Sesaja to blog in some of my feelings right now. I'm a bit sad. A bit happy too. A bit emotional. LOL. Whatever it is, now I'm feeling really scared. Again, that fear threatened to drag myself into despair. Again, I am scared that I'll eventually lose him. That fear is real, tearing inside me..clawing deeply that I feel myself letting those tears flow once again. Huhu.Macam nya this September is my crying month. Just like last year. Esh...pitiful.:S
We had our 'curhat' on and off within last week. Mostly it was from him and I am, like always the loyal listener. Knowing that he cares for me enough, makes me love him much deeper. Knowing that he still regards me as someone special, makes me stay strong in my faith to him. Knowing that he's not so perfect at all, makes me promised him that I'll stand by his side. For him, I will. And he said, we'll go through all this; holding hands just like I said to him. I don't want to lose him...and he said I won't lose him. Can I trust such words again? I do. For love is all about trust. He said he trusts me and thus I trust him. With all my heart. But the fear still exists, as if I won't see him anymore, as if I will never live to see tomorrow again...
I want to see you...
I want to say it to you "I love you"....
And hug you as if...
Tomorrow there will be no more...
Lurve,
Kisho [229]
"Hand in hand, just like I promised to you...we'll go through those obstacles between us.."
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