Pain again..

Pain. That feeling yet again.

I told myself not to cry anymore, to take things as positively as I could..to take things as it comes...but...

With happiness, there's always that sadness that follows...I do not want to hope. Do not want to wish for something so farfetched...Do not admit to the feelings I am trying to bury away. I want to deny everything inside me. But...

I guess, I am a fool. Enough said...

Tears. Running down my cheeks. And a bitter feeling inside. Tearing the walls of invincibility that I have put up. Bruised heart, yet again. Sensitive me...Foolish me...That feminine part of me cries as deep as the river that runs endlessly...That part of me cries for comfort and hope..That part of me wishes for someone to help me..Yet that masculine part of me, tried hard to deny everything, burying it away...building up my ego, trying to act strong before everyone's eyes...trying to patch up that gushing wound inside with a steel ego and hypocrisy...I lied to everyone on how I am feeling with that smile of innocence...

Lurbe,

Kisho [229]

"No matter how much you crushed me, I still smile for you with this pieces of love you've broken..."