Ponders..-__-"

Pondering mode.

I was thinking...if it's worth it to be in love and get hurt...

I'm doing it..so is it worth it? I asked that to myself...several times at certain points of my life..

To wait obediently while he doesn't care the sacrifices you made?

To get hurt as he talks about another he likes and be so happy about it without being oblivious to the pain in your eyes?

To avoid your presence as you approach him with love in your eyes?

To miss him when he doesn't even miss you?

To think of him even though you know you'll never cross into his mind as much as you do?

Painful. When you experienced such events...Hurts so bad. I tried to hide it inside..but it still hurts badly. Like an old wound, cut open again but this time, much deeper and deeper. I'm lost in my life. Lost in finding love. Fool in love, I might say.

I bore you all with words, the usual words of pain I felt..but do you even understand how it feels? Maybe you don't...Maybe you do...