Pictures again...hawtneshh~

Four of us, at Shidah's brother punya wife's house...tym nikah~ We became the dayang-dayang of the days...aiseh!
Potty thought punching me on the face would stop my chronic flu i've had that day. Guess what? It didn't work! :P
Potty wanted to be nice and give a peace sign to declare it but however, tecucuk taya ke lubang idung Shidah..Haha!
The acting sooo ohhh very cute posers....
Potty & Amal, byatches who nada kaja tapi cari kaja..at my HOUSE!!

A picture says it all...

Celebrating Daus' first trip to Sushi Tei, Gadong..
Models who were not qualified to represent Brunei, LOL!
The night was cold and we were at Jerudong Beach, posing in our best model-like behaviours...
Us, looking majorly drunk over sushi's overdose...I think, I couldn't recall it.LOL!
Aha! Emo in the making, my masterpiece of that day with Daus as the emo model wannabe~ :D U looked great, Daus, yeah, you did..:P

My byatches, modelling on da KB beach...ahakz..
Mari tengok, siapa punya pose yang paling sexy?hoho..
They were having their fun...chasing at each other macam in Hindustani oldies movie...
Macamnya, I was kissing Pot's cheek laa...ahakz..OMG!
Yesh...here's when Amal had a major lockjaw and Pot was transferring her chi power to heal Amal..LOL..

Berhijrah nun ke sanaaaa~~

Hey-yaaaa....

I'm transferring my bloggy to wordpress~~ Aha.....ani kes aku sasak, mentalisme with the blogger having to fail my oh so many times trying to upload my pictures in KL..nah,nah...rasain loh~ Hahaha...

So my dearest peepz...find me in :

http://kishomin23.wordpress.com/

It's still new and I'm still confused on how to use it but...I'll get a hang on it. Hehehe...Toodles~

With Love,

Kisho [229]

" welcome wordpress...tata blogger...thankiesss for the whole 3 years staying true with me..lalalala~"

Another s.t.r.e.s.s session...:P

I have a slight headache right now. Ouch!

And that guy over there, with the so-called Tengku as his title, is making a sudden comeback in my life. I thought he's gone, totally, out of my life. Pishhh, kabowww! He should be GONE! Aha..and yet, he's trying to make a move on me...huhuhu. And I'm being very nice. Treating him as nicely as possible. But oh...now, he misscalled me early in the morning. Hahaha. And I've turned bad...I didn't reply it. Instead, I misscalled my dearest foremost love of my life~ He didn't reply... wot da...is that KARMA???? Well, he did reply...HAHAHAHA...after two hours of my endless waiting and hoping. Lalala~ so it's not karma...hahaha...

Owh, I mish my [015]...terribly, it's gnawing inside me. I wish to see him. Touch him. Look into his eyes. Bite him!! Hahaha...gross but yet, a sign of deep affection for both of us. Wait, not a love bite...it's more like, a 'mesra' bite...wawawawa~ okay, enough of that...

Happy for Potty today~ Dapat ya udah gaji nya...First gaji yo! And I had a bite from that...wawawa...Kana belanja at KFC~ Yay...Don't overspend dear friend but do spoil me with those cash! LOL....Miri~~ here we come...wawawawa....u drive, LOL!! :P

Argh, and the presentation thingie is getting on my nerves...I am basically doing two jobs : typing the whole fcuking thing and presenting...Haha. I thought my job was only to present!!! Fcuk banar...annoying, yesh, terribly. Urgh..I hate it...and people just keep instructing me do these and those in the presentation slides, inconsiderate of what I am feeling...yes, I am feeling pushed around!!!!! Urgh....and what's more? I suggested something and my opinion was basically thrown aside...itu salah lah, ini salah lah...arghh!! Buat tah sendiri eh!!!! Laughs. Sasak jua ku udah tu...

Additionally, tomorrow I'll be having a rehearsal session on the presentation...fcuk...I am sooooo notttt readyyyyyyy......soooo sooooo notttt readyyy.....I think I need a booze~ Hahahaha...or a pack of cigarettes to lighten up my mood...lalalala~ Macam si banar ku ahh....Never did those things, seriously...:)

Okay then..I guess that's all for now...I want to take a nap..I really do. Headache saya...esh3x...

With Love,
Kisho [229]

"Jangan biar ku pergi...kerna setia ku masih di sini.."

....S.T.R.E.S.S

I am tired.

I think I need a big hug to make it all better. To make me feel safe.

But...

Not just any hug. Haha. That would be so cheap of me. :P

I need him to hug me. Tight. Closer. Suffocate me in his arms gently but not strong enough to kill me.

Toinkz! I am being EMO!! Hahaha.

Well, basically I'm feeling a bit stressful with the upcoming presentations. Might I say that I've been appointed, unvoluntarily, as a presenter for my Paed mates. Yes, me. I've been chosen. And even as the very first group presenter. Gosh, I am feeling a chill for it because....

I SUX A HELL LOT in PUBLIC SPEAKING!!! *wails helplessly*

Oh God...plus with the 'stress' from not hearing anything from him, makes it all crazy inside for me. I am stressed. Him with his iron-clad ego. And there comes that 'particular' guy who just get interested in me. Temptation. Seduction. Oh God...I hate this.

But it will all soon pass...hopefully. I wish!!!! I need it!!! DESPERATELY!

HELP ME!!!

Laughs.

Okay...I have done my job. I blogged. LOL....and the blogger system is one hell, for not letting me upload my pictures in KL...urgh!



With Love,
Kisho [229]

"Ikut kata hati, mungkin cinta kan bersemi...sooner or later..wawawa..."

Restless, sweaty and bothered...

*sigh* Another entry for today..wahahaha..

