A voice from da heart~

Just posting saja2 here...

I'm in a deep stress lately ani..ntah lah..I'm just f***ing unhappy with the way my life goes...Too much going inside my mind, too much I need to be responsible for..too much events...hahahaha..I'm totally gonna whacked my head if I get so much tension due to all of these...Kepisan eyh~ I wish I'm not who I am..I wish I can just go away from my life and live a life of another..hohohoh..macam tah dpt nya~ Lalalalala...No matter what, I feel like I need a smoke..hahahaha..sampaikan when I put it into my nick in MSN, some people tagur aku with their concerns and questions....Would I smoke???? Perhaps, maybe~ Ntahlah...I feel so stressed out, rasanya kan yell at somebody and just throw my rage at him/her!!! HOHOHO...oh be damned~ I'm stressed...

Besides, HE is also included in my stressful stressing dilemmas~hahahaha...damn HIM! HE's such a jerk...I HATE HIM! OH YES!! Damn it...damn it. Oh man...I take back my own words..I don't HATE HIM...I LOVE HIM, from before until now and into the future...oh damn it...S***!! God, help me~ He's making it all confusing and mixed up...and I just realized that my LOVE for HIM is not fading away, instead it's blazing in flames for HIM...no matter what HE does, I just can't shake that feelings for HIM...damn it~ Oh curse it all...

I'm sick of putting on my smiles now...I'm not happy..I'm not showing myself in front of everybody..I'm limited in my own body and thoughts of despair, of pain, of sadness...Geez...I need a break...I just need to cry...I wanna cry and just let it all out...even though crying is what I considered a MAJOR weakness...oh man~

In Distress,
Kisho-Sama
Min Macho (totally approval pending)

=Bring me back the one I love because with HIM, I have all the happiness in my life...*sigh*=

Gambar2 hangat...@Ideal & @Sushi Tei

15/1/2007 @ Ideal Gadong - celebrating Kubamz' belated birthday wif a suprise cake..hehe! Suka suprise kami Bamz??hehe..

Kubamz dengan mua terharu nyaaa...hehe...Cian Kubamz tekojut~

Birthday cake Kubamz yang dibeli dgn gagasnya oleh me & Shidah bebeh...hehe..Alai Kubamz with LOves!

Ahhh..Potty cover mulut~ Takut kana suap ka Pot?LOL..Kubamz maintain teharu nya wif da suprise cake..hehe

26/1/07 @ Sushi Tei...hehehe..

My Tsukimi Udon Noodles wif raw egg yolk...yummy x ahh~ Hehehe...

Potty menengok Sushi...penyubukan tym~ Hahah..Nampak lapar mua atu Pot!!

Potty wif her chopsticks and her em, unusual watermelon juice..huhuhu..lidah atu Pot~

Kubamz wif her chopsticks..huhu.Mua baru 1st tym makan sushi~ next tym g k Bamz?

Sushi Tei..kekek..1st tym~

Assalamualaikum peepz...

Well, updating da bloggy ani...ku kan gto yg hari ani aku sungguh gumbira..LOL..apakanz..nadalah, well, actually nya ari ani aku merasai experience makan di japanese restaurant for da first tym nyamu..hahaha..tq2 to dang kubamz & potty latenx yg mendangani..well, sort of mendangani ke Sushi Tei ahh...kekeke...it was fun guys with our 'sakai-ness' di sana..LOL...

To start off, banarnya ku dapat voucher $20 to eat rah Sushi Tei tym ku membali kain for my use lah untuk post basic ah...kekeke..spent over $100 ++ bh, yatah kana bari toh da voucher. Masalahnya ialah, ku nda brapa andal mamam sushi..well, I can eat tapi nda andal...kekeke..and so, bermulanya pencarian ku mencari calon utk di belanja sushi free..kononnya lah ahh~well then ku ingat potty pernah minta blanja-ing sushi kan, yatah after persetujuan, go wif her lah..wawawa...

And so today, we go lah rah Sushi Tei..mulanya we dunno bah panya buka only 6pm to ??pm..hhehe, awal we go bah cos antat c potty ke dst HQ for antar-ing da borang to apply kaja...and so, with 2 hours to waste, we go to the Mall (di mana jua lagi kan??) wit Potty ngambil usin and then we go for drinks...kekekek...rah Fruities...ku drink Choc shake wif Kubamz while Potty wif her Berry2?? hahaha..nda ku ingat...anyway, lapas drinking2 n byk observing da people...we go rah arcade, layan karaoke-ing session...4 lagu ganya cos kapih bah ni..hahahaha..gilo jua lah, layan lagu yg high pitching x ahhh~ begagar eardrums ku tym nyanyi high pitch songs......hahhaa..

