A New Leaf?

Assalamualaikum peepz...

Batah dah nda blogging in here~ Antahlah, macam nada kan di blog in here since I'm heartbroken...banar-banar heartbroken nyanta~ Hahaha..but what can I do? To forget and to let it remain as memories...my sweetest memories...my 'bittersweet' memories in experiencing the feeling called 'LOVE'...Padih my hati everytime I think about how much I love him and how much the environment around me brings that memories alive...adui mak~

He couldn't love me because he has someone in his heart...Fikirkan lah perasaan ku masa ku tau kenyataan yang sebenarnya...Walaupun that someone sudah jadi tunangan orang, tapi he couldn't forget about her walaupun he tried to forget it by being with me...is love that cruel? is love that difficult to forget? Yes...awu...I know how it feels...love is sweet at it's sweetest and bitter at it's most bitter~ Ya Tuhan...only God knows how I feel...my heart is broken...so broken into pieces...sakitnya berabis...

I cried for him several days...sometimes alone and sometimes in front of others...antah berapa gelen udah air mata ku keluar..hahahaa..atu banar-banar menangis tu eyh~ hehehe...but true, I cried for him...sometimes I can't stop...I feel weak without his love...I feel so damn difficult even to breath without him to love me...Mati eyh...itulah betapa kroniknya keadaan ku atu..hahaha..putus cinta macam putus nyawa...memedihkan, memilukan...*sigh*

My only wish...my only prayer...is to see him happy...Ya Allah, pintaku pada-Mu adalah supaya Engkau kurniakanlah kebahagiaan dan kesenangan hidup kepada nya..kepada lelaki pertama yang berjaya membuatku jatuh cinta dan juga berjaya menghancurkan hati ini...Ya Allah, hanya Engkau lah yang Maha Berkuasa atas segalanya..maka kabulkanlah doa hamba-Mu yang hina ini...kerana kegembiraannya adalah satu perkara yang akan menggembirakan aku...dan Engkau pertemukanlah dia dengan jodoh yang baik untuknya...dan kiranya kami berdua akan berjodoh lagi, maka Engkau pertemukanlah jodoh antara kami berdua dan biarkanlah kami dapat memberikan kegembiraan dan kebahagiaan kepada sesama sendiri...Amin~

Heheh...I know bari gali plg doa ku atu...tapikan...atulah yang ikhlas dari hati ku..cewahh...semoga aku sendiri lebih tabah dan kuat dalam menghadapi segala dugaan yang Engkau berikan...=p

Lurve,
Kisho-sama

P/S: He will alwez be in this heart of mine as he was the first to taught me how to love, how to cherish and how to be heartbroken....And no one can replace that place of his because there can be no other 1st love in my life...;(