I am feeling restless. Darn restless. In addition to the restlessness, I am feeling rather sweaty and bothered. Why? I can somehow hear peepz going to say "Not another emotional unstability syndrome.." or whatever it is...huhuhuh...but...

"The aircond is out of order!!", screamed my sister, sounding very horrified with the fact. I became annoyed.

There goes my first so-called wonderful day of 2008. In my humid, warm home. Without the airconditioner. And with lots of complaints from my mom. Plus mine, as I whined about how HOT it is. The fans didn't help a tiny bit. It's just making the air inside the home much much 'irritating'. And my eczema threatens to annoyingly becoming itchy. Yes, I am scratching my back right now while I blog. Urgh...Thank God, it's raining heavily now!!! I wish I can get the hell out of this HOT place and shower under the heavy rain..Wawawawa~ But...it's night time, and it's dark...and I might get a flu...*ponders*

Now I'm just distracting myself by listening to the songs playing in my playlist..Aha! Bad idea...I found my brain starts to play its own song of choice...what song? The song he told me to listen to. Toinks...yeah, you guess it. Avenged SevenFold - Dear God. And I am, horrifyingly, singing to it. Hahaha. Owh gosh, I need a life!!! Life without him!! *mumbling nonsense*

"All the faults of that VCD I saw this afternoon!!!", my brain starts to give its own reason. What VCD? Urgh, I tengok ceta Melayu ler...9 September. Darn, the movie did helpfully helped me reminisced my memories with him~ Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!! Terribly...urgh, godaan tah banar~ *jeling pat handphone* Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!! Such temptations~~~~ God, make me strong~ Don't let me do it...no, no, no, noooo~

Okay..enough of my craps...tomorrow I'll be back to Bandar. Urgh...too much memories...I may not make it to the 3rd day!!! AAAAAAAAhhhhh......Someone, please just knock some senses into me~~ :S

I gotta leave. I need to stuff myself with food. Foods are the best distraction right now. Hahaha. I am gonna be a fatso!! Darn...Let mejust seek solace in foods...lalalalala~

With Love,
Kisho [229]

"Give me strength, give me courage...give me what I deserve...huhuu..two days left to go before I end my abstinence.."

Happy New Year 2008!! With Love...:D

"HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!"

Gosh, imagine me screaming that out! Haha. It may be a bit late to post about 'stepping into the new year' but anyway, that's it~ We're in 2008 now!! May I pause for a bit and just imagine me screaming....

"GIVE ME A FCUKING HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!!!"

Well, ehem...that was kinda full of angst from within me. Haha. Yesh, we're now in year 2008. Gosh, it seemed like it was just yesterday that I was stepping into the year 2007, and now...2008!!!? And so, um, what is the first thing I did for new year? Aha! I am currently avoiding going online in MSN, so don't try to find me there. I am basically reachable only by text messages or phone calls. Why do such prosposterous thing?? Huhu. Just wanna see how long I can withstand not having myself online in MSN..wawawa. And yesh, I am avoiding to misscall or text messaging him too. Why oh why? Well, let's just say, I need a break and maybe, just maybe, he'll feel a loss when I'm doing this. Sometimes, it just gets tiring to pursue and act...Huhu. I am acting crazy, outta my mind...Lalalalaa~

2007..well, lots of things had happened. Lots of things that I shouldn't say here because I'm just lazy to do so. Haha. 2007 was a year of experimenting for me. Short hairs, changes in personal style, new experiences of meeting new people, hang out til early morning etc. Too much to count, too much to say. I love 2007, because I have so many memories that I really appreciate and memories that were too painful to bear. A year where I see that sometimes, people just change for the worst or the better.A year where I get to see some betrayals and the masks that people wear in front of others.. A year where I saw my colleagues, my dearest 18th intake mates having their jobs...A year where lots of internal emotional confusion happened inside me. A year where I found out that it's better to be who I really am, no matter how much it disappoints others...and a year, where I am still devoted to the one I love, no matter how cruel he treats me...

As I stepped into 2008, I began to wonder about my future. Uncertainty. That's what I'm feeling. Similar to what Daus is saying in his bloggy. Haha. Results will be out somewhere in February, hopefully. What will I do then? How well did I do? What will I have to expect? I just don't know...perhaps I will find the answers sooner or later...

I also wonder about my friendships and my relationship with him. How long can I stand here for them? How much can I sacrifice for them? Am I adequate as a friend, to help them in need and to share with them in their pain and happiness? Will there be 'us' for me and him? Questions and more questions...

At times, I feel it's better to be alone. Having not to care about the world and anyone. Being selfish in my own world. Not having to hurt or be bruised emotionally. Not having to carry responsibilities of our lives. But it's impossible. There's no way to run, no place to hide...and I shall live here, as me, accepted or unaccepted by the world revolving around me..Just like a lyric from one of my current favourite songs...

"Namun aku tetap aku, yang terbaik untuk diriku....hanya satu..."

And so, everyone...let's embrace 2008 with hope and happiness~ We are the best of our own self!! Happy New Year everyone....happy new year~ :D

With love,

Kisho [229]

"I keep reminiscing our [sweet] memories together...how I wish it can just disappear and I'll leave you with a heart of stone...but it won't happen as there's too much light of sunshine [love] from those days where there's you [and] me..."

I'm at WYWY and the connection sux..:S

Update~ wawawawa...

