SWooosh~ KL here we come~

Yeay! Daus is gonna treat us to Ambuyat's dinner tonite!!! Luv ya Daus (atu only when you treats us to fun and food..wawawa)...Nanti I belanja you in return~ :D

Anyway, it won't be long til my clinical attachment to KL!! Yeszaaa!! Looking forward to it and yeah, it'll be for a whole month~ Asikkk...Grand Sale g nih!! Hahaha..Shop til u drop bankrupt..wawawa...

I have to pack my things and clear up the hostel's room before leaving Brunei..Huhu. Malas nya.

I mish him tho he doesn't. Owh heck, maybe I won't get to meet him before I leave Brunei...Huhu.Macam batah berabis jua ku kan leave Brunei ani bunyinya~ Hahahaha...Tapi really wish I can meet him before I leave...Really, really do...:(


Lurbe,
Kisho [229]

Pain again..

Pain. That feeling yet again.

I told myself not to cry anymore, to take things as positively as I could..to take things as it comes...but...

With happiness, there's always that sadness that follows...I do not want to hope. Do not want to wish for something so farfetched...Do not admit to the feelings I am trying to bury away. I want to deny everything inside me. But...

I guess, I am a fool. Enough said...

Tears. Running down my cheeks. And a bitter feeling inside. Tearing the walls of invincibility that I have put up. Bruised heart, yet again. Sensitive me...Foolish me...That feminine part of me cries as deep as the river that runs endlessly...That part of me cries for comfort and hope..That part of me wishes for someone to help me..Yet that masculine part of me, tried hard to deny everything, burying it away...building up my ego, trying to act strong before everyone's eyes...trying to patch up that gushing wound inside with a steel ego and hypocrisy...I lied to everyone on how I am feeling with that smile of innocence...

Lurbe,

Kisho [229]

"No matter how much you crushed me, I still smile for you with this pieces of love you've broken..."

Delayed pix..

These are the pics of our College's Hari Raya Celebration in Rizqun..I didn't manage to take lots of picx because, well, I am without my digi cam, sadly~ wawawawa...Enjoy~

Them, waiting for the event to start..berbincang apa yaa dang?

Me and Amal, baru warm-up...
..and it's getting warming up with our 'kontrol' poses...
..and finally, it's like this? We were half bored to death awaiting for the event to start..wawaa!
This is my plate and that is how much I ate before the waiter took it away before i had my second...cian~:S

Them, cheering and clapping ourselves to the point of no humiliation when the event started! LOL..enjoyable peepz, very very much~ :D

Rushed~

I am basically being hyper after the exams. And emotional. And a bit sressed out.

Exams finished and I am a bit glad about it. But yet, there is something inside me that feels a bit disappointed. Haha. Why? Because I didn't think I did the best that I could for myself. Hohoho. Horrible~ I just hoped that I'll pass the papers..:)

Looking forward to KL's attachment!!! Yipee...ahakz, being a cam bitch sure makes it all something to look forward to~ Hehehe..I am gonna cam whore for that whole 1 month! Yeszaaa...but oh,I am feeling irked sal maybe I'll be the presenter for my group masa that KL's attachment's presentation ah..OH NOOOO!! I no, no, like..Haha..My fear of public speaking is still there...I stuttter, I stammer...I cannot keep my own cool..Duh!

Had fun last nite during the Hari Raya Celebration. Our table went wild with lots of shrieking and whistling and well, basically, screams~ HAHAHA...I didn't think I ever did it. Well, I just went crazy, wacky inside~ :P Hyper I could say...Hilarious act by some of the teachers and students too~ Hehehe...I love last night and well, I hate it too. Because it was gently reminding me of my times with him at such function...seeing my other colleagues with their loved ones, oh damn, made me thought of him and my heart just aches to see him beside me...Oh GoD, i MISS him badly! It's crushing me inside!!!!

And so...I'll end it here..I don't wanna think so much...but I miss him!!! AAAAAAaaahh...

Misssing himmmmm~

Kisho [229]

Bullchitz...:P

Hungry. Stressed. Caged in. Fucked up.

Hahaha..I am outta my mind.

I hate him. LOL. But I love him. Don't give me hope but yet it has no meaning to you. I hate this. I am hungry. LOL.Out ceta ku ani. Mental. Hahaha. Kisho is undergoing mentalism process.

Mama Bear loves Papa Pandan shooooo much!!!! Heck, I am really outta my mind. Ditto!!

Miduh-yo...araso?!! :D

Outta her mind,

Kisho [229]

Asik2 tak kisah...selahau~

I am a few hours away from my Paper 1 exam. Haha. Yet I still act tak kisah~OMG...

I can't be forced to study. I can't be forced to read whatever it is I need to read. I read when I want to read. The way I study is, fun first then head cramming time! Haha..which is a bad way of studying.

What shall I answer for my Paper 1?I chose two of my top choices~

Legal, Moral and Ethical Issues?
or
Family Centered Care?

Oooh...kinda a difficult choice. Haha. I read a bit about legal and ethical issues but I'm thinking of whether to answer it or not. Basically I need to understand the four basic principles of ethics and remember the professional code of conduct for nurses. LOL. Payah. The tutor hinted that it is one TOUGH question but seeing that ethically there is no right and wrong answer makes me feeling tempted to choose this one.And I like arguments. I like to be in control of my answer.LOL. But I need to see the scenario first. Risky business...huhu, but one with a challenge. Hope I won't argue a little off the path if I choose this one~ :P

Family Centered Care~ Aaah...we say we have this practice in our healthcare system. But oh well, we don't. We don't practice what we preach~ Family centered care is a whole kind of thing from what we practiced here. We do not have the facilities to accomodate family centered care, for example, we do not have a place to accomodate parents who comes from a far place...We just let them stay there and we do not think about what the parents' concerns of. Do we? I don't think so, unless if you get so curious and it's just so obvious the parent is having some concerns. We sometimes do not practise what we called, providing the enabling and empowering concept to the family. Basically we just say that having family taking care of the sick patient and be there to support the sick patient is family centered care, but that is not the whole meaning of family centered care~ So how do we implement such concept in our healthcare settings? Haha...confusing eh? Bah enough eh, paning kamu...Wawawa. I love Family centered care~ NOT!!

Paper 2 will be much difficult for me..wawawa.Clinical Practice and it's mostly about emergency care~ I am sooooooooo doomed...Lalala~ I'll just choose Non-Accidental Injury~ what do I have to assess if I were to suspect a child to experience that? From triage tooooooo the ward or discharge. Haha. Pisan ni. I need to memorize the protocols of suspected Non-Accidental Injury~ Lala...like what our tutor said, better to suspect early because if we don't, the child may come the next time, dead. Oh heavens~ What are my role as a paed nurse to protect the child? Ohohohoho...Payah. I am paning already~ :P

Enough chatter~ I am still being hyper about last nite~ Oh sayang~LOL....

Lurbe,
Kisho [229]