a lot of practice though...esh3x..Comments about my performances were mostly that because I am too nervous and panic a little here and there which caused me to forget some steps in the sequences..huhuu, I was nervous wrecked yesterday~ Naleh!! :P And owh, elaun kuar kemarin jua..hahaha..double joy for me! :D

As for my lurve life...it has been *cough* terrible...HE and me, we were not in contact for almost 1 month plus...It's really torturing for me but I am trying to act strong in front of others. I hold my own desire to text him up, to give missed calls like I usually do...and it's soooo damn torturing!!! Aaaahh...and yet, despite that torture I'm experiencing, I still hold my stand. *sigh* And he's not doing anything to keep in contact with me too...perhaps he hates me for being so persistent to love him. Maybe he's glad that I've not contacted him and he can finally have his happy times without me annoying him. Maybe he even forgets about me. Oh gosh, I feel I wanna cry and this heart aches so much...huhuh, but one has to be strong even though it hurts, right? The most difficult part is when friends still talk about him in front of me and I would act like I don't care how he is and what he does, and yet inside my self I was almost raving mad to want to see him again, to hear his voice and to touch him...I usually say the opposite of what I feel, just to make me strong...lies and more lies~ *sigh* Me, the liar of my own self :(

Oh, right now...my current fav song is from Romance "Ku ingin Kamu". Very, very beautiful piece of a romantic song. Huhuh..I would like to dedicate that to HIM.wawawawa...Music is an expression of what we feel and through music, I do understand what my own fragile self wants to say. Wawawa..now aku udah merepek~ :P But please do listen to the song, really lawa... and oh, another song I've fallen in love with is from Elliot Yamin "Wait For You"..lawaaaa lagu nya bah and i would also like to dedicate it to HIM...lol...jangan jeles~ :P

And yeah, I would also like to recommend for all to see a Thai movie called "Metrosexual". It is a funny movie and full of tips on how to spot a gay. LOL..banar~ Whether it's right or not, it doesn't really matter but at least we get a slight insight to spot one!! :P It is a sad movie too and *ehem* I feel *ehem*....huhuhh...malas ku taip eh, let it be a mystery on what I feel..:P Lau mau tau, sendiri bertanya...wawawawa..apakanz!

Okayyyy~~ that's all for now..an update~ And yes, I created an informal, just for fun blog for our paediatric course in blogspot due to the favour of my dear colleagues who wants sooooo much to have a blog about our course. Check it out~

www.pbdpaedcon.blogspot.com

[015]'s forevermore....

Kisho-Sama