Ah...another update!

I'm being 'rajin' today. Despite my sleepiness and my unending troubling thoughts, I am blogging away happily~ well, not really as happy as in really happy though...owh, I am hungry too. Really hungry and yeah, lonely...hahaha. Think I really need someone to hang out for the day but...who? Aaah, I am getting lonesome...Lonesome tonite~~~ ooh soooo lonesome~~~


Just blogging here to say something quite, um, interesting...I've been thinking about what people say in these past few months...What, eh? Hahaha...getting lots of comments about me behaving like a guy. Or rather, some new people who chatted with me sometimes mistakenly think I am a guy...Oh pleash~ Am I that boyish? Nda juaaaaa~ *pouts lips girlishly* Haha. But really, I am not THAT boyish...a bit but not too much. Haha. I act like a girly girl at times~ I do...but maybe it just doesn't show too much. Hoho. I do act 'bibiran' like a girl~ I play with my hair when I talk~ I get sensitive at sad moments and go 'awwwww....' at romantic films. Hehe..okay, does that convince you? If it isn't, I just don't know what makes me boyish~~~ Banarrrr~~~ :P


Skipping that up, I am currently finding myself thinking of him quite frequently these days. Wondering about him, his life now without me clinging onto him. Still in love with him? Not really, my heart just turned cold after I made that decision to let go. I really gave him up... I feel I can't receive love, just like the old me in the past, before I met him. It's as if I locked my heart away and threw the key so far away that no one can ever find it easily. Ooooh...scary. Maybe it's just my defense mechanism, trying to protect myself from heartbreaks...Haha. Will I ever find someone to find that key and unlock this chained heart of mine? :)


Anyhooooo~ That's all for now. Hehe. I am out of ideas. And my brain is limited in its capability to think due to my sleep deprivation. Owh God, I need to sleep...:(


Lurbeeeeeeeey blippy doo~
Kisho229

"This road of mine, I dare say is a wicked one!"