Kes menyamak~

Well, I am off to Emma's houz. Sleepover sana. Don't blame me, I am being lonely right now. I need to socialize. Haha.

3G ku punya kredit tuhus udah. Tinggal 35 sen. I am so doomed. Money $5 ja. Wawawa. Minyak keta low. Oh damn. I am going BROKE, I tell ya!!

Anyway, he's going to Miri esuk. Sure Heboh there. I wish he would ask me to join tapi well, maybe he doesn't want to make us as the top hot gossip for his cousins and family, sal cousins ya yang bawa ya jalan sana. I don't mind though. Hahaha. I am so palau~

Tata then. I'm off to Emma's~

Away I go,

Kisho [229]

OMG...huhu. Duh~

Met him unexpectedly just now. Bwoh!

I was hungry. Starving. Since I didn't eat a proper meal since yesterday. Got online and chatted away, trying to distract myself from the gnawing hunger. And *poof*, he's online. Decided to chat with him. Haha, ya trima gaji dah. Jokingly asked him to buy food for me. He was serious. I was confused. And so, I told him not too. He got offline. I continued with my own business, chatting and browsing the Internet. Then I messaged him, saying I hope he'll take care while driving around going shopping. Me, being the same, always being concerned about him...oh well..I need to get rid of that habit..:X

Minutes later, he went online. He asked me again what do I want to eat. Reluctantly and jokingly, I just said whatever. He said he's at Ayamku and asked me again what I want. Oh god, I was being hesitant and he was being persistent. I really don't want to trouble him, thinking of him with his financial burdens. But then, I accepted his offer after he kept on asking me. That was sweet of him..but erks, oh my..I shouldn't think of it. Huhu. Then, another minutes later...he came to the hostel with his cousin. I thought it was a brief meeting..but as I approached the car instead~~...

He told me to get inside the car, introduced me to his cousin, Diana. The first time I met this cousin of his. She's nice though, occasionally casting me a few mischievous and curious looks, with some witty remarks to reply to his jokes. Reminded me of the time I talked with another cousin of his, Nurul, a couple of weeks ago on the phone. That other cousin was really friendly and bejabir, I would like to meet her someday though. Hahaha. Anyway, he showed me excitedly of his family's studio photograph that he just took from the shop. Then when I was about to get out, his cousin said loudly that he wants to eat together with me in the car. I was embarassed but well, reluctantly and after a debate with him, decided to eat in the car with him. His cousin moved to the back seat while I sat in front with him. Damn, I felt butterflies fluttering inside me...and so, we ate while we chatted rather awkwardly, well, especially me, pasal malu wah dengan cousin nya yang keep looking at us. I think he was embarassed too but well, knowing him, he's just pretending it's okay.

After about 15 minutes, I finished my food and went to leave. The cousin went out from the car too and bersalam with me. Haha. I am feeling rather weird at that point when he was laughing at this act and when the cousin said something about.."Mesti salam sama bakal x ahh..."...or was it just me, being deaf? Okay. I am embarassed with that words...but maybe, I was wrong. I DO have hearing problems. Hahaha. Oh well...Then we waved farewells and I was feeling that warmth in my chest again. Oh damn..that is not good.

Back to my room, I thanked him for the food. But I just can't stop thinking about what happened then. Oh God...I think I am messed up. Huhu. Well...I need to take a nap then. :D

Elaun oh elaun, mana kan kedia kau ani?~~ I need money, desperately.Wawawa...

Denying love,

Kisho [229]

Wasting some precious time..

Still in denial mode.*sigh*

Anyhow, I'm just wasting some time online as usual. Can't concentrate and revise what I'm supposed to revise. Haha. I am being lazy-eh~ A bit sleepy too as I slept late again last night. It's getting addictive being a late sleeper and waking up late feels kinda relaxing. LOL.

Aaaah..Okay, I have nothing else to say. I'm just kinda have this temporarily fixed blank mind on and off today. Wawawa. I hope I'll get better...:P

= Kisho [229]


"&& everytime i try to give up, hope whispers "ONE MORE TRY…"

"it's like half of me really wants to be with him, when the other half wants to be over him-Laguna Beach"

Current songs..listen to da hippity doo~

Just sharing some of the lyrics of songs I'm currently listening..Reminds me of him againbecause he currently liked these songs though. Hahaha.Pisan-pisan. Help me!