Lapas atu, we go lah to Sushi Tei and wow~ the environment ah...standard ehh..mcm mahal...takut2 lagi toh kami masuk..hahaha...ingau ati ku g f da voucher nda valid...kepisan tuh ehh...anyway, kami pun duduk di sana and browsing da menu...wit 'sakai-ness' lah cos first tym kan. Nice jua lah da waitress recommend2 da food tapi masalahnya, em, mahal nyer...lapas buat keputusan yang em, payah kan dibuat we decided lah mau eat2 apa...me and Potty eat udon while Kubamz eat teriyaki chix...nyaman jualah~ Hahahahah...and funny jualah menengok skill surang2 makai chopsticks ahh.hahhahaa..especially tym patahkan da chopsticks separately...kekeke...lapas atu, we pun 'culik2' da sushi yg going around2 near our meja ah...cute usul c Potty menengok da sushi go pass kami ah...me and Potty tah urg yang penyubukan meliat inti sushi yang ada..wawawa, while c Kubamz wif her blank face not sure what to eat..Congratz to Kubamz lah cos berjaya makan sushi pertama nya!! HAHAHA...nyum2 lah da sushi...emm..also we eat da 'sotong'..emm, nyummy jua ei..sodappp..

After a while, baru da foods & drinks dtg and we pun menjamu selera...hahaha. Nyaman2 da foods we eat eh...guna skill 'chopstick-ing' lagi toh...ahakz..slurpppp~~ sodapp...sambil2 mkn jua, we penyubukan jua da sushi yg lintas2 dakat kami ah..aihh, rasanya mau 'culik2' lagi ah da sushi tapikan...bill kami atu over da limit of da voucher...kekekek..atu ya banar...cian jua ku tpaksa Kubamz and Potty membayar jua. Sowie kamu..nda kira membelanja-ing jua toh..hahahaha...sowie ehh...anyway, funny lah tym c Kubamz rakam ku mamam da raw yolk dlm my tsukimi udon atu..nyum jua raw egg yolk...LOL...sodapppp...tais liur ku plg!! Hahaha..anyway, kanyang lah eat2 di sana...and masa we paid da bill, kami kana bagi each one a card yg bagi kami 10% discount f we eat sana again..wow~~~ serunukkkkk...next tym g ehhh...
Lapas atu, we go SKH kajap to dangani Potty buy soft drink nya and lapas atu, sent Potty home lahh...hahaha...

And so, balik hostel...mengampai jua ehh..kanyang & buyung wif too much fluid...kekeke..so hepi lahh today..and HIM..owh, man..He's making me confused...ARGH!!! I LOVE HIM SOOOOO MUCH!! Kan mati eyhhh...ahakz..this love is too much for me....hehehehe..

That's all ja lah..malas ku menaip g banarnya..hahahaha...apakanz...next tym g update...=p

Lurve,
Kisho-Sama
Min Macho (pending infinitely)

=Why did he say he missed me so much yet hurts me by leaving me??=

Paning ei~

Assalamualaikum para hadirin dan hadirat..kekeke..

To start off, aku naleh banarnya...Post Basic Course in Paediatric Nursing is 'TOUGH'...bukan senang nak senang, bukan susah nak susah..keke..yang pentingnya, aku rasa my course ani payah, perhaps only in the beginning plg...F nda,erkz...oooh man, this is gonna be my 'BRAIN TWISTING' year of my life...kekekeke...paning ku eihh...

2 days without studies..emm, siuk tapi naleh...terpaksa go ke library and browse thru the damn 'money swindling' internet world for research papers which are...semuanya kan berbayar ja..Hahahaha....not that helpful arah students and not that good enough to help us unfortunate students to be 'gila' mencari bahan bacaan untuk di kritik dan di jadikan assignments...kekeke..mampos ehh...teruk nyeee~~~

Life is complicated...kekeke..that's what it is...Btw, I'm not one of the chosen ones to have a degree this year...Hahahahaha..ndapalah, I'm fine with it...just that aku rasa a bit 'strange'...kekekke..jeles??Perhaps...Well, I'm wishing the people who got it to be successful~yeah!! I've had my part tym di Brisbane and hell, never I want to go thru that damn life anymore...kekekek..apakanz...So Chaiyoooo!!!