I wanted to update on my trip to KL but....for some fcuking reasons, the blogger had problems in uploading it...Owh mannnnn!! Tym ku rajin, miani taya jadi nya...Membari garam ati..wawawa~ Guess I'll have to postpone it to another later date...grrrrr~

Oh well, I'm happy today~ Yesh, you guess it right~ I've made up with him, berbaik kami udah...wawawawa~ Oh sayangkuuu...I lurbe yewhhhhhh to da max~~ Kinda awkward when he went online and I was, toink, afraid to chat with him... Tapi it soon went well~ Yeay....Alhamdulillah~ Tanpa keberanian mimpi tak bermakna...LOL~

Right now, I'm currently sitting in WYWY, dining with my sista and enjoying my wireless connection...wawawa...tapi lagging jua..geez~ No like eh...had an egg burger, nyum2...and my Yam bubble pearl tea...hehehe...

oKAHYY~~ I've seen 'I am Legend' on DVD last night~ Aha! For me, it was a so-so. Post-apocalyptic movie with CGIs...wawawa... I'm not really a fan on these type of movie and this movie just attracted me with its theatrical trailer...okay laaaa~ I got a bit sad on the part where *spoilers* the doggy died *spoilers* Kinda liked the doggy because she seems intelligent~ Hahaha...did you know that the doggy has never been trained to act in any movies before?? Even Will Smith came to adore the doggy~ Toink...But anyway, like I said, it was a so-so. I haven't seen the first movie adaptation named 'I am Omega' yet...so I don't know which is better...hahaha~ Bah aku start merepek ni...I can't concentrate criticizing in the current environment i am in...toinkz~

So that's all for now..wawawa...malash taya ku...the smell of food is just so hypnotizing~Oh gawd...I just have to watch for my diet...wawawawa~

Lurbe,
Kisho [229]

"[015] I lurbe yewhhh very muchieee....make me yours..wawawawa!! Strategy one in progress.."

Update g...wawawa, lum g sal KL ni..:P

Okay..I'll just update a bit more for today...anyway, I can't update about my trip to KL due to the 'cost' it would take to upload the pictures and all.. Hahaha...

But anyway, my sincerest thanks to Potty for accompanying me to KB the other day. It was a day worth it all for me although you were a bit sad back then. Aja aja fightee Pot! :D Yeah, a day full of hope and happiness and spontaneous excitement...wawawawa...but well, I'm not currently as happy as that now.

What did I get after going to KB?

- A full tummy..wawawawa....a.k.a kana belanja makan di WYWY...yeay~
- A DVD set of Korean drama series "The Coffee Prince" (kana balikan..wawawa)
- Meeting him..:) and finding out more things about him..:)
- Meeting his mother, grandmother, auntie and his sister...toinkzz!
- Not forgetting, meeting his cousin, Nurul and another cousin, Amy.
- Spending time with Potty again after a LONG time..wawawa..

Weeeell....that's what I got from going to KB the other day..not much but it will be enough. And oh, he asked me to listen to a song "Avenged Sevenfold - Dear God"...Here are the lyrics...

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Dear God[Feat. Axl Rose]

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleepsand all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you
is to hold her when I'm not around,when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade..

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

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So what do you peepz think? I felt a bit sad after listening and reading the lyrics..as if, it was for me but I'm not sure...I didn't get to ask him. But anyway, it's a cool song too. Huhu. Lawa when you hear after quite some time.

Well, I just hoped us for the better...*sigh* Damn, I miss him...:S

Anyway, I want to see 'I am Legend'!!! I want to see "Alvin and the Chipmunks"!!! Uwaaaahhh....I wanna see, em, apa lagi ah?? I forgot... I have a lot of movies that I wanna see...wawawawa~ Tapi when? Hopefully soon...wawawa, and I'll do the reviews~ Batah udah nda buat reviews ani eh...wawawa..

And oh, I'll be back in college on 2/1/08 to prepare for the KL presentation on 19/1/08....wow, 2008!! Nda sangka-sangka...it's been like what, so sudden for me...but 2007 is a 'happening' year for me.. Will truly treasure what I had in 2007...and hope things will improve more in 2008. Chai-yo!!! Ganbate-ne!!! Semangat!!

Lurbe,
Kisho [229]

"Dear God, watch over him with my endless prayers..."

Kinda like an update but...:X

I am back from KL...

Will post gambar2 dari KL later...Right now, I just don't have the mood to do so...malashhhhh...

And it's sux a lot with him now when it supoosed to be happily ever after...or kinda somewhat like that...

Urgh!

And i went to the Pelangi Awards...Congratz to Maria~ Mantap suaramuuuu~~ LOL...and congratz unepxectedly to Zul F..toink..The Seeds, congratz too!

And that's all...I'm too damn lazyeh....

Lurbe,
Kisho [229]

A moment in KL~ :P

Hello peepz,

I'm in KL!!!! wHOO-Hoo!!

However, it's not as fun as I had expected. Duh. I am under emotional stress and the situation now is not helping me at all. I am FUCKED UP~ Totally..Hahaha~

Anyway, clinical placement in HKL was...no comment. *shut the mouth up* Shopping was great, hahaha! I had a high fever yesterday and I twisted my ankle today. Bad tough luck eyh? And I cried this afternoon, after returning from work. Hohoho.

Well, that's life for me now. Sigh. Hope everything will turn to be okay in the next few days. Keep my fingers crossed~ Hehehe...

And as usual, I miss him. The one and only. And I wonder, what is it that he wants to show me when I return to Brunei? Huhuhu..Nda ku sabar kan balik but I am feeling anxious too..:)

Lurbe,

Kisho [229]

"I am in a distressing life...Oh God, please help me..."

Addicted to this song..:P

Ajai feat Tunku Mimi Wahida - Kayangan (Kayangan OST)

Bukan aku tak cinta padamu,
Bukan aku tak sayang padamu,
Tapi harus ku berdiam diri,
Kerna itu yang terbaik.

