When I'm in stwess..:P

Assalamualaikum peepz~

Been quite some time since I updated my blog. Connection rah hostel ani bah nda mengizinkan ku memblog. Hahaha. I'm not making up excuses ahh~ Banar...connection in hostel semakin 'buwuk', 'tewuk' hantapz...As I recalled, E-speed Brunei masani LAG~ Oh well, hope durang dapat fix the problem as soon as possible..WE ARE DESPERATE FOR A FAST CONNECTION!! hahaha...but I can't complain much because connection yang ku pakai ani FREE~ahahaha..so no komen banyak from my side..:P

Anyway, it's been tiring for me these past few days...sal apa nah? Because I'm in the afternoon shifts, yang sungguh sibuk dan sangatlah bosan. Di A&E lagi tu..Triaging as usual tapi rasanya cases in the afternoon ani semuanya HEBAT-HEBAT BELAKA! Membagi sakit kepala banarnya..some patients banyak complaining, tapi what else can i do? I'm just a student and satu lagi, yes...procedures rah A&E ani lambat...awo, macam siput nya urang but liat la dulu wahai patients~ sesungguhnya doktor hanya seorang dua ganya...lau lah setakat damam dan batuk selesema yang dapat di tahan-tahan atu, tulung taaaaahhhhh...bersabar saja...ani ya Allah, tahu tah udah ku kenapa urang kaja di A&E atu marung2 mua bisdurang...nah, kuar bahasa Barunai ku ah! HAHAHAHA...ilang bah senyuman mesra atu pasal bicara dan komplen kasar abiskita yang ke A&E atu..huhu~ I'm not exaggerating, it's the truth...Nya urang, mesti sama-sama bertolak ansur tapi i find some patients are too 'pushy' a.k.a membagi pressure...Bukan ndamo menolong, bukannya nda kasihan tapi mesti ikut policy jua..except if patient atu is critically ill or membagi ingau ati bah usulnya atu, atu tah yang patut nya di utamakan..I'm sorry with my words here tapi I'm just a bit stressed out with all these. And I will totally NEVER want to work in the triage area ever again! Hahahaa...OVER aku ah, tapi mental ku wah...and also, I am not entirely blaming the patients...ku blame jua sal tempat A&E atu...nda bisai~:S I hope kana renovate lagi tu tempat A&E ah...HAHAHAHA...*evil laughter* Okay, that's all my opinions saja plg...minta maaf banyak-banyak atas kekasaran bahasa..cewahh...seriously! :)

And oh but again...I'm in my submissive mode...submissive to my feelings that I've kept hidden and to my own self. *sigh* I miss my [015]. I can't stop my tears everytime I have to make myself believe that I don't miss him. It's a torture. Sakit nyamu...I tried to persuade myself that I don't love him anymore but it just makes a deep gash of wound to my heart. Painful and there I go again, tearful as always. I tried and I tried harder for all of those whom I promised to try to move on. But the more I tried, the more it hurts and I feel like I'm walking on those shards of broken glasses laid out for me...Must it be this difficult to erase an unwanted feeling? How long must I keep trying? How long must this torture goes for me? Guess what? I don't want to have to go through such things like this in my life but it happened. It will eventually happen to someone one day...doing is not as easy as saying it...please understand..:'(

Because of my submissive mode, I am acting a little bit weird here and then. I am sorry my dear friends for freaking you peepz with my sudden change in atittude and the way I chat with you all...macam bunyi orang kan mati plg wah...wawawawa. *abis tia ku ni kan kana ladai leh c Pot* Walau apa-apa pun, ku minta maaf saja atas segala kesalahan dan kesilapan ku andai nya ada pada semua temen-temen gue...wawawawa~ I wuv u all!! :p Sorry peepz...you just need to endure it for awhile until I'll be okay tomorrow or the next~ Masani ada a bit of loose screw sikit..Lalalalalaa...I'll be me again but not today...:)

With a farewell, I'll leave you with my latest song addiction = Cinta Dalam Hati : Ungu

Ungu - Cinta Dalam Hati

mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku

mengagumi tanpa di cintai

tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia

dengan hidupmu, dengan hidupmu
telah lama kupendam perasaan itu

menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku

tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku

reff:ku ingin kau tahu diriku di sini menanti dirimu

meski ku tunggu hingga ujung waktuku

dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya

dan ijinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja

tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya

dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejab saja

repeat reff

Lurve,

Kisho229