Cry for help...to no one~

I'm torn. I don't know what else to do.

Tonight was supposed to be cloud se7en again but...

What am I to do? How can I...? Oh God, please help me...I need your help. Never have I been so desperate for your help, dear God... There is no one that I can turn to; to speak these words caged inside me; to seek peace in wisdomful words... not even to my close friends. Only God. I need a miracle. I need magic.

I love him.Please God, give me the strength that I need. The courage in me.

I just wanna cry hard now. I wanna cry myself to sleep. I want to sleep and ease my thoughts on that facts that are haunting me right now. I'm sorry dear friends...I'm so sorry. If only things weren't complicated...If only life is just simple...Forgive me...I can't turn to you all..let this burden be mine and the pain only reaches to bleed me inside deeply..I'm sorry...I'm sorry to trouble your thoughts dear good friends...:'(

I'm sorry to my [015]...I wasn't strong enough. I wasn't good enough. I'm so sorry and it hurts so bad...God, please help me...I love him so dearly, so please don't take him away from me..I don't want him to be gone...

I cry for help and yet, no one can help me except you, Allah...

In pain,

Kisho[229]

"Let crimson tears fall on these stained cheeks...:'("