Telah ku tunjuk kepadamu, ( tunjukanlah woo… wo.. )
Telah ku katakan pada hatiku, ( katakan padaku )
Tapi tak pernah ku nyatakanya, ( nyatakan hasratmu )
Kepadamu sejujurnya. ( yang dikau cinta padaku )

CHORUS
Bukan niat untuk mengecewakan mu kasih,
Tapi kau tahu,
Cinta sukar bersama,
Kerana diriku,
Tidak dapat lafazkan kata-kata cinta.

Kita hanya bertentang mata,
Hati pun mula bicara cinta,
Cintamu dan cintaku,
Tak ada hujungnya,
Tuhan saja yang akan akhirkan cerita.

Akhirkan cerita cinta, ( cinta kita )
Cerita cinta kayangan, ( cinta dikayangan )
Ikut saja kata hati, ( kau dihati )
Mungkin cinta kan bersemi, ( oh bidadari )
Antara engkau (dan aku).

Bukan aku tak cinta padamu, ( ku cinta padamu )
Bukan aku tak sayang padamu, ( ku sayang padamu )
Ikut saja kata hati,
Mungkin cinta kan bersemi,
Antara engkau dan aku.

Cinta kayangan kita
Cinta kau dan aku

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Addicted to this one..Haha. I am soooooooooo 'jiwang' plus emo.LOL. Well, I am what I am. Different from the others but still human. :P

"These questions in my mind are so much bigger than life."

3 days of 'bejaur-ing'..

Me and my sista, otw ke Miri...ani kes buring~ wawawa..lookit da pimples, eek!!

My sista eksen2 pose liat2 mags...wawawa..

Those ummm, cute beautiful boxes of cookies from Famous Amos~ balikannn~ :P

My sista eksen2 candid pose...wawawawa...mental ko ah!

Yes, me and my sista again...this time, near a Christmas tree pat Bintang Plaza.

Me, enjoying my Pizza Hut BBQ Spicy Wings...Nyaman~~ :P

My new slippers~ yeszaa...

FRIDAY (23/11) :


Went to Miri with da family in late afternoon. Shopped there ( well I didn't exactly shop sal budget limited edition..wawawa.) Bought Potty's Revive and just a couple of things for myself. A new toothbrush. My Olay moisturiser. A can of Yeo's Q aloe vera grape drink (which is not available in Brunei, buring ah..nyaman kali ah..lol). A new non-slip slippers. Wawawawa. Took some pictures with my sista, who was 'iski' tapi managed only some pictures because I lost my mood during shopping time. Hohoho. Hanya tani2 saja yang tau tuh Pot~Kekeke...

And oh, my!! I finally found those black bracelets I've been DYING to get. Sadly, nada budget ku. No money, no buy loh. I only caught glimpses of them and felt my heart broken. Aiseh..not broken but more to bruised...really. I want THOSE!!!

Back at home, it was about 8pm. Slept late. Again. This time I slept at 2am. Haha. This answers why I have pimply face now!! OH no~~~ :S Oxy, oxy~kekekkee...



SATURDAY (24/11) :


Returned to the hostel late in the morning and took a nap for awhile. Bangun dari my short nap, I went online and chatted with whomever was available. Got really bored and so, jalan. Pikir kan shopping skajap ja di Batu Besurat tapi I ended up going 'menyukat' Gadong and Kiulap. Lapas atu, due to extreme boredom and having that loneliness gnawing inside me, I went to Tutong. Hahaha. Sanggup tuhuskan minyak kereta ani wah!! Went to a friend's house, tapi ya nada and so decided to drop by to Kubamz's house. There, I 'lepak' from 6pm to 9pm. Wanted to sleep over there but I didn't bring any of my clothes to change into in the morning. Drove back to Bandar and back to hostel where I saw Daus with Yoyo. Got out, Daus approached me and well, we went gossiping and talked and chatted and 'bejabir' from my car sampai ke parking lot di hostel atu until it was 11pm. Haha. Atu pun kes terpaksa end at 11pm because the female hostel's gate will be locked at that time. Lau nda, panjang lagi taya kali bicara kami dua. Haha! Had another great time chit-chat with you lah Daus. Let's do that again next time. :D


Went to my room and I went online. Potty thought I went to KB~ Hahaa. Atooooo terer ku sorang2 kan ke KB~~ LOL..then explained to her that I didn't but I did think of going to KB, wanted to meet him. Hahaha. So we basically chatted as usual and Potty surrendered to sleep at about 2am. I still kept awake until it was 4am. Strangely, I didn't remember what I was doing sampai tido kul 4am. Haha. What WAS I doing?!!!

SUNDAY (25/11):

Woke up kinda early. Got SMSed by him. Haha. And he misscalled me first. Which is a weird thing. Replied his SMS and we went SMS-ing each other sampai sadang jua tuhusnya our 3g prepaid credits. Then he surrendered to his sleep. LOL. Aaah, after that, I went online and chatted with some peepz. Chatted with Nurul and fooled her into thinking I was in RIPAS, kan melawat ya. Hahaha. But then, of course, took a quick shower and off I went to RIPAS.

Went straight to Burn Unit where my dear Shidah dalenk was waiting. We chatted for a couple of minutes before she's off from duty. Then we made a phone call to dear Potty who was being in-charge of the day. LOL. Suprised you, didn't I? Made a plan to visit Nurul's father and me and my Shidah went to Ward 12 because Potty was nowhere yet to be found. I waited until Shidah had to go home and left waiting for Potty. Got Potty and off we went to visit Nurul's father. Met Nurul, joked a bit here and there. Haha. I was kinda speechless looking at her father who was lying there on the bed. It was..really scary in a way. Anyway, we left soon and targeted the canteen to have my so-called brunch.Toinkz, nada roti talo~ Oh mann...Potty then suggested to go to Faize in Beribi. So off we went there, but after Potty changed into her casual clothes.