Lurve,
Kisho-Sama
Min Macho...ku kiut~

=I miss him more and more!!! Kenapa tia??Aiyo....this is plain stupid~=

My Path To The Future~

Assalamualaikum peepz...

Hohoho...things were going on fine masa ani~ Well, not as expected tapi fine enough~ I finally got my results!!! And yeah, aku passed!!!! Although not with flying colours or gemilang ceria, tapi at least I passed..heheh, which is a miracle...ehem2...of course, I don't expect it to happen sebab tym ku exams, I was in a great state of 'FRUSTRATION' & 'BROKEN HEARTED' so badly...kekekeke, but alhamdulillah lah dat aku passed~~ I'm happy...that I cried masa my results was announced...fuhhh, airmata duyung...kekeke...I was a bit frustrated sebab HE was not among the people who passed...and I cried again...REALLy cried dapan Nurul & Lina with them comforting me with the thoughts that aku nangis because I was sooo happy..tapi not~~ How I wished so much that HE would be joining us nanti tym graduation...I want to see his happy face...I want him to be happy so badly that I would give half of my marks to HIM!! Hohoho...so blinded by LOVE~~

Anyway, aku kana offered a year course in Paediatric Nursing...oh no, which is not my field of interest tapi, erm..mana jua ulah...I accepted it reluctantly and unsurely..kekeke..terima ja tah, antamz tia ehhh!!! And yeah, my 1st day in the course?? It was...'RUSH HOUR'..ahakz...semua subjects just macam serang kami all at once...Paning eyh...Too much to catch up~ Sakit kepala memikirkan...Groupworks, assignments, presentations, brainstorming...eeek!!! Kepisan ku eyh...membari stress jua rasanya...And with the look on my face, totally aku blank tym in classes...I focused on the subjects tapi aku lum dapat catch up lagi..HAHAHAH..damn it~ Mental ku eyhhh...Contract learning lagi nanti???Extended project lagi??!! Oooh makkk....rasa macam nda sanggup..too much too handle too quick...kekekee..apakanz!! I'm not a fast learner..wuhhhuuuuu~ oh man....this is 'exhausting'...totally challenging...kekekekekek...

Erm, we only got 8 students in Paed..hehe, including me lah...3 from the inservices...and 5 from the basic diploma...wawawa...so totaled at 8 people...hohoho...Not that many eyh the students so a bit...emm...nda meriah...and um, a bit nda ngam with me...HOHOHO...alum lagi adapt bah...kekeke...and the teachers, ummm...ku nda brapa minat..hehe..the subjects? erkz...nda terkata lagi betapa aku nda brapa interested in it....Like I said, paed is not that interesting to me...but if ada kemahuan, di situ ada jalan!! GO GO GO!! Mesti berusaha dengan baik...show the world that I can become a PAEDIATRIC NURSE!! yezaaaaa...kekeke...ohh no, terpaksa aku jadi lemah lembut and not that pemarah tah ni? esh3x..so NOT me...I love kids tapi if yang gauk kan mampus atu, erm...I tend to get ANNOYED...and last2 nya, aku marah or melakukan aksi2 ganas seperti mencubit...kekekke....atu kejam aku ah...adui...high blood pressure~~~ =p

Ato saja tah for now...btw, my bilik hostel dapat wireless for free...wawawa...untung ku dpt bilik ani....HOHOHOHO...now dpat online 24 hours...ngeh3x...I'm sooooooo lucky~ Free online-ing!!! Yezaaaa!!!!!!!

Lurve,
Kisho-Sama
Min Macho?? Erm...:X

- I still love him...and he makes me confused with his actions and words...and I hope I still get that chance to be with him again...forever and happily..XP-

Aishah's wedding~

Aishah so sweeeeeeeeetttttttttttttttt!!!

Sweet Aishah ehh wif da hubby...luv da kaler eyh! Blueee nyee...

Tym adat berbasuh kaki..kekeke...adat urg Tutong nih...

Aishah sooo sweet dgn senyumannya wif da hubby..:D

Tym bersanding lapas majlis akad nikah..hehe!

Ku masukkan gambar2 tym Aishah kawin nih...wawawa...sesiapa saja yg mau liat. suruh ja menengok di sini...tapi i put only some2 ja lah..not many lohhh~ cos abis kredit ku krg mengupload byk gmbr ani..wawawa!! Lagipun, lag wahhh kuniksin aniiiiiiii...damn ehhh~ Anyway, enjoy k??? heheh...

Lurve,

Kisho-Sama