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If That's Ok With You - Shayne Ward

[Verse 1]I love the way that you look without your make-up

I had a girl before we met but we broke up

Theres something about you that makes me want to step up

Step up and be with you

If thats okay with you

We'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late

Coz imma make you feel so good how i see its happening

We'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late

Coz baby i wanna step up and be with you

If thats okay with you

[Chorus]Im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth

Im gonna say to your mother just for giving you birth

Im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry

If thats okay with you

If thats okay with you

[Verse 2]I wanna keep your toothbrush at my apartment

Make a second set of keys and ask you to move in

Im not crazyI know what im getting myself in

I wanna live with you

If thats okay with you

[Chorus x2]Im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth

Im gonna say to your mother just for giving you birth

Im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry

If thats okay with youIf thats okay with you

If thats okay with youIf thats okay with you

Yeah yeah

[Verse 3]We'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late

I wanna love you this way that way this way

We'll keep the neighbours away too late too late

I wanna love you this way that way this way

[Chorus x2]

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I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks, and i'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out i'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music at the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melody

It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours

*scat*

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm a sayin'is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, i'm sure
(there's no need to complicate
our time is short
it cannot wait, i'm yours 2x
no please don't complicate, our time is short
this is our fate, im yours.
no please don't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, the sky is yours!)

well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family
it's your god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved

open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la happy family
it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved

listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la peaceful melodies
it's you god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved...

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Lurbeeeey dippity dee doo~

Kisho [229]

"It's our God forsaken right to be loved and be in love...:D"

Today oh today..:D

Just woke up from my afternoon sleep.

I was tired. Slept late last night. Again. Wawawawa. Early in the morning, I checked up on Friendster and well, played around with his Friendster's background. Downloaded some skins for my handphone. Messaged with Nurul and Amal. Showered and got into my 'selekeh' dressing. Then I was driving back to my home at Tutong, JUST to get my academic documents a.k.a sijil-sijil for my registration to the Nursing Board. In the midst of searching for them, I didn't even get to eat, or as I might say, I FORGOT to eat. Just took a can of Soya Bean and guzzled it down. Rushed like crazy and managed to well, BEG my sister to loan me $5. LOL. Pathetic aight? Oh well...Then, dressed myself up in my baju kurung, and stuck to the E! channel. Only after thirty minutes of watching,I realised I was gonna be late to meet up with Nurul and Leena to go to the Nursing Board. So off I went, supplying myself with three cold cans of soft drinks...huhuhu~

Drove like an F1 racer, or kinda like that. Arrived at Bandar thirty minutes later. Ran all the way from my car to the hostel, only to found out that actually, I still have time to spare. Chatted with Nurul about my night yesterday, smiling like a fool I was. Haha. After some time, we went out to greet Leena who will drive us to the Nursing Board. Went there and ta-dah~ Finished up really quick...Then otw back to the hostel, Leena asked me about the so-called 'date' last night, I was uncomfortable with that word 'DATE'...and only gruffly replied, it was not a DATE and it's only a friendly meeting with friendly purposes. Kan? Kan? Of course vah~~ Back at the hostel, I slumped tiredly on my bed. Home!

Turned the laptop on. Laughed manically at Nurul's funny comment on my Friendster. She never failed making me laugh at her humor. Then I got changed to my selekeh look again. Jumped back on bed. Laid there and thought of him. Urgh. Played the songs in my handphone. Alamak! Jiwang songs! Thought of him again. Covered my face with my bantalz while shaking my head macam head banging or a wet dog shaking its head. I just wanted to shake my thoughts of him away. Huhu. Okay, stop there. Eventually I slept~

When I woke up, it was late afternoon. And here I am. Blogging for my reader's pleasure and to say what I did today. Wawawa. Actually, I was blogging because I have the mood to blog but just doesn't know what I do blog about. Oh well..:P

Lurbeyy dippity doo~

Kisho [229]

"Thoughts of him. Stop. Full stop. Okay, I am not well. Slap me."

Early morning...I miss, miss who?

I somehow miss him as early as I woke up today...

His face...
His smile...
His laughter...
His gaze...
His hands...
His warmth...

I ached to see him again. But like I said, I've let him go and should refrain such longings...such magnetic attraction he has for me, no matter how much I try to go away...as if there's a silver thread that binds us.

Oh well...I'm thinking of him too much. I'll let it rest then now.

Pondering,
Kisho [229]