Ate in Faize. Nyaman ruti talo nya. Wawawawa. Treat Pot for her ruti talo and her ice lemon tea. Then bincang-bincang mana kan jalan and urgh, I was seduced to go to KB. Haha. So we went to KB. Yes, we did. Sanggup c Pot sponsored minyak keta~ Hahaha..

Wanted to suprise our beloveds~ however, it didn't went through. Rusak plan!! And so after 'menyukat' Pandan for awhile, Potty's friend told us where they were and off we went to Soon Lee first, kan ke jamban, before heading to Gerai Simpur. And soooo....we arrived there, Potty met her cayang and the gang, lepak sana sampai about pukul 9pm. Siuk jua lah, happening. Hahaa. I had a great laugh hanging out with them, walaupun aku pendiam. Wawawa. Lum panas lagi wahh~ Then we went to cayang Potty's punya house at Pandan which was not far from his house. AhA!! Potty SMSed him to come over and soon after, he did. Then Potty went datenx sama cyg nya~I was left with himm..oho!

I admit, I was nervous. I didn't really want to see him as I looked him looking so tired and sleepy. Kesian eyh. And I know he wasn't that glad to see me because he knowsssss that we'll eventually talk a lot (well, it's him who will 'bejabir' a lot and I usually listened to him..) and for quite a longgggggg time (it won't be for an hour or so..lol..selalunya cematu la). Haha. But then well, we had our conversations in his car. Like usual, him always blurting out his problems and concerns. I listened. My hands were playing on his hair and I massaged his shoulders.*stoopid laugh* LOL. He was a bit unwell, he sniffled and sneezed and he has a blocked nose. I felt pity, but well, I wanted him to go back but then, he started to talk and talk and well, I'm just letting him talk. Haha. I didn't want it to end but it had to.

About 12am, we left KB. Otw to Bandar, I continuosly blabbered a lot. Haha. Palau Pot?:P Arrived at Potty's house at 1am. Didn't slept until it was 1.40am. Hahaha.

Well, that's all...fuh, what a longgggggggg post! :D

Lurbe,

Kisho [229]

??

I am BORED. And LONELY!!!

That is why I spent 3 hours, menyukat Brunei. And now, the wireless connection is toying with me. I am pathetically BORED!

And now, I've made a decision. I'm off to somewhere. Hahaha.

Daus tagged me~ U torturer!!

Daus tagged me and well, I guess I should answer, aight??

1. Tell us your name:
What name? Real name? Glamorous name? Haha. Real short name is Ummi, which means 'mother' in Arabic. Lau nama fullku, in Arabic maknanya 'ibu kebajikan'.Kisho is my so-called commercial name, which means 'he who knows himself'. Male name in Japan.

2. Three things about yourself:
Stubborn. Emotional. Single but taken.

3. What’s in your playlist:
Slow ballad songs, like Faizal Tahir's Kasih Tercipta and yada..yada..yada...mcm2 adaaa~

4. Your favourite music:
Slow ballad songs..huhu. That is just me.:D

5. Favourite guilty pleasure:
Shop til u broke! wawawa...mental~

6. Favourite food:
Chinese..hey, Daus pun sama? Kwang3x...but really, I love Chinese foods~

7. Define love:
Love is a part of life and it's unfair, MOST of the time!! Yet we are drawn to it, wanted or not~

8. Define sex:
Sex? Sex is the shortform word we used to define sexual intercourse.LOL...antamz saja lah. Make me sound stupid, duh~

9. Any celebrity crushes?:
Hohoho. Sapa ah? Ally Iskandar~ ;P

10. The last person you hugged:
Dling Dhirah~ mwahsss...cyg Dhirah owes~ makin akuuuu cintaaa~Hhahaha..Gay nyeee~

11. The last person you talked to:
My dad...told him that I'm off to hostel~

12. The last time you cried:
A few days' ago. Hoho. Like I said, I'm very emotional..kwang3x...

13. The last time you had sex:
Hahaha. Ask me this when I get married~ Lalalaalalala~ Perverts!!

14. The last time you made out:
Oh? Ask me this WHEN i got someone to snog~ LOL...

15. The last person you dated:
Him~ the one and only.. I'm just not up to dating again~ Nope, yup, yup, yup...besides, he has my heart. Haha. Cana kan bagi pat urang lain?:P

16. The last time you went out:
Went out with Potty ke Mall..huhuhu..

17. What’s on your mind now?:
Him!!!Love him~ Puke people, puke!! I am sorry to say I just can't stop saying about him! HAHAHA...

18. What’s bothering you?:
My life. Ditto.

19. This year’s resolutions:
I have no resolutions this year...what will happens, just happens...poyo je~

20. Your MSN nick:
[mie^229]Mahakarya Cinta

21. What’s your MSN nick about?:
Faizal Tahir's song, Mahakarya Cinta.I just absolutely love the song..hohoho~

22. The people you miss the most:
Him, and him, and him, and him. oh Not to forget, him. Hahaha..:P

23. Current mood:
Tired, a bit upset but I'm just okay~~

24. What are you thinking?:
Thinking of him~ and thinking of why did Daus torture me by tagging me to answer this questions!!! xD

25. Best childhood memory:
Being free, without any adult responsibilities and obligations...lalalalala~

26. 3 of your biggest fears:
Rejection, death and loneliness.

28. 3 of the things you hate:
Lizards. Drugs. the biatch. LOL..

