Assalamualaikum peepz...
I'm just coming back from ke padang...liat kereta berhias and basikal berhias and bunga api. Tiring and annoying. Hahaha. I'm not really happy banarnya for this nite...I'm really 'terluka' a bit in my heart sebab someone that I waited, nda kunjung tiba...Someone I waited, I couldn't even get a hold of...someone that I waited, with huge hope dapat liat bunga api sama ya, which may be romantically done but not done...*sigh* Sapa? My beloved...*sigh* I'm soooooooooooo damn f**king sad sebab this....My wish kali ah kan meliat bunga api with him..jadi moody ku selajur because of it...I know plg lain tahun bleh lagi sama2 liat bunga api ka apa...tapi *sigh* macam I just want it this YEAR! aduii...I'm soooo totally insane...Anyway, bunga api tonite were cool...lawa and sooo nice...but I can't enjoy it to the max without him by my side...lagipun, aku became so "couple-conscious" sejak ada BF ani...MWAHAHAHAH...meaning, aku sanang feel so lonely when ada couple dapan mata ku beramah mesra asmara..HAHAHAH..stress ku tu ah...Like they pigang2 tangan, I feel so sensitive!!!! ARGH...mental ku selajur...and I get soooo rindu arah ya...*sigh*=s
Furthermore, aku jadi pissed off because someone keep pestering me and memajal!! And being indecisive and asked me to make decisions!! Time ku bad mood lagi tu...abis la kedia..nda ku melayan! HAHAHAHAHAHAAH...sapa suruh buat aku pissed off???! I'm so damn evil...and sooo damn easy being hated....well, that's the me yang most people would like to not see me in...HAHAHAHAH..teruk waaa aku ahhh lau time bad mood and jadi pissed off!
Anyway, aku sensitive malam ani...aku nangis laaaa~ nangis la time bunga api ada tadi...like setiap bunga api atu "meretakkan" my heart...macam setiap bunyi bunga api atu menghancurkan hati ku...cewaahhh!! Tapi banar...time masuk kereta tah lagi nah, dengar lagu2 yang sentimental!!!! MENTAL ku selajur...buduh banar! HAHAHAHA....nda ku duli lagi eyh kawan2 ku meliat aku nangis...i wiped them laju2 plg...dalam hati rasakan menangis puas2...tapi macam buduh jua ku kan menangis tanpa sebab yang kuat...LOL...aggghhh, aku emosiiiii!! Antah, dalam keadaan pissed off aku atu...aku 'blame' my sayang for not making an effort to jumpa aku tadi...if he really does love me sooo much, he would search for me tadi....TAPI kan~ I realised yang hidup ani bukan macam novel...I can't expect or HOPE so much yang ya akan muncul macam hero dalam novel cinta...MWAHAHAHAH...sooo, to be realistic, aku pendamkan saja la, biar aku surang saja sakit...aku yang terlabih2 ani...maybe next year kami dapat go sama2 ke pesta perayaan and time atu nanti, wif PARENTS' blessing...MWAHAHAHAHAH....aku alum lagi bagitau my parents about us...oooooh, maybe pasal atu too much dugaan..hehe..lum berkat lagi! =p
Okies...that's all for tonite...I'm damn tired...usul ku lagi tu, naleh banar jua nyaaa...HAHAHAHA...tapi sampat lagi tu online ah?? =p
Lurve,
KishoSama
--->> Mentally Unhappy<<---
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