29. Do you blog?:
Nda!!! Hahaha...stooopid2~ I do blog bah..for my emo rants and blabberings~LOL..

30. Tag 5 people:
Must i? Sapa nah? I just don't know..wawawa..tag you back, you you who tagged me! :P Antamz2..

Phewww....that was tiring. Hahaha...

Today yet again..yellow lite!!

Had a briefing this morning in college. Double diploma's approval to go to KL is still in the 'yellow light' area. I got demotivated but the tutors said, we will eventually go to KL but maybe a few days' late or anytime sooner!! Pray that we will go!! I need to pack my things~

Had a Doa Selamat session with the tutors and the colleagues who will be going to KL this Saturday. A little tea break session and off I went to talk with Leena regarding Nurul. While conversing merrily, Daus came and joined us. Huhu. Had a great chit chat about our lives (mostly Daus plg) and then, it stretched to a long conversation with the other peepz. Thanks Daus for walking back to the hostel with me. Hoho. Sambil bergusip. Tawakal ja Daus, hopefully it will run smoothly. Get some strong backups, yeah?

Anyway, had a thought..Degree in Paediatric Nursing with Post Graduate to Operating Theatre Nursing? Wow...will I ever reach that? I wanted it but I have no self motivation to study for now. My mind is constantly thinking of work, the income it will brings to my family and myself. Hohoho. Mom previously offered me to continue my studies in undertaking the degree course but I am determined not to go yet. I will, for the next three years' of working experience~ Hahaha..just not now. To Daus, good luck for your Public Health degree course..community love~Haha.

Another thought struck me..how is Nurul? Nada berita eyh. I'm worried but I don't want to upset her. I hope everything's fine...Ya Allah, tabahkan lah hati Nurul dalam menghadapi dugaan hidup yang Kau berikan ini...


And so, this is my blog post for today~ I'm gonna go back to Tutong, back to home sweet home~~ Tomorrow, will be Miri!! Hahaha...asikkk~ Babah terima gaji today udah~:D Will cambitch there with my sister..wawawa...Expect some pictures when I get back!!

Lurbe,

Kisho [229]

"Miri, here I come...one of Brunei's cambitches is coming fer ya~"

Alhamdulillah for the things in life...:D

Went out today. Alone. My 'no mood' mode was making me 'mental'.

Sal aku lapar. Berabishly. Texted my cinta Shidah, wanted to antar the kad jemputan kawin from El. Tunggu punya tunggu,she's not home. Aahh...buring! My hunger literally disappeared sekajap and so, wanted to chill myself out...I went to....the pantai~ Alone, macam c palui. Hahaha. Which pantai? Malas ku bagitau. Biar jadi rahsia~ Hehehe...Anywhere, nda sampai 5 minutes, I left the pantai..sal aku takut. LOL..malam kali ahh ke pantai atu!! Pisan...ada plg urang tapi well, pandai jua ku takut. Kekeke...at least, I smelled the ocean~ Tenang sikit~ :D

Off to Batu Besurat. Laju ku dribe. Kan mati. Ujan tah lagi. Makan Ayamku. Atu tah yang paling murah and affordable for me at this moment. Kapih bui. Ate my Ayamku Goreng while looking at the world around me. Macam-macam ada. Kan ambil gambar of myself, malu jua...hawar nyanta sal banyak urang sana sini...Wawawa. Karang nya urang, luan jua vain atu sampai siuk sendiri bergambar~ HAHAHAH..so nada pix tah ni..buring~:S

As I 'ratah' my piece of fried chicken, I saw a couple nearby. Looking lovey dovey and well, it made me feel 'jealous' and lonely. Omg~ At that moment, I felt I was the most loneliest people on earth! Selalu nya ada Potty or others to be with me. Ani, nada! Surang-surang ku eh..wawawa. And my mind reeled back to him, yesh, him. I wish we could spend the time together right there. Together, in love. Deep in love. Majal. Huhuh. Then I thought of my friends. Shucks, without you peepz, I think I might lose my mind. How can I live without you??!! Kamu tah sumber ilmu jiwa inspirasi motivasi asi2 ku~~ :P Haha. A sudden gratefulness began to emerge inside me and I am thankful to Allah for giving me friends and gave me the chance to love. Alhamdulillah~

As I took another bite on my yummy fried chicken thigh, I looked at my right side. Children. A little girl looked back at me with a wide smile and I found myself smiling back. Then I saw the mother and the girl's siblings. Happiness, I found myself thought. A happy family. Again, I felt grateful for having my family in my life. Alhamdulillah. Although they sometimes sucks a lot. Haha. At the same time, my mind just returned to thoughts of him. How wonderful it would be to start a family with him, with our own kids. He would be a great father. He loves kids. Haha. Me, on the other hand, will be a paediatric nurse...so, kids will be the main client in my career. Darn, as I realised that I was thinking of him, I went and transferred some of my 3G credit to him. Haha. Biar taya marah~ I don't care~

While sipping my Pepsi, I saw a transvestite...well, 'pundan'. He, er, she *coz he got boobs...* was 'main mata' with the cleaner in Ayamku. Hahaa. I laughed silently as the cleaner 'tekirik' and then just shook his head with disbelief. That was entertaining for me and I stifled a laugh when the 'pundan' kinda searched for the cleaner after that. Hahaha. Not long after that, I observed a tomboy with her dalenk. They were chatting away happily as they ate. The tomboy was 'rugged'. The dalenk was pretty. Huhuhu. I smiled to myself again. Ah, life...Love knows no boundaries. I wonder how much our society has changed...I wonder why we are what we are. What made us who we are? Mysteries of life...

Halfway finishing my Pepsi, I received his misscall. Aha. Smiled broadly I did. But I ignored it, continuing my observation to the environment around me. Saw foreigners queuing up to pay their groceries at the cashier, saw some of the foreigners hang out in front of Chong Hock while watching what's playing on the TV at the shop. I wonder what they have gone throught for today...I wonder and wonder, how does it feel to live their lives? Huhu..Banyak pikir~ Then went online, chatted with Emma for awhile. Then off, sal Emma mau tdo..wawawa.

Finished my Pepsi and off I went to the CD's shops. Browsing through for the latest movies in store. Cuci mata menengok what's playing on the TV *terasa ku plg mcm urg foreigners tadi* Haha. Alone. Felt that loneliness again. Adui..usually, he was with me when we wanted to browse for new movies, I enjoyed spending times with him as we talked about that and this movies on the spot.Critics we are~..Hahaha. Him again. Bah adang eyh. LOL...Didn't buy anything and hurriedly I went to my car, driving back to my hostel.

Arrived safely. And here I am. Tired and full. LOL..Syukur alhamdulillah, I'm safe and sound~ Then I received his other misscall. Haha. Atu banar~ I forgot about balas misscall nya yang first ah.LOL..then pasal kesian, I misscalled him back. Aaah...and I got a bit of my mood back~and soooo that's the end of my story~LOL

Moral of the story, try to be observant as you sat alone somewhere in public..there should be something that will put that question mark in your head. Haha. And of course, you will learn something sedikit sebanyak...I did. Never thought it can be an eye opener. Huhuh...Well, I'm glad I went alone tonight for a short trip to see the 'world' in a glimpse..LOL...

Lurbe,

Kisho [229]

"Aku rajin update today..wawawa...and Alhamdulillah kepada Allah di atas segala apa yg ku miliki.."

September oh September~

Got this masa browsing through www.gua.com.my pat forum nya...Huhu..you should check the website..wawawa~


SEPTEMBER

* Sangat bersopan santun & bertolak ansur.
"Sadang jua sopan santun ku..ahakz, bertolak ansur? depending certain situations ja"

* Sangat cermat, teliti & teratur.
"Well, at times...huhu, not really organised eyh...teliti? well, a bit~"

* Suka menegur kesilapan orang lain & mengkritik.
"Awo, this is true..wawawa. Tapi teruk la time dulu than now. Now less criticism depending on the situation..wawawa~Tapi ada time nya, datang taya balik penyakit ani.."

* Pendiam tapi pandai bercakap.
"Pendiam when orang lain pendiam jua..wawa..pemalu when orang lain pemalu.LOL..and Of course lah aku pandai bercakap..kekeke..tapi nda pandai sweet talk eyh..:P"

* Sikap sangat cool, sangat baik & mudah simpati.
"Cool? Nda jua..sangat baik? ahakz..antah lah ahh, sendiri mau tau la..mudah simpati?erm..sadang lah...huhuhuhu.."

* Sangat perihatin & terperinci, amanah, setia & jujur.
"Perihatin, awo if I know you well...wawawa..terperinci, nda eh. Amanah?em..at times sja..LOL. Setia? Yesh, really superly setia..Jujur? Bolehlah...liat situations.."

* Kerja yang dilakukan sangat sempurna.
"Nda jua lah..wawawa..masani nda g berapa organized...pisan!"

* Sangat sensitif yang tidak diketahui.
"Awo, i admit aku sensitif...luar ok, tp dlm hati, u don't know eh..wawawa..."

* orang yang banyak berfikir.
"Yup, aku banyak fikir..I think too much for my own good...pisan~"

* Daya pentaakulan yang baik.
"Bwuh..apa g ni?Hahaha...maybe jua~"

* Otak bijak & mudah belajar.
"Not bijak sangat..nda jua mudah belajar..wawawa..payah2an nyanta~"

* Suka mencari maklumat.
"Yesh, general info..wawaa..yang unik2 berabish..atu tah yang ku suka baca and cari.."

* Kawal diri dari terlalu mengkritik.
"Awo, masani pandai kawal diri udah..hehe..sabar~"

* Pandai mendorong diri sendiri.
"Hahaha..kadang2 saja...motivate diri sendiri..:P"

* Mudah memahami orang lain kerana banyak menyimpan rahsia.
"Nda jua..I find it difficult to paham urang nowadays...and well, I do simpan byk rahsia..:P"

* Suka sukan, hiburan & melancong.
"Kinda..wawawa..hiburan, for sure!! melancong, oh yesh I love it~~"

* Kurang menunjukkan perasaannya.
"Awo, true enough.. ku nda suka show what I really feel..takut menyusahkan urang.."

* Terluka hatinya sangat lama disimpan.
"Hahaha..like what, now?? Terluka hati ku ani...sapa sudi merawat? :P"

* Terlalu memilih pasangan.
"Hohoho..awo..I am choosy. Damn right, tapi nda teruk macam dulu la..masani, what I'm searching for is someone with a good sense of humor...huhuhu."

* Sukakan benda yang luas.
"Hahaha...well, nda jua lah..."

* Bersistematik
"Hell no~~ Nda pun..wawawa..udah tah nda organized, how can I be systematic? :P"


Bah atu saja daulu..wawawa..sekali nya rajin ku mengupdate ani...

Interbiu n Rafidah~ :P

Kinda demotivated right now..seems like our double diploma clinical attachment to KL is pending. OMG~ Will I not spend my one month there?? Hahaha..Insya-Allah saja. Anyway, the inservices are going this Saturday. Geez...how about us? Mudahan tah jadi jalan..I need my sought after vacation plus experience wise trip~ Lalalala...and lots of cam bitching session with the cam bitches~ :D

My hands are rough. *horrors* Bakas cleaning up my hostel's shower room and toilet. Clorox. Bau Clorox tangan ku ani. LOL. So rough I felt my hands have aged faster than my real age. Hahaha. Nantitah bagi lotion..but eep! Mana lotion? Bwuh...it must be somewhere...emmm...

Me with da bottle of Clorox..eh? I mean, Cocorex..wawawa..Bleach!!

Skipping that up, I had an interview this morning with the coordinator. Haha. I was nervous and the questions were, intimidating enough for me. I had to rack my brains in finding the suitable answers. Terasa macam pelakon kana interbiu. Hohoho. One of the things that the tutor asked was,

"How is your interest in Paediatric Nursing? Has it grown in you during your one year course?"

Ans : A bit. It used to be 40% but now, it's 70%. Maybe when I work in a paediatric setting in the future, I will gain more interest. Insya-Allah. *mutters under breath* Hopefully!

Hahaha. Okay. Is that a true answer? Awo, banar. Only 70% of interest in Paediatric nursing. Not bad kan? But I need to up sikit eyh. I was , kinda, forced but then again, it's my choice. Hopefully I'll be more interested in the years to come~ Insya-Allah.

Then the tutor suggested me a career that may suit me in the future in the paediatric setting. Apa nah? The Paediatric OT Nurse.Nasib bukan Paediatric Emergency Nurse. I don't like emergencies~~~ Wawawa..anyway, rugged bunyinya. I was like, uh, ada kan course miatu? The tutor only smiled and said, awo and it would be perfect for me. And there should be one someday in Brunei, a.k.a Me? LOL... I then interestedly asked how can I get into such career. Terpaksa ambil degree in Paediatric Nursing and then take postgraduate degree in OT. LOL. Atu ya~~Wah...then she asked what other paediatric nursing area would I like to specialized? I, unthoughtfully answered, Paediatric Oncology Nursing. Slam! F*ck, did I say that? No,no, not that! I no like. The tutor just looked at me, and I was smiling, covering the debate inside my mind. I would love to be a Paediatric Oncology Nursing but NOT in Brunei. That should've been my answer but I just shut my mouth. OMG!

Soon after, she asked me all sorts of questions. I was, kinda struggling to confidently say, "Yup, I can do that!"..HAHAHAHA. Stupid me. I was afraid and nervous. Anyway, by the end of the 30 minutes interview session, she asked me who will I nominate for the best clinical student, academic student and leadership. Hohoho...I had no difficulties in nominating except the best academic student in my course. Haha. Napa nah? Because..I wasssss, as you can say, one of the best student in the course. LOL. And the tutor suggested to me if I would nominate myself..Hhaha. No way. I am not confident with me being the best academic student in paediatric course. As I said to my tutor,

"I'm not confident nominating myself as a best academic student because I know myself well, I do well but not well enough..I should nominate someone who I think challenge me in some way, someone who is suitable and participate in everything in the course..and that would be...TUttt~ But for the others, they might choose me, however, it takes a lot to be a best academic student, I'm just not it.."

Fuh..wawawa..mengada ah bunyinya? But it's true. I hope they don't nominate me as the best student in paediatric~ no thank you..I'm not qualified to take that honour~ But I'm just happy if you think *think saja, not really nominate* I should be nominated. LOL...Vote for Kisho~:P

And aww...I realised that my blog lacked pictures. Hhuhu. I just don't know what I should upload in my blog. No new pictures I've taken. No super duper events. Btw thanks to Potty and Nurul for treating me out yesterday~ Terima kasih..Saya sayang kamu~ HAHAHA...Nantitah membalas budi~ :D

And also, lau jadi ke KL ani..and if I have the money, I will and I will cut my hair, well, trim sikit la and highlight it!!! Blue~ Blue~~~ Hahahaha...nda plg brapa nampak tuh da highlite but at least, I got blue highlite~~ Lau kaler lain, ketara taya..ndamo eyh~ No like..and oh, hehehe, someone complimented me saying I looked like Rafidah from 3R. Wawawa...ya kan? Nda jua~ But I am a fan of Rafidah..huhu, ever since I watched 3R with my sister..wawawa. Peminat nyanta~ :D Like her style and her haircut~ whoo-hoo!! Maybe pasal my haircut atu kali kana ucap I looked like her, besides, we wear spectacles..wawaa...~ Oh well, it's an honour though~ Hahahaha...If I WAS a guy, I might be attracted to ladies like her~ Huhuh..*winx* Btw, jangan tease me wah that I looked like Rafidah~I am NOT!! Wawawawa..Belabih kamu ani~ :D

So not like Rafidah..wawaa..eh, imagine me with my blue highlights? wow..

Da pretty babe~ Wawawa...I'm just a FAN! a FAN, goddamnnit~

And so..toodles~ Hahahah..I wanna get some shut-eye~ Lapar ey....

Lurbe,

Kisho [229]

"Bilatah kan ke KL ani???"

Addicted~ :D

I love Faizal Tahir's songs. Hahaha. Best~

Eh, apa aku merepek ni?!! Wawawawa~ Lately, his songs are playing through my mind constantly. Addicted. And even in the midst of this morning and with the risk that I'll be late for college, doesn't stop me from blogging here and pratically say,

"I LOVE Faizal Tahir's songs!!!"

Enough said, I think I'm undergoing phases of mentalism. Lalalala, Faizal Tahir~~ lurbeeeee your songs~ Huhuhuhu. *addicted*

End. *crazy laughter!!*

Wicked,

Kisho [229]

"Kau bagaikan udara yang membantu aku untuk terus hidup di atas dunia~ tanpamu ku lemah, pasti ku takkan berdaya~ kerna kau mahakarya